Dream

 What do you dream to do? Marry a rich guy? We all want that. Elon will you marry me?

 What else do you all want? 

Do all the things I did.

Go write a book. Work on a cruise ship. Have 3 kids. Live. Spend 4 years making pizzas. Hike around Alaska. Snorkle the Great Barrier Reef. Go save all the world! As best as you can. Make 3k YouTube videos. Write 2k blogs. Ok that's enough bragging. :)

I keep telling God I have done enough. Can't he take me home now? But he says I'm only 41. I'm like, "What else could I possibly do? Why must I go on living?" 

To have another kid? But no one wants to for now. Make donuts? 

What else do you hope to do before you die? I would love to be president and buy a beach house. Maybe in 2 years. Pass the baton to me Trump, soon. I'm ready. :)

Or maybe Jesus will return soon and we can all be happy. Pray for him to come soon. 

Hang in there fellow Christians. This too shall pass. There will be a reward someday. Keep pressing on. 

Money

 I got $200 stolen but I made it back in 3 days. What is wrong that people are so desperate? But we all get like that. We all need things bad from time to time and do what we need to do to get things. 

I thought my phone wasn't gonna charge this morning. It needed a system update and to be turned off for awhile. My poor new phone can't handle 12 hour a day use. :) Oh well. May it live long and stay strong. 

I felt desperate after my last job fired me. Praise God my mom still is helping with my rent. A lady kept correcting me on how the pillows looked in a hotel so I walked out. That was the 4th time I've walked out on a job. Need to stop doing that. I almost did today at work. It's hard when you get hungry at work. "Their god was their stomach. Put a knife to your throat if you are given to appetite." Crazy right? Like kill yourself if you constantly need food. But if we stay hungry we get headaches. So what do we do God? Work hard so we have food but then there is a lot more hunger. 

I wish we never felt hunger. Don't you? Why do we? Maybe someday Jesus will take all our hunger pains away. 

Work

 I have a great job that I found. But "Don't wear yourself out to get rich....The love of money is the root of all evil." I generally don't work for money. I work because it's fun and I like making friends. I am worried if I work over 20 hours this week if that will disqualify me for a group home I might get into. I heard they are fun. Trips to the movies and the mall. They are like forced friends. I suppose at work it's pretty much the same thing. In my current life my walk to work is about 20 minutes. That is fine if it's not raining. I could just tell the main manager yes I would love to open the store for you every day the rest of my life but if its raining can you do it? :) And then maybe magically I can have a car given to me at the group home. "All things are possible to those who believe." :)

Group Home

 Well I enjoyed my one day of making pizzas in a gas station yesterday. My feet were in serious pain by the end of the day though. Felt like tons of knives were going in them. And I had to walk to and from work. I would prefer to do that every other day. But the group home is taking me soon. I'll live with 3 other women who are basically orphans or widowed. I would prefer to live with my mom but she prefers to pay for that for now. I heard they go out to movies and the mall. That should be fun. It's like summer camp for adults. Except I will try to get a job working 20 hours a week. Maybe in a restaurant. It would be funny if a Casey's gas station is around there. I could say I've already been hired and transfer. That would be nice. It will be nice to just be around women. I have not done that since college. I need to say bye to men for now I think. A guy stole $200 from me 2 days ago. It was meant to be my rent for him so I could live with him. He just took the money and drove off. Now all I have is $20. :( He was 22 so watch out for those young guys. Another guy somewhat offered for me to live with him but his bills are super past due. That would be too stressful. My current house mate is bisexual so that has been a bit odd. We were a bit intimate but he kept trying to pressure me to do anal. I have no interest in that. So I kept looking for work partly to get away from him. I cared about him but it was a tense friendship I would say. I was just listening to a Rick Warren sermon and it made me think I should move on from him. He seems to be angry all the time about everything. I don't know why. So mostly I am excited to get into a group home. I will get picked up today or tomorrow.  :)