Clean

 I have always wanted to start my own house cleaning business. Maybe I will. I wrote up notes and can put them on doors. It says, "If you need a house cleaner or babysitter text me." And my number. 

Do that in your own neighborhood. We all need more friends so that can be a way to make more friends too. 

It would be fun to babysit. I maybe should add to the note that I worked with kids for 26 years. I would be impressed by that if I read it. I did tutoring, preschool work, child counselor in camps and cruise ships and I taught English one year. And I was a mom to my 3 kids for as long as I could be. 

What makes you happy? Cleaning has always made me feel very joyful. Do what you love. :)

Want Less

 Anger comes from wanting too much. You might be mad at yourself but then you take it out on others. We get angry about so much now. Mad if you get fat. But then mad if you don't have enough food. Mad if others pursue you but angry if you are ignored. 

What do you want? It is always hard to know what road is the best. Take the chance. Do what your heart pulls you to.  Be true to your dreams. 

Work

 Why do we work? For entertainment mostly. We spend or make money non stop it seems. The hamster wheel is always going. But are we happy? Take a step back and reevaluate. Is that really how you want to live? 

There is a bar I could work at. But I lost my glasses so work might be harder. Better to just make another family. 3rd time is a charm right? If I do the next man will be my 3rd baby daddy. It's so sad it didn't work out with the other two. Both my exes had retired mom's who took my kids. They should have never retired. 

Watch out for in laws. I would love to get one of my 3 kids back. Pray for that for me. Or I'll start from square one again. 

Drama

 Are you a drama king or queen? Hopefully not. Why does drama happen? When we are scared we act scary, in self defense I guess. The key is to never be scared. " Who of you by worrying can add one hour to your life?"

The worry of a thing is often way worse then the thing. So give up worrying. It is a very bad habit to have. Live well and you will be blessed. Then you will have zero reasons to worry. 

It is our guilt that can cause us to worry. Don't do anything you would feel overly guilty about. 

Don't ruin today by worrying about tomorrow. You might not even be alive tomorrow. So why stress out? 

Find a hobby other than fretting all day. "It is better to live on the corner of a roof than with a fretful person." Don't be that person. Read or write a book. Cook some good soup. Take a nap or a bath. Go on a walk. Try doing house cleaning, deep cleaning of yours and maybe start a house cleaning business. Ride a bike. Read the Word. Listen to worship music. :) 

Fear not for God is with you. Be strong and courageous.  The shadow might be big, but the actual problem is small. Focus on good things. If anything is excellent or worthy of praise, think about those things. 

Pain

 I have a headache today. Just stress. Maybe I need a better pillow. Been up since 5am just thinking and planning. Some guy named Chad said he has lots of money and wants to spoil me. We shall see. 

Could go back to walking to work but no. 

I might just chill and cook and clean in the group home for a year or until Chad for sure wants to spoil me. It is tricky with any new relationship.  Will they like you? 

Change

 Is the grass greener on another side? Hopefully. If there is verbal abuse try to get to a safer place. That shows a lack of respect. Then you can't be friends if they don't respect you. 

It is hard to find respect in this world. I declare in the group home I will find it. I will find a sweet boss with a fun job. I will find good friends. It has been awhile. I almost had it here. But I don't know. My mom wants me to be in a group home so it's time to go. 

Love

 Most humans hate love it seems. They run away from love. They are afraid of it. They push people away. Granted we need sleep and love can make it hard to sleep. 

What is it about relationships that we shy away from? We find it hard to trust. We stay guarded. If we got hurt we think we always will get hurt. What you expect is what will happen. 

But the future could be night and day opposite of your past. Have faith. Stay in hope.