Money

 I am supposed to get a big paycheck tmrw. All I want to get with it is curtains to match my blanket. 

My house mate has bed bugs. I bet they are fleas because I think her parents have dogs. 

I will apply for disability today and other benefits yay! 

I can still work 20 hours while getting disability. I want to work 2 days and then have one day off. Like mon, tues off wed. Then Thurs Friday. And then Sunday maybe. 

Or I'll just buckle up and do the 5 days in a row. I think I am collecting on my book sales finally. Praise God. 

 

Family Number 3

 Is it good to breed?

Overall I should heed

The caution from my mom

But I am strong

I know before long 

Family number 3 will begin 

I hope no one sees it as a sin 

It is what I was created to do

The end of pregnancy is blue 

I feel sad at the upcoming pain

But no pain no gain 

So go sing in the rain 

And be happy I might get to start over 

Disability

 I have two meetings this week to help me get disability payments. I have had 3 bad falls that hurt my neck so I should qualify. Also I have schizophrenia. You could say all anointed Christians have that. But some of us talk to God more than others. But is it always God? "Test the spirits." The Bible says. If they do not love Jesus don't talk to them.  Why do spirits exist that are not the Holy Spirit? God wants to test our intelligence and wisdom. Don't just assume you are talking to the Holy Spirit and not fallen angels. The spiritual world consists of all kinds of beings. They are wise and comforting usually. They should be. Only speak with wise and comforting humans and spirits and ghosts and angels and aliens and gods. Or just watch TV, work and chat on dating apps and ignore the spiritual world. That is what most humans do. 

Work

 A lady in my intake meeting said I shouldn't work. It might overwhelm me. It is a bit overwhelming yes. If we don't have a full staff it is hard. I have food stamps so that covers my food. My mom or disability can cover my low rent here. Only $350. So nice. I could do 12 hours instead of 20 hours each week. I don't know. But down time can be stressful if I chat too much with annoying guys on dating apps. All of life can be hard. There is always a task to get done or is there? I heard we are human beings not doings so just Be sometimes. Just be. Just exist. Try to relax more. Take a true sabbath.  No work and no driving around Sundays. Can you handle just laying down and listening to worship music or sermons on Sundays? "Honor the sabbath. Keep it holy." Holy is to be set apart from society for one day. You can do it. :)

Happy Things

 Might get a lot in a check next week. Praise God. Might buy a bike weeee!

Might get disability soon. Two women will help with that. My bike accident at age 7 and my car accident at age 22 should qualify me. So why get a bike? Yeah. :( One chiropractor said my neck is for sure oddly bent in an overly straight angle. I know my jaw is lopsided. Maybe from carrying a purse? So I am disabled.  :)

Anyways other happy things....I meet two new co workers tmrw, James and Nathan. Ironic names since my brother is a Nathan and my son is named James. Shawnasee will be my manager and I hope she will do a good job. She has only been there a week though. But Billie also might be around or pray Alfred will be. He got me hired really. He said I am excellent at follow through. I got the app filled out and scheduled an interview the same day. 

Yall who are poor or just bored do that. Apply and you call about an interview right after you apply. Don't wait to get called. Ready set go. Lol. Get a fun job. What do you love as much as I love food? Do that. :) 

Men

 I am really here in a group home cuz most if not all men are obsessed with anal sex and oral sex. What happened to being content with normal sex with a condom? Are condoms fun? It feels mostly the same for the lady. Men still get the visual experience.  That is good enough. If they don't offer a house and maybe a car too that condom should be on. Go buy some men. And ladies make sure he wears one. Unless he buys you a car. :) 

Rain and Cards

 I walked home in the rain. I did have a warm coat and shoes and an umbrella. Praise God! I was able to see where puddles were thanks to my new glasses.

 Pray I'll get my check in my account soon. Plus I am to get a food stamps card today. I pray it will be easy to use it. Maybe I'll do a pick up for groceries. Where it's like prepaid and they shop for me. I think I'll figure it out. Change is always tricky. I am used to getting things delivered here. A pick up will be ok too. 

I have a meeting tmrw.  Pray it is a happy one. I don't know what questions they will have. May I do a good job. 

May you all stay happy. Do more of what makes you happy. :)