Busy

 I have a psych appointment today. This may be the doctor that can sign me up for disability checks. It could be ideal to get that. I could still work 18 hours a week. Maybe 4 to 8 in a restaurant or a gas station. Just to have a thing to do other than watch YouTube all day or read X or get annoyed with guys on dating apps. It seems on the apps people go on there just to say weird things and it makes them laugh. 

Dating is so risky though. You never know what the other person will do. 

X and YouTube are always good. I hope yall spend most of your time there. Or with your kids. 

I am dating a guy who would love to raise my son with me. That could be fun! He has 2 girls who are actually the same age as my 2 girls. He is 2 years older than me. I hope it works out long-term with him. He is very nice. :)

Kids

 Other people raise other people's kids. That is our modern world. If you were raised by your actual mom and dad for 18 years you are very lucky. I was until I was 10. Then my parents divorced and my brother and I morphed into bad kids. I became mostly good again at age 14 when my grandpa replaced my dad. Kids in single mom homes don't turn out good. I don't know how single dads affect the kids. There should always be 2 watching over any group of kids. "Two are better than one." I proudly thought I could do the single mom challenge so I locked my ex out for a year. Now his mom is in charge. I hope James is happy with her. At least she knows how to not scare her man away.

Ladies hold onto your man. Don't think you can easily replace him. You probably can't. 

And if you are in charge of kids get a co captain if you don't have one. That is important.  

Two Paths

 I was hoping to get hired at Burger King, but I don't have an offer letter yet. I could have a date tmrw. I kind of want to move in with a guy again. It's different living with women. They argue at times. 

My possible next bf is fixed. He had 4 kids and decided he was good with that. I wish all men would get fixed at a certain age. Every guy I talk to online doesn't want kids but they want sex. Like only 1 out of 50 guys wants kids. So why don't they all get a vasectomy? They should. 

It's so risky to date for women especially when very few guys want what sex creates. They all assume all women are on birth control. But not all of us are. 

May God help all of us women to only be around good guys. And may Jesus make all the bad boys good. If you feel inclined to save all the guys on dating apps please try. As in get them to want a family and not just random hook ups. It is sad to live life that way. There is no love in that. It's just a hit and run and both people are more sad after. 

Don't get caught up in the hook up culture. Be a family man or woman and settle down. Go to church. Raise kids. Be content with just one mate. Wouldn't that be great if the fate of our future is people who want just one. That can be fun. Now go walk in the sun. :)

Purpose

 What is your purpose in life? To be a friend to the Holy Spirit. Maybe to have a great career. Maybe to have a family. Mostly to be a friend of God. 

God created us for a friendship with him. 

What else? Seek first the kingdom of God. Fix your eyes on things above. Focus on what is true, noble and excellent. 

Help others and they will help you. 

Listen to God and he will listen to you. 

Fast and Pray

 I feel like I am hungry all day. No matter how much I eat my stomach is insatiable. It's never enough. "Their god was their stomach." That is in the NT. 

Is your stomach god? No! Lol. Try fasting. Maybe I'll fast for 12 hours to gain wisdom on what to do. I could work at Burger King but maybe I could also live with my son. Pray my ex will get his own apartment or house soon so we can be a family again. It's been 10 months since I've seen my son. That is too long. The plan was that I would live with my brother while my son got potty trained. I should have been more assertive about getting him potty trained. My whole last 10 months maybe was crazy cuz I didn't get that done myself. 

What do you need to fast and pray about? May you find the answers you need as you fast and pray. It is a way to get God to hear you more or to care more. :) "Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God and he will lift you up." 

God please help me see my son again and be his mommy again. I miss him a lot. 

Eat Less

 My goal this week is to eat less. I made a plan to walk one or two miles each day at 10am and 4pm. Along with that I should diet. My weight is at 190, highest ever. So sad....Just interviewed at Burger King though. I think I got the job. Not sure if working there will result in me eating less or more. All the workers were pretty skinny so probably I'll eat less. Very good. But some free whoppers would be fabulous. The manager is very nice. It will be a lot to learn or maybe it will be simple, easy work. 

I have heard cutting out bread is ideal. I could try that for a day. I can just have milk and eggs and see if I lose 5 pounds in a day. :)

Diet books are always number one on top selling lists.  It could be that simple. Try having only milk and eggs for a week. Like as if you were living on a farm. :)

And get out and walk. We all need direct sunlight at least once a day. 

God bless!

Burgers

 I have never worked in burgers but I'm sure I'll love it. My first food love was the whoppers from Burger King. Also the fries from McDonald's. Every Friday my dad would get whoppers for us. Dijouno pizzas have also been a big favorite. 

Might work at BK soon. I wonder if I will make a high hourly wage. I don't care too much. I just want to work for fun. It's either burger king or cook in a restaurant. Hard to say which one would be more fun. 

I walked all over today applying and interviewing. It will be good to get settled in a job. I almost had a date tonight but then it got to be too late. I think I have to be home if it's dark out. 

We all should live by that rule. Nothing good happens after dark lol. Just be at home.