Two Paths

 I was hoping to get hired at Burger King, but I don't have an offer letter yet. I could have a date tmrw. I kind of want to move in with a guy again. It's different living with women. They argue at times. 

My possible next bf is fixed. He had 4 kids and decided he was good with that. I wish all men would get fixed at a certain age. Every guy I talk to online doesn't want kids but they want sex. Like only 1 out of 50 guys wants kids. So why don't they all get a vasectomy? They should. 

It's so risky to date for women especially when very few guys want what sex creates. They all assume all women are on birth control. But not all of us are. 

May God help all of us women to only be around good guys. And may Jesus make all the bad boys good. If you feel inclined to save all the guys on dating apps please try. As in get them to want a family and not just random hook ups. It is sad to live life that way. There is no love in that. It's just a hit and run and both people are more sad after. 

Don't get caught up in the hook up culture. Be a family man or woman and settle down. Go to church. Raise kids. Be content with just one mate. Wouldn't that be great if the fate of our future is people who want just one. That can be fun. Now go walk in the sun. :)

Purpose

 What is your purpose in life? To be a friend to the Holy Spirit. Maybe to have a great career. Maybe to have a family. Mostly to be a friend of God. 

God created us for a friendship with him. 

What else? Seek first the kingdom of God. Fix your eyes on things above. Focus on what is true, noble and excellent. 

Help others and they will help you. 

Listen to God and he will listen to you. 

Fast and Pray

 I feel like I am hungry all day. No matter how much I eat my stomach is insatiable. It's never enough. "Their god was their stomach." That is in the NT. 

Is your stomach god? No! Lol. Try fasting. Maybe I'll fast for 12 hours to gain wisdom on what to do. I could work at Burger King but maybe I could also live with my son. Pray my ex will get his own apartment or house soon so we can be a family again. It's been 10 months since I've seen my son. That is too long. The plan was that I would live with my brother while my son got potty trained. I should have been more assertive about getting him potty trained. My whole last 10 months maybe was crazy cuz I didn't get that done myself. 

What do you need to fast and pray about? May you find the answers you need as you fast and pray. It is a way to get God to hear you more or to care more. :) "Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God and he will lift you up." 

God please help me see my son again and be his mommy again. I miss him a lot. 

Eat Less

 My goal this week is to eat less. I made a plan to walk one or two miles each day at 10am and 4pm. Along with that I should diet. My weight is at 190, highest ever. So sad....Just interviewed at Burger King though. I think I got the job. Not sure if working there will result in me eating less or more. All the workers were pretty skinny so probably I'll eat less. Very good. But some free whoppers would be fabulous. The manager is very nice. It will be a lot to learn or maybe it will be simple, easy work. 

I have heard cutting out bread is ideal. I could try that for a day. I can just have milk and eggs and see if I lose 5 pounds in a day. :)

Diet books are always number one on top selling lists.  It could be that simple. Try having only milk and eggs for a week. Like as if you were living on a farm. :)

And get out and walk. We all need direct sunlight at least once a day. 

God bless!

Burgers

 I have never worked in burgers but I'm sure I'll love it. My first food love was the whoppers from Burger King. Also the fries from McDonald's. Every Friday my dad would get whoppers for us. Dijouno pizzas have also been a big favorite. 

Might work at BK soon. I wonder if I will make a high hourly wage. I don't care too much. I just want to work for fun. It's either burger king or cook in a restaurant. Hard to say which one would be more fun. 

I walked all over today applying and interviewing. It will be good to get settled in a job. I almost had a date tonight but then it got to be too late. I think I have to be home if it's dark out. 

We all should live by that rule. Nothing good happens after dark lol. Just be at home. 

Best Buddy

 Do anything your best buddy tells you to do. My best bud is Ash. We have been close for 27 years now. I talk to her once a week or every day sometimes. She told me to rent rooms 5 years ago so I did. That was tons of fun. She told me to write more books. That was super fun. Now she is saying I should work at Walmart, so I should right?

 Although the book writing idea led to tons of pain in my arms. I got tennis elbow I guess. 

I typed out about 10 books while I was pregnant. But then my arms felt on fire all the time. There was a book I wrote on alcoholism, feminism, homosexuality, abortion, depression, anxiety, God the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I was starting a joke book but never finished it.  

Next will be a book about smoking. 

Waitress

 Is work fun? At times. Do I miss waitressing? A bit. Do I love just relaxing? Of course. 

Salty Dog could hire me. Maybe Texas Road house. Maybe Casey's again. Earning tips in cash would be lovely. 

Pray that I'll have the desire to walk over and apply tomorrow. :)