My Testimony

First, here is one of my favorite passages in scripture. :)

2 Corinthians 11 and 12

Paul and the False Apostles

 “I hope you will put up with me in a little foolishness. Yes, please put up with me! ² I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy. I promised you to one husband, to Christ, so that I might present you as a pure virgin to him. ³ But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent’s cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ. ⁴ For if someone comes to you and preaches a Jesus other than the Jesus we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the Spirit you received, or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it easily enough.

⁵ I do not think I am in the least inferior to those “super-apostles.”^{[a] 6} I may indeed be untrained as a speaker, but I do have knowledge. We have made this perfectly clear to you in every way. ⁷ 

…..such people are false apostles, deceitful workers, masquerading as apostles of Christ. ¹⁴ And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. ¹⁵ It is not surprising, then, if his servants also masquerade as servants of righteousness. Their end will be what their actions deserve.

Paul Boasts About His Sufferings

¹⁶ I repeat: Let no one take me for a fool. But if you do, then tolerate me just as you would a fool, so that I may do a little boasting. ¹⁷ In this self-confident boasting I am not talking as the Lord would, but as a fool. ¹⁸ Since many are boasting in the way the world does, I too will boast. ¹⁹ You gladly put up with fools since you are so wise! ²⁰ In fact, you even put up with anyone who enslaves you or exploits you or takes advantage of you or puts on airs or slaps you in the face. ²¹ To my shame I admit that we were too weak for that!

Whatever anyone else dares to boast about—I am speaking as a fool—I also dare to boast about. ²² Are they Hebrews? So am I. Are they Israelites? So am I. Are they Abraham’s descendants? So am I. ²³ Are they servants of Christ? (I am out of my mind to talk like this.) I am more. I have worked much harder, been in prison more frequently, been flogged more severely, and been exposed to death again and again. ²⁴ Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. ²⁵ Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was pelted with stones, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, ²⁶ I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my fellow Jews, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false believers. ²⁷ I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked. ²⁸ Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for all the churches. ²⁹ Who is weak, and I do not feel weak? Who is led into sin, and I do not inwardly burn?

³⁰ If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness……

2 Cor. 12:9-10 He (God) said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

The main message of my testimony or life story, and I think of all of ours, is that I am still alive.  I have not been killed and I have not been driven to kill myself.  I have had thoughts of the later, never seriously attempted, but given the way life seems to have kicked me around I have wanted to end things for myself a few times.  It all seems like nothing compared to all Paul went through, but it has still been a lot to handle.

In all honesty, who wouldn’t rather be dead than living here on this earth at times?  Who wouldn’t rather be in heaven with God forever having fun and being eternally joyful than having to suffer through this life?  But we are all still alive for a reason, for a purpose.  God wants to use us.  We just have to figure out how. J

Here’s my background:

I grew up in a Christian home, ironically, but when I was 6 my dad molested me.  In actuality he tried to rape me.  I will spare you the details of the event, but he admitted to my mom later when he was in jail that if he hadn't been stopped it would have led up to incest eventually.  He admitted that from the time I was a baby he was conditioning me in a sense to like him in that way, very strange I know.  The kicker is that even after he admitted all this to my mom, she still reunited their marriage for a time, but eventually divorced him, praise God. 

I had a friend who worked in mental health for 10 years.  He told me how rare it is that some one's own father would do something like that to them.  Usually a molest comes from someone outside the family or a more removed family member.  But my own dad molested me, which I have only shared when giving my story in public once before.  It seemed too shameful to actually say that.

But the shame is not mine; it is my dad's.  And I no longer consider him my father really, since he essentially gave up his right to be my father in doing that. 

And I know now that it was not my fault.  I couldn't have done anything to prevent what happened.  I was just a kid.  I had to live there.  It took me about 3 years in counseling over the course of 16 years to realize that; that I was the victim.  That I did not want what happened to me.  That I was sinned against but I was and am still innocent.  It’s amazing how those who molest others can try to convince them that they wanted what happened to them or they brought it on themselves, and how they can convince others that the fault was not theirs.  That is probably why most victims of abuse don’t want to talk about their sexual abuse, because they are confused about if they were really the victim or not. 

The ironic thing about it all is that my mom and brother were convinced he was better now.  They didn't get why I didn’t want to talk to him.  But just a few months ago he was accused of molesting another little girl; quite sad but true.  I made a video to testify against him in court since he somehow got what he did to me wiped off his record.  That made me think of the verse “Vindication is mine’ says the Lord.”  I forgave my dad a long time ago and have not tried to take revenge in any way, but God will punish those who hurt us eventually.  People reap what they sow, and may justice be done in the case of my dad. 

After my dad, my brother also molested me twice, which has, needless to say, made things awkward for us ever since.  When my dad confronted him after my brother simply said to him, “What? You did it too.”

There was also some incident with a neighbor once. 

So all this taught me that very few people could be trusted.  That I needed to stay away from people, to isolate as much as I could.  That I needed to control situations in the future so that they did not control me.

Despite my childhood and the hypocrisy of my dad I still grew up having a close relationship with God for the most part.  I was raised in church, praise God, and always loved singing worship songs and going to Sunday school. 

I started to head down the wrong path in junior high, but luckily my mom moved me out to California to be by her incredible and godly mom who steered me onto the right path. 

In junior high I shoplifted, drank a bit, tried pot, smoked and had my first boyfriend at 12.  I know it was all a way to forget about how broken and messed up our family was.  My parents had divorced when I was 9, of course due to my dad molesting me, but that really did damage to me and my brother for a time.  My mom's depression almost made her seem non-existent so my brother and I were left to run free and make lots of dumb decisions on our own. :)

But in high school when I was 14 I fully committed my life to God, told him I would go and do whatever he wanted me to.  I went on a few missions trips, to India, Taiwan and Mexico which were pretty cool.  I still messed up from time to time with relationships but for the most part stayed on the right path. 

I went on to a private Christian college, Biola in L.A. but I never felt like I fit in with the kids there because of my past.  Most of them had come from pretty healthy families and I always felt like I didn't belong there.  But I finished and got a degree. 

I was working in a group home awhile back and told the girls there that even though they came from broken homes or hard childhoods they could still achieve their dreams.  My dream was always to get that degree, and God enabled me to.  

As an adult, and as a result of my abuses, I have struggled with anger and control issues.  I have read in recovery books that when our childhood is out of control we then want to try and control everything when we are adults.  Or when we feel helpless as a child we decide we never want to feel that way again so we put up defenses in the form of control or anger or simply isolate from the world etc.

I suppose I also have developed an addiction to worry or I have obsessive negative thoughts.  I know that is why many people drink and do drugs, because they don't want to think about certain things.  I often times have things pass through my mind that I wish I didn't.  My thoughts seem to torture me sometimes.  Whenever I'm alone the crazed worried thoughts come in, usually relating to the person I am in a relationship with, that that person will leave or cheat or stop loving me or something like that.  I know it's Satan and I should have power over these thoughts through Jesus, but sometimes it seems impossible. 

I never was addicted to drugs or alcohol, praise be to God for that.  I saw what it did in the lives of those closest to me so I stayed away for the most part. 

My mom has had clinical depression my whole life, due to what my dad did obviously, so she has been on and off almost every anti-depressant drug on the market.  I saw how horribly that affected her and learned my lesson from her to stay away from drugs, legal or illegal.  I also saw my brother throw his life away due to smoking pot.  He started when he was 16 and still hasn't stopped at 32.  He actually recently got kicked out of the army for failing a drug test, which will have pretty bad ramifications for him I think. 

My anger and need for control resulted in many heated arguments with my late husband.  It didn't help that he was somewhat of an alcoholic so that complicated things more. 

I say late because he died about a year ago.  He was on a few prescription drugs, methadone being one of them.  He asked his doctor to get him on Methadone to help him wean off of the Klonopin he was on.  The last night I was with him, we had an argument, which I will forever regret, and he went out drinking for the first time in a year.  He had given up drinking for a year for me.  The result was that he inadvertently killed himself, because drinking anything, or consuming any second substance when on methadone can kill someone. 

But my quite crazy story does have a happy ending.  God sent me an amazing Christian man that I am now married to and we have a kid on the way.  Praise God.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel. :)  So don’t lose heart in your own life if it seems like everything is going wrong.  God will work it out for the good.  Just give it time. J

My mom has turned out to be a wonderful Christian woman and a great mentor in my life now.  She has really come a long way on her own road to recovery.  For years she was leading a co-dependency group at a Celebrate Recovery at her church, which I think helped her a lot to care more about herself.  About 9 years ago she remarried a great Christian guy and they are very happy together now.  Seeing them gave me hope that marriage can work and that things can work out for the good even if they start bad. 

So I'm trusting that God will work my life out for the good.  I know in many ways He already is.

He certainly has brought my life full circle in bringing Ben into my life.  Joyce Meyer always says that God will give us double blessing for our former trouble, and He certainly has in my life.

Some verses that really give me hope are;

“And my God will work all things together for the good of those who love Him.” 

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

“We are more than conquerors in Christ Jesus.” 

“Behold you are a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come.” 

And that Jesus said, “I am going to prepare a place for you so that where I am there you also may be.”  Amen?

  I hope God has used my story to help some of you. 

God bless :)

The Day the Dollar Died

Similar to the title of that famous song there is a book written by Paul McGuire called the Day the Dollar Died. 

He theorizes that in 2016 the dollar will be dead and we will have a one world currency. 

What will that be?

His theory is a coin of some sort.

My theory is that will be when the mark of the beast will be instituted.

How?

Let's look at the timeline of things.

Obama's second term will be ending in 2016.  Some have heard that he plans to go for leader of the UN then in 2016, which would make total sense.  When he was running for president in 2008 one article said, "It seems like Obama is not only running for president of the U.S. but president of the world too."

Because of his mixed gender he has been the most accepted American president by other countries, in my opinion, because he is a blend between white and African American. 

A thought I had today was that somehow the student loan industry is also going to bring all of this about. 

The student loan and parent loan debt in America will be so high in 3 years that people will be more than ready to give up on the dollar. 

The ploy Obama could make to Americans is, "If you don't agree to this new currency (most likely an implanted chip the size of a grain of rice) you will be thrown in jail for your student loan debt."

So pay off your loans if you can. :)

I was recently working at a student loan company.  I was hired to help with the consolidation process that Obama instituted. 

I was wondering what was up their sleeve with the whole thing.

What the consolidations did was in the end ensure that almost all the student loans in the U.S. were then owned by the Dept. of Education, or the U.S. Gov. 

Some have theories however that even our own U.S. Treasury is not U.S. but is owned by the world bankers.  Look up Alex Jones talking on that subject.

So potentially the world bankers, the richest people in the world, now hold all, or almost all, of student loan debt.  What will they do with that power?  Who knows.

Another interesting finding was that the system that we were trained on to carry out these Consolidations was called Horns.  Think of the 10 horns in Revelation.  How one horn came up and destroyed three horns.  The one horn is supposed to represent the anti-Christ.

So why did they, Obama, choose to name the system Horns?  Odd isn't it?

Another interesting fact, the main emblem for this system was a picture of a beast looking creature.  It was no animal that I have ever seen in existence.  It was a mixture between a bull and something else. 

And on top of it's head it had two horns, that looked very much like Satanic horns.

Then there was a lower case n covering the picture of this beast, which I thought was funny also.  Why put this picture up and then cover it?  As if the creator of the program changed their mind about wanting this beast creature to be so visible.

At the time I was looking into this stuff more and discovered Obama's main limo that he drives around in is called "The Beast" also.  Look it up. 

So will the dollar die in 2016?  Will Obama run for head of the UN?  It is quite possible.

Will the mark of the beast be instituted then in 2016?  I could see it happening.  They are already putting tracking chips the size of a grain of rice in cats and dogs. 

Paul McGuire theorizes that our government is making drones already that will fly around and implant these chips into people.  

 

 They look like tiny mosquitos.  That little sucker could easily carry about 20 or 30 "grains of rice microchips" to implant into people without them even knowing it.  You can actually see a tiny clear sliver protruding from it's mouth if you look closely.  That could be a microchip. 

I hope it would not be possible that they could implant us in our sleep.  I think it has to be something we are willing to do, since Christians are urged in Rev. to make the choice not the receive this mark of the beast.

But I for one, am hoping to not be around to find that out.

I'm hoping that my husband and I can move to New Zealand before 2016 and before all this happens, or perhaps Papua New Gineau.

Some say that New Zealand will be the new America, the new safe haven, when all this goes down.

I wrote about Obama possibly being the anti-Christ awhile ago and have not in a bit but I still believe it's possible. 

Rev. 13 says, "I saw a beast coming out of the sea. It had ten horns and seven heads, with ten crowns on its horns, and on each head a blasphemous name. ² The beast I saw resembled a leopard, but had feet like those of a bear and a mouth like that of a lion. The dragon gave the beast his power and his throne and great authority. ³ One of the heads of the beast seemed to have had a fatal wound, but the fatal wound had been healed. The whole world was filled with wonder and followed the beast. ⁴ People worshiped the dragon because he had given authority to the beast, and they also worshiped the beast and asked, “Who is like the beast? Who can wage war against it?”

So the beast comes out of the sea.  What is the most powerful country that is surrounded by oceans?  The U.S. 

So the anti-Christ could rise out of the U.S., the sea it would seem.  We are surrounded by the Atlantic, Pacific and Caribbean Oceans.

The 10 horns are supposed to represent 10 nations, 10 countries that are behind the beast.  Obama is already forming several alliances so who knows what those 10 countries will end up being.  Most think it will be the European Union but who knows. 

I am not sure what the seven heads represent. 

But here is the main evidence showing that it very well could be Obama.  The "beast resembled a leopard."  Why a leopard?  A leopard is multi colored.  It is both white and black.  Obama is half white and half black. 

"Feet like those of a bear" could just mean that he is powerful, and he is. 

"A mouth like that of a lion;" Obama has a very strong, persuasive voice.  More so, I think, than any president before him. 

The fatal wound?  I am not sure when or how that will happen.  But somehow something will happen but he will resurrect and everyone will be amazed by this. 

Now I'd like to analyze some of the lyrics to the song the Day the Music Died.  I know the first interpretation is that the writer wrote it about his friends who died in a plane crash, but a secondary interpretation could be that he's referencing the end of the world, or at least the end of America. 

I realize this might be a bit of a stretch but bear with me. 

I believe Babylon in Rev. 19 is talking about America.  I believe in one hour our destruction will come and we will be blown up by a nuclear weapon. 

Could this happen in 2016?  It's possible.  No one knows the day or the hour, but the year....hm.... :)

"A long, long time ago… I can still remember how
That music used to make me smile.And I knew if I had my chance,
That I could make those people dance,
And maybe they’d be happy for a while."

If he could possibly be singing about America being blown up someday, he is looking back on the event in this song.  Everyone is sad.   Revelations says that all the nations will mourn when Babylon is destroyed. 

"Soo..Bye, bye miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And good ol’ boys were drinking whisky and rye?
Singing this will be the day that I die
this will be the day that I die"

The chorus seems to clearly be about the destruction of America, depending on how you look at it.  He is saying "bye, bye" to America.  There is no water left here.  Men are drinking because they know they are about to die. 

"And we sang dirges in the dark
The day the music died"

Darkness is one of the plagues talked about in Revelation.  The whole world will be in darkness.  There will be no sunlight and it will be completely dark.   Rev. says, "The fifth angel poured out his bowl on the throne of the beast, and its kingdom was plunged into darkness. People gnawed their tongues in agony ¹¹ and cursed the God of heaven."

"Helter Skelter in a summer swelter
The birds flew off with the fallout shelter
Eight miles high and falling fast It landed foul on the grass"

Helter Skelter is another term for madness, something crazy.  He says it's in the summer, so perhaps this could take place in the summer of 2016.  "The birds flew off with the fallout shelter" is an interesting line.  This obviously has nothing to do with his friend's death.  A fallout shelter is of course for an atomic bomb hitting a place. 

The birds flew off is interesting because I have seen several news programs of hundreds of birds falling to earth dead over the last few years for not apparent reason at all.

"Eight miles high" some interpret that he was just high.  But what if an object was literally eight miles off the ground?  What could that be?  A nuclear weapon headed towards America perhaps?The players tried for a forward pass
With the jester on the sidelines in a cast

"The players" could be our military.  They tried to divert the nuclear weapon and send it into the ocean perhaps.  We have technology to do this.  I'm not sure who the jester would represent in this interpretation.  Perhaps the president, and he is immobilized somehow, in a cast, from something.

"Do you recall what was revealed,
The day the music died?"

What may be revealed is that America is the Babylon spoken of in Revelations, which most won't realize until we are actually destroyed. 

"So come on Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Jack Flash sat on a candle stick
‘Cause fire is the devil’s only friend."

Fire.  Fire is what will, or could, consume America with the atomic bomb. 

"As I watched him on the stage
My hands were clenched in fists of rage
No angel born in hell
Could break that satan’s spell"

No matter what we try to do, we cannot stop this from happening.  It is prophesied.  It will come to pass.  Satan will bring it about and God will allow it.  Some country is going to be destroyed in the last days in one hour, and the description of Babylon seems to very much match up with the U.S.

"And as flames climbed high into the night
To light the sacrificial rite
I saw satan laughing with delight
the day the music died."

Satan will be quite happy when/if America is destroyed.  Why?  Because most of America is or at least was Christian.  We would then become like a sacrifice to Satan done by the anti-Christ or someone. 

"I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news
But she just smiled and turned away"

"I went down to the sacred store
Where I’d heard the music years before
But the man there said the music wouldn’t play"

"And in the streets the children screamed
The lovers cried and the poets dreamed
But not a word was spoken
The church bells all were broken"

"And the three men I admire most
The Father Son and Holy Ghost
They caught the last train for the coast
The day the music died"
 So everything is destroyed.  Everyone is sad.  There is no music.  Children are screaming.  Why?  Perhaps because their parents have died, most people died in the nuclear bombing.  Lovers cried because perhaps one died and the other survived. 

I find the line funny that the trinity gets on a train for the coast.  Why?  To head to another country most likely.  But by then it might be too late.  Other countries may not accept all the American refugees that will be left over from the massive bombing. 

"Bye, bye miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And good ol’ boys were drinking whisky and rye?
Singing this will be the day that I die
this will be the day that I die:

It's interesting how many potential parallels there are in this song.  I could be completely wrong, who knows.  But either way, I thought I would write about it.  God seemed to want me to write about this song and the end of America, so I did. :)

Every time I've heard it on the radio I always think, "Man that is the strangest song."  And I knew it had to be saying something.  So this is what I think it could be saying, but who knows.

May God be with you and give you wisdom in all things!  Amen :)

Hillsong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh58EzK6KCE

Check out this song.  I pretty much guarantee it will inspire you!  For sure :)

JOY in the Lord

"God’s glory consists much in the fact that he is happy beyond our wildest imagination.
As the great eighteenth-century preacher, Jonathan Edwards, said, “Part of God’s fullness which he communicates is his happiness. This happiness consists in enjoying and rejoicing in himself; so does also the creature’s happiness.....

Jesus lived and died that his joy — God’s joy — might be in us and our joy might be full (John 15:11; 17:13). Therefore the gospel is “the gospel of the glory of the happy God.” 
-John Piper 

Amen!  That is why the gospel is supposed to be "good news," not the gospel that takes every one's fun away lol  That's what the Pharisees wanted to do, take every one's fun away through the letter of the law.  But life is much better with Jesus, not worse.  And that was why Jesus was SO angry with the Pharisees, because they were painting a completely incorrect picture of God to people.  God is not a kill joy, he came to bring us life "and life abundantly." :)  He wants to give us joy.  He WANTS us to happy, did you know that? lol  Most people do not realize God actually WANTS them to be happy. :)

The Pharisees wanted everyone to be miserable.  Why?  Because miserable people are much easier to control.  Happy people will not let anyone boss them around.  Happy people will stand up for themselves.  Happy will people not allow themselves to be mistreated.  But miserable people, who feel worthless, as the Pharisees made people feel, they can be enslaved easily.  They can be manipulated and controlled easily. 

This still goes on in churches today, religious abuse.  People in churches want to make others feel like they are nothing so that they can control them.  But Christianity is not supposed to be about people controlling people, but about us all letting God set us free.

Satan also very much wants humans to feel miserable so that he can control them.  He wants us to feel like we can't do anything on our own; that we are worthless, unattractive, incapable of anything great.  He wants us to feel beaten down so that we will run to him, to sin, for relief. 

This is why "THE JOY OF THE LORD IS YOUR STRENGTH."

Joy in the Lord is your strength and your BEST defense against the enemy. 

Satan's lies to us and tries to make us think Christianity takes all the fun out of life.  But it does NOT.  On the contrary, it is SIN that takes all the fun out of life. 

Sin ensnares people and traps them.  They become a slave to whatever their sin is.  Some are enslaved to porn, others to drinking, others to drugs, others to relationships.  As long as we are in sin we are not free.

But Jesus can set us free.  "He whom the son sets free is free indeed."  Amen?  Yes. :)

And once we are free we can have real joy.  True joy can only be found in knowing God and letting him set us free from sin.  Amen?  Amen :)

This is why the gospel is the GOOD NEWS for the whole world!  It is a gospel of redemption, of freedom, of complete and total joy. 

Independence day is all about freedom, but so few in America really are free, spiritually.  Most of Americans are slaves, whether they realize it or not.  Slaves to the matrix of sin. 

If you are not free, let God set you free TODAY.

A good mental image for this is that sin keeps you in a dark dungeon, with no light, in chains, with rats running around and spiders crawling all over you.  You don't see it, but if you are in sin, THAT is your current state. 

But JESUS CAN SAVE YOU from the dungeon.  HE can lift you out of that pit and into the sunlight; into a field of flowers where you can run free like you are a child again.  He can lead you to the most amazing tropical beach in the world.  He can lead you to crystal clear waters that you can swim free in and play in like an otter swimming carefree in a river.

He can even make you fly through the air, unhindered, completely and totally free, like a kite soaring above it all.  He can make you completely weightless, with not a care in the world, so that you can float away on a breeze like a bubble. 

Don't you want to be THAT free?  I know I do. :) 

It's a daily struggle to let Jesus set us free from the webs that Satan is trying to throw over us constantly.  But remember, "THERE IS NO CONDEMNATION FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN CHRIST JESUS." 

Don't let anyone try to bring condemnation on you.  Don't let them try to bring you down!

You ARE a beautiful, radiant child of God!  He loves you more than anyone has ever loved you!

And you CAN do WAY MORE THAN YOU EVER IMAGINED! with God

So don't give up, fellow Christian, DON'T loose heart.  Keep pressing on.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Jesus IS coming back soon, I just know it. 

So keep running the race!  We will make it to the finish line before you know it! 

KEEP RUNNING! :) lol

May God BLESS YOU!  ABUNDANTLY, AMAZINGLY, UNTIL YOUR CUP IS OVERFLOWING!

Amen :)

FREEDOM

You make me leap from tree to tree
 
So that no one can catch me
 
You make me soar above the rooftops
 
You send me flying all over the sky
 
 
You make me weightless, careless, totally free
 
Unencumbered, unhindered, like a bubble on the wind
 
 
I soar above the problems, above the calamities, above the chaos
 
I gain new heights like an eagle, where no one can touch me
 
No one can bring me down when I'm flying this high, with you
 
 
You give me wind and I climb higher
 
Up and up so that I'm closer to you
 
Flying above the mountain, into the heavens, to where you are
 
 
I see you in all your radiance, the light of your face is almost blinding
 
You are HUGE, magnanimous, totally glorious and holy
 
I have never seen anything LIKE you, you take my breath away
 
I fall at your feet as though dead
 
I am so overwhelmed by your presence
 
 
You lift me up and hold me in your huge arms
 
I feel safe, I feel cared for, I feel so incredibly loved, like I have never felt before
 
You hold me close to your chest and rock me like a mother rocks her child
 
You tell me that you are watching over me, you are protecting me
 
 
And everything seems to be alright at last
 
I have found the safety I have always been looking for, always wanted
 
I feel totally accepted, totally loved, totally adored
 
 
But you set me down and tell me my time on earth is not done yet
 
I still have to tell more people your good news
 
I have to be a light and shine for you
 
 
Sadly I leave your presence and fly back down to earth
 
Back to the war zone, back to the chaos and the fighting
 
Back to the darkness and the pain
 
 
But I know I will see you again someday
 
I know I will be with you forever, resting in your huge arms
 
I will laugh with you and talk with you beside a clear steam
 
With a cool breeze blowing over us that makes my skin tingle
 
 
We will tell jokes someday together, you and I
 
And you will hold me in your arms and never have to let me go again
 
And we will eat the most amazing fruit I will have ever tasted
 
And go on the most amazing rides all over heaven
 
 
You will thrill me and amaze me
 
And you will be my forever best friend
 
 
But I can wait
 
I can stay here and keep telling people how much you love them
 
I will do whatever you want me to do
 
But I am so excited to be with you forever
 
 
I love you more than words can say daddy, best friend, lover, my God
 
 
 
(This poem was partly inspired by dreams I've had and we saw Man of Steel yesterday, the new Superman movie.  It has always been my biggest dream to fly like he can. :)  And I know someday I will fly forever :)

Home Fireworks Video :)

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=872870369307&l=6275444504457512825

So much fun! lol :)

:)

Prophecy

Check this out:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_C_4IPTWCA0

A great sermon from Hillsong Church on the topic of prophecy

Prophecy does still happen today.  God still speaks through people.  But we are to test the spirits and make sure everything lines up with Scripture.

Amen :) 

God be with you!