Drink Responsibly

 There is only one command regarding drinking in the New Testament. A verse says, "Do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but instead be filled with the Holy Spirit." Debauchery is extreme indulgence in worldly pleasures. 

The question I have always asked myself is, where is the line of being drunk? Is it after one drink, two drinks? I have always believed one drink is ok. I feel God says it is ok for any person to have one drink with dinner every day, if they desire to do so. It can help to relax your mind and your body. It causes you to enjoy life more. It is not a sin to have one alcoholic drink every evening. It makes your sleep more sound. It increases your overall joy in this crazy life. It helps you to forget your stress a lot. However if you drink too much, you will regret it. Moderation is key with anything. If you eat too much, you will regret it. If you do anything excessively, you will feel guilt. That is the Holy Spirit trying to tell you that you messed up. That your life needs to be more self controlled. That you are loving the world too much. "If anyone loves the world" they are not a saved believer. This goes for anything in the world. Do you worship anything on this planet? Then God is not first in your life, and he is not pleased with you. What is your greatest love? It needs to be God. Not alcohol, not a human being, not sex, not drugs. Nothing should have your whole heart besides God. If you can drink alcohol without being in love with it, then you are doing ok. 😉

God loves you all!

All Men Need a Woman

 The Bible says, "A man shall leave his mother and father and be joined to his wife and the two shall become one." I asked my step dad once why it says that for men but not for women. He said "Because the man is the head of the household." That does make sense. You can't be the leader if you are still a follower. 

But I think I now realize the main reason it says that is because a man Always needs a female to guard his mind and help him to lead a quiet and safe life. "It is not good for the man to be alone." God said that immediately after he made Adam. So he made a helper for Adam. 💑 All men need either their spouse or a mom or a sister or a grandma or perhaps a lady friend at work to help them. To keep them in check so they don't become wild cave men. 😂 For some reason women seem to be more capable then men at being stable, law abiding citizens. This is probably so that we will raise the next generation well. So men need a woman to help stabilize them. To lead them down paths of kindness and goodness and righteousness. Women are naturally more docile and gentle then men. Only a woman can help a man become a gentleman. 😀 A group of men left to themselves looks like anarchy. This is why bars are not good places to be, unless it is run by women. 😀

Men make sure you say thank you a lot to the women in your life for helping you to be more stable. You know you would not be the normal and sane person you are today without the females in your life. 😉 And may God bless all you ladies for taking such good care of the men you know. 

Forget the Past

 You know you're in love when you forget about all the guys that came before him. 

Your ex is your ex for a reason. Try to move on and don't look back. What happened when Sarah looked back at Sodom and Gomorrah? She turned into a pillar of salt.

 Let your life be new, fresh. Begin again. Enjoy your new and clean slate and do better this next time. :) We live and learn. What did you learn from all your past break ups? I know I learned a ton. Never date a narcissist again. That is the main thing I learned. 

 God can't show you a new shiny and happy open door if you keep staring at the closed door. Accept that other love relationships ended and let yourself be free to love a new lover. Not all things last forever. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away but blessed be the name of the Lord. Amen? Amen :) 

Fast

 I used to not eat after 7pm. Now my sweetie brings me a burger or chicken sandwich every night around 11pm and we eat our dinner then. I have decided to fast some days from noon to 8. Pray for me. 😊 This will be partly to loose weight, but also so I will not love food too much. Asceticism can be beneficial to your soul. Kill the flesh. Learn self-control. Kill your cravings. 

It is beneficial to never worship food. The fall of man was caused by eating to symbolize that your stomach can cause you to fall. You can be devoted to food more then your spouse. You can begin to love food more then God. It can easily become an idol and your focus can become food and nothing else. It is nice to never go hungry but in over feeding your body you might starve your soul. That sounds overly dramatic but we tend to forget God the more that we have. The more stuff we have, the more food we consume, the easier it is to forget about God. When things are too comfortable and too easy we forget about God. We forget to die to the self, pick up our cross daily and follow Him. Our Messiah. Our true Lord. 

Don't bow down to chocolate. 😂 Bow down to God. I am laughing a lot regarding that because I probably have worshipped chocolate for a long time now. God help us all with our over indulging in chocolate. Forgive us. We know not what we do. 

Try fasting for 8 hours a few days a week. Forget about food and focus on God. You can do it. Good luck. 😀

Pray

 Silence all the noise, the distractions and Focus 

Remember God's goodness to you 

Live in a perpetual state of gratitude for all he has given to you 

Never let a moment go by where you don't express thank you to God in your inner most spirit 

The best prayer to pray is simply "Thank you!"

God wants to hear thank you from you more than any other words 

Thank you God, for everything 

It blows my mind 24/7 how Much you have given to me 

Forget self pity and regret and missing the past 

Be thankful for the present, which is God's present to you 

Live with a perpetual spirit of gratitude to God 

He has blessed you more then you realize 

Do you ever stop to take it all in? 

Take in the beauty, the love, the joy, the wonder of all that he gives you every day 

This lovely spot of earth God has placed you in

Your own little piece of heaven 

You can make your place heaven by your mood, your actions, your prayers, your thoughts

Make your spot of this earth heaven by your positive mood

Spread love, spread joy. Don't spread hatred. 

And keep telling God thank you, all day, every day 

He wants to hear that from you 

Thank you God. Thank you. :)

Read Your Bible

 God just gave me a word. "Your life will go better if you read the Bible every day." 

How often do you read your holy book of God? 😀 I have read all the way through it a few times. I have only known 2 other people who read the entire Bible, and I was very impressed that they did. It somewhat reflected in their demeanor that they had. It increases your confidence when you read God's word. It is an ego boost to read the word, because it is the main thing you know God wants you to do. You finally listen to the Holy Spirit and read his word and you feel great.

 No matter how many times you have read it or heard the stories you will always learn something new. What stood out to me the last time I was reading in Matthew was when Jesus said Power went out from him when the lady touched the hem of his cloak. For some reason half the things I ask God lately if I should do he responds by saying, "That would be powerful." He has been speaking this way ever since I quit working at Papa John's 3 months ago. Maybe he says that so I still feel like my life has meaning and purpose and Power. I am no longer working publicly, but privately God seems to want to remind me that everything I do can have power. If I believe it does. Reading the word is powerful. Praying for others is powerful. Serving those you love is powerful. Cooking can be powerful. 

Ask God, "What can I do today that would be the most powerful in helping others" and do it. You will be blessed. 😀

My Famous Pasta

 You know what home cooked meal is really good and cheap?  Shells pasta with half alfredo and half marinara sauce with peas and corn mixed in. Yummy.... 😀 I have literally been making that for about 10 years now and it never gets old for me. I usually add ground beef or chicken to that. Sometimes I add broccoli or spinach or tomatoes. So awesome! And it is amazing how cheap that can be if you learn to just eat that for 2 meals every day. Especially if you get almost all the ingredients at the Dollar Tree woot woot! I love you Dollar Tree! 

In the mornings I usually just have raisin toast and coffee. I'm thinking of switching to tea rather then coffee though, because I always worry if the coffee hurts my teeth and gums. It probably does. 😢  For snacks I've always loved popcorn and fruit. Lately I've been making kick ass smoothies with berries or bananas and oatmeal, ice cream and milk. So tasty! 

Thank you God for all the yummy foods you have given us. May we always remain grateful for any food that we get. Amen 😊

Bored or Relaxing

 Most of life is either boring or stressful. Have you noticed? I used to hate being bored. Now I totally love it. I have learned to love silence and not knowing what to do all day. Most people smoke or do drugs or drink when they are bored because they cannot handle being bored. The trick to a great life is learning to be totally ok with being bored. 

Most of America is terrified to be bored. We write long to do lists and cram our schedule with retarded things to do. We are going and going non stop. We keep the TV or music on 24/7 to hide from our own minds. We are afraid of what might enter our mind if we just relax. This is why times of rest are crucial though. You need to learn to be comfortable with yourself. Be your own best friend. Stop being afraid of yourself. Why are you afraid of yourself? Is it your thoughts or emotions or desires that you fear the most? Accept yourself for who you are. There is nothing wrong with you. You are a child of God, if you are. 😉 The more you learn to love who you are, the more you become ok with time by yourself. 

Love yourself. Or at least like yourself. Your life will go better if you can learn this. 

Love

 Love is a fire. It can burn you, but mostly it makes you feel warm. It causes the tingles and chills you feel when sitting by a bonfire on the beach. 

Love can be a flower, delicate and soft. Beautiful and radiant. It helps you open up and soak in the sun's rays. You finally see the sunshine and feel the warmth of a lovely day. 

Love is like the white water rapids. Always roaring inside of you. That desire, the longing, the passion. It takes over your soul and makes you yearn for your mate.

Love is like a tree. You feel safe and cool in the shade. You feel protected and calm. 

Love is like a bird's song. Your heart sings when you think of your mate. You never realized you could be made so happy by another person. 

Love is like a soft, fuzzy blanket. You always feel wrapped up in it and comforted. 

Love can be everything you want it to be. Only have faith, and your dreams will come true. 😊

Life is Good

 We all need someone to love. Life is meaningless without a special someone. I'm so glad I found my bf. Finally my life is peaceful and in order and everything makes sense. I miss him a lot when he is at work, and I keep wondering if I should go work with him. For now I am enjoying my time of relaxing. I have worked a lot the last 4 years with no vacation really. I finally have time to relax. I am learning to relax. 

So often God would tell me, "Now go relax." And I would always say back, "I don't know how to relax." I used to always feel a fire under me to save the whole world every single day. It is nice to have a break from all that. Why did I think I could save every person I knew anyways? That is a bit egotistical. They can all save themselves. :) That is what I have decided. I am finally focusing on myself for once and my bf. Now I have more love to shower on him, because he is almost all that I have now but he is all that I want. 

A funny quote I read said, "Marriage is exchanging the admiration of many men for the criticism of one." For me this time the reverse is true. It is exchanging the criticism of 40 people for the admiration of one. No one can make you feel loved like your mate. No one can warm your heart as much as them. One hour with them is like 1,000 hours on a cruise in Hawaii. Maybe lol. It is nice to be in love. 😍 I hope my bf will keep me for the rest of our lives. 😀 Please pray that I will learn to be content with less so I can stay home forever and be a perfect house wife. :)

Staying Home can be Hard

 It is hard to work, but it is also hard to stay home. Both require self discipline. Working requires the discipline of working your body harder. Staying home is tricky because you have to give up your love of money and the desire to have tons of friends. 

We all know, the love of money is the root of all evil. At times God asks us to give up the crazy pursuit of money because maybe we started to love it too much. Loving random things that money can buy is also loving money. 

I got my kittens for free off of Craigslist. That reminded me that the happiest, most joyful and most rewarding things in life really are free. Go find some sweet kittens to love and maybe take a break from trying to get rich. 

Take a load off. Take it easy for awhile. Life is about more then just money. Chasing money is an endless rat race that will make you either go crazy or become exhausted. And what is the point? If Jesus was to come back tomorrow what would be the point of all the money you try so hard to accumulate? Maybe you want to impress others with making tons of money, but why? Why do you feel the need to impress others? The right people will love you just the way you are. You won't have to constantly prove your worth to the right companion or friend. If they don't approve of you at the wealth status you are, then find someone else who does. 

You cannot feel truly free until you stop caring about impressing others. People are fickle. They love you one day and the next day they hate you for really ridiculous reasons. Give up trying to win over the crowd. They cannot be won over. It is a futile attempt. People may despise you no matter what you do. It is Satan that causes them to hate you, and often times there is nothing you can do to prevent that. So let it go. Let go of the desire to impress other people. Just impress God. His opinion is all that matters. And you will know if you are pleasing God or not. If you feel blessed, you are pleasing God.

Forget about the world this week. Focus on God. And you will be more blessed. 

What is Your Calling?

 "Maybe you are meant to do more then a 9 to 5 job that you hate." 

(Thank you to whoever posted that on Twitter 3 months ago. It became an epiphany for me. 😊)

You don't have to do the job you are doing. You realize that don't you? Some people God does require to work 40 hours a week. Others he simply does not. There are more useful things you can do with your free time if you do not work. 

Money is elusive, flighty, transitory. It can all come to nothing in a matter of months if you act unwisely. Make sure your life is about more then just accumulating more money. Let it be primarily about loving others. That is more important in the long run, such as regarding your placement in eternity. 😀

What is your calling? Is your career your calling? It can be. Were you meant to be a mother or a father? Then be mother or a father. Is God calling you out of the life of business to focus on raising a family? Then do it and do a good job at it. You can do it! Believe you can be a wonderful caretaker of others and you can be. 😊 

God wants us all to take care of someone. Who has God assigned you to? It could be your mate or kids or people at work.

 A lot of the time people try hard to care for too many people at once and they get really tired. Have boundaries. You can't save or help the whole world. But there might be a handful of people God wants you to help. Do it well and with a content heart. 

The more people you help, the less you can help those that you do help. Keep that in mind. 🙂

Go fulfill your calling. Figure out what it is. Take a long bath and pray about it. 😉 And reassure yourself that you have what it takes. You are strong and well able to live out whatever dreams you might want to accomplish. Go live a great life fulfilling your calling. And may God bless you! 

Jealousy

 You can't be blessed without people being jealous of you. But don't be scared to let God bless you. Who cares if people are jealous. 

I read in a book that we aren't afraid we are nothing. We are more afraid we can be amazing. We are afraid to shine. Because when you shine, people might get jealous. But keep shinning. Keep allowing God to bless your socks off. Let your life be totally amazing. You deserve it. You might not feel like you do, but God believes you do. 

Don't be too scared to let your life be superb. So often people cut their own legs out from underneath themselves. They don't believe they deserve to succeed, so they cause themselves to fail even before they begin. I know what that is like because I have done that to myself many times. Self sabotage.

 Why do you want to kill your dreams? Why do you keep trying to kill yourself? You may not realize you do, but what do you do all day? Do you seek life or death? Do you chase your dreams or kill them? Do you act like you hate yourself or love yourself? 

May God increase your visions for your life and help you desire things that bring life and not death. 

Work PTSD

 Work can get crazy. I think I still need a long break from all the madness. I would rather spend less money then go make more just so I can spend more. 

Have you noticed this at work? All the men are after all the women, and all the women are after all the men. There are at least 5 on going emotional affairs going on in any work place. 

There is non stop racism that you can feel. Each ethnic group thinks the other groups are against them, even if we're not. There is tension over what is fair and who is actually getting work done and who isn't. There is constant competition to impress the head boss. Everyone wants to one up everyone else. The women are competing with one another over who is the hottest. The men are competing over the women, always trying to figure out who is the most noble and worthy bachelor, even if they aren't a bachelor. 😣 

There is constant competition over climbing up the ladder, but you have to step all over your friends to do it. There are no real friendships at work, because you all are constantly trying to outdo one another. Some people throw you under the bus to make you look bad and them look better to the head boss. I never cared about doing any of that. I always got more hours then I wanted, but I suppose I had my own competitive tactics that I used to work my way to the top. 

When I watch my kittens and puppies wrestle with each other it reminds me of how aggressive we all tend to be naturally. We are all hunters by nature. We hone in on the target and attack with force. If anyone gets in our way, we bite them and intimidate them until they run away in fear. We are all part animal even though we try to appear cordial and kind. It is just an act. Some people are genuinely kind. For most people, the fake kind attitude is just a mask they put on to get what they want. To play the game of love or work. Wolves in sheep's clothing is what most people are. Always trying to get what they want at the expense of others because they don't care about anyone but themselves. 

Are you genuinely kind? Or is it a mask you put on like your make up, just to get what you want in life? Good luck on being a genuinely kind person. I mean that sincerely. You can be less out for yourself if you try to be. 😉

Beliefs and Hope

 Who do you believe that you are? Whatever you see yourself as, that is what you will become. See yourself as great to become great. If you think you are nothing, you will make yourself nothing. It is good to be humble, but don't be overly humble to the point that you think you have nothing to offer the world. Maybe you have a lot to offer, but you needed some time to rest, like me. :) We can all get burned out on trying to save the world. But get back up at some point and keep shinning. Don't let Satan permanently put your light out. He hates it when we believe and know we can do great things for God, because he knows that then we will. He tries to stifle our creativity and our confidence and our dreams. He tries to trip us up and make us feel less than. He wants us to feel like we will never cause our dreams to happen. Never stop believing that what you want most IS possible. It is impossible to get every single thing that you want. You can get most of what you want. At times we have to pick what is most important to us but don't worry, whatever path you pick God will cause you to flourish and radiate. Just stay close to Him. Listen to his guiding and you will find the best path. God will fulfill your dreams if you wait on him for the right timing. "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." 

Safe and Happy

 Most of my life I have been either safe or happy. It has been hard to find both. Have you noticed? Most things that are safe are not happy, because they can be boring. And most happy things are not safe. There is always some risk involved for something to be happy and fun. For the first time in a long time, I feel both safe and happy. Thank you to my bf very much for making me feel both safe and happy. 😃 

Routine

 Our daily routine becomes our comfort zone and our new addictions. Try to bring good addictions into your daily routine. It takes 30 days to develop a habit. You do what you want to do, but you also do what becomes familiar. Your constant habit becomes what you always want to do. If you want to break a bad habit, just start doing something else. When you fill your day with good and happy things, there is no longer room for bad things. 

To Want

 Everyone is depressed 24/7 because we don't always get what we want and so we are depressed about it. The Bible says, "Hope deferred makes the heart sick."  When you hope and don't get what you hoped for, you become depressed. So then you try to stop wanting that thing, but that makes you even more sad that you gave up any and all hope. 

Depression

 Depression is constipated emotions. It happens when we feel So much but we don't express it. Our tongue is tied. The depression is really anger at yourself that you are too cowardly to say what you feel or what you want to have happen. So you mull over it. You let the thoughts and feelings stew in your heart. It burns inside, but you keep it hidden. It eats at you from the inside out. 

Why not just let it out? Say it. Express what your inner most desires are. Some people might not care, but other people will or could. Whatever you need to say, just spit it out. Stop sitting on your feelings as though you are sitting on your hands. What do you wish for? What do you want? Then say it. Stop being afraid. That fear might cause the very thing you are afraid of. Maybe you fear you might loose someone if you say the wrong thing. But you saying nothing could cause you to loose them even more. Then you are mad they don't care what you want. But how can they care what you want if you never tell them? 

Say what you need to say, and be freeeee. :)

Reflection

 Love is a reflection. The degree to which another loves you is the degree to which you love them. It is a reciprocal effort. You do something and then they do something to help the love grow. It is like riding a tandem bike. You both work together to stay together. You both put some effort in to build the love. As long as you both see the rewards of love, you both will make the effort to keep it going. 

Happiness is....

I just watched the movie "Hector and the Search for Happiness." Go buy it at Dollar Tree if you have a DVD player like me, or it might be on Netflix. ☺

What makes people happy? The main thing would be not being hungry. At times fasting can bring happiness. When you stay hungry by choice you then appreciate food more. That can make you more happy. 

Having an attractive person to cuddle with. That makes us all happy. ❤

Having cute pets to look at and to hug. That makes us all happy. 

Eating 🍫 chocolate. Drinking smoothies. Eating popcorn. Drinking hot ☕ coffee. Those things make us all happy. 

Prayer makes me very, very happy. I hope it brings you happiness too. 

Writing, going for long walks, watering plants, 🌼 taking hour long warm baths 🛁 and thinking, great music, making bracelets for others, typing out wise thoughts as they to my mind on Twitter, listening to sermons with my bf, giving and getting massages...these things make me supremely happy. 😃 

Loving and being loved back. That is the number one thing that makes us all happy. 

I hope you all have found that. 😉 Love is the greatest cause of being happy. 

Make sure you always love well, and then you will always be happy. ☺

Treasures

 "Do not store up for yourself treasure on earth where moth and rust destroy. Instead store up treasure in heaven." 

What does this mean? I have always felt it meant give money away whenever you have extra. But at times that is not the wisest thing to do. In general, we are called by God to be generous. It is true it is better to give then to receive. But receiving can be very nice too. 😃 The more you give out, the more you get. What goes around comes around. If you want treasure, whatever you consider that to be, give that treasure to others.

God says, "This verse means to be loving. Don't focus on this earth too much. Focus on eternity. What do you want heaven to be like for you? What rewards do you want to have waiting for you there? Live in such a way that you will have many rewards in heaven. How do you do that? Live well. Love others. Be kind and give to the needy. Never pass up an opportunity to love someone else well." 

"Give and it will be given to you, pressed down shaken together and running over."

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. My cup runs over." 

Life Pain

 Everything in life is painful. It is basically 24/7 a damned if you do and damned if you don't scenario. Every path you walk will be painful. If you work, people may try hard to steal your spirit and your joy. If you stay home a lot, there is the pain of boredom or being alone too much. If you have kids, there is the pain of feeling like you aren't doing a good job. If you don't have kids, you wish you had them. No matter what you choose to do in life, you cannot avoid painful days. There is no utopia. Heaven on earth will never exist. But the bad days make us appreciate the good days more. The more you go without it, whatever it is for you, the more you appreciate it when you have it. Try to see the happy things in life but know you cannot escape from the pain of life, no matter what you do. That sadness will always be there. You can hide from it for short moments, but eventually you have to accept that life is basically non stop pain. 

My Wonderful Life

 I am currently living in a classic house, meaning it was built awhile ago, but there is lots of new beautiful life here. New love. New baby animals. I have 6 kittens who are 2 months old, 2 puppies and 1 bunny who are also 2 months old. I love them all more then my own life! There are 2 month old baby trees growing up all over my backyard. :) They are from a tree called The Tree of Heaven. This house is like heaven on earth for me. It is a time of new and exciting life for me. I needed this a lot. A fresh start. A new beginning. No matter what you have gone through, know that God will always give you a new beginning if you are wanting that. Keep hoping, keep believing and your dreams can come to life. 😃

My Lovely Tree

 I have the most beautiful tree I had ever seen in my back yard. Its nickname is a Heavenly Tree. I thought half the tree was wilting and the leaves were dying. I was so worried about the tree, due to the crazy heat wave we have had. But when I looked closer I realized those were new leaves with seeds! That means my tree is doing very well and it has had enough water to be able to reproduce now. Praise God! My hope and goal is for my entire back yard to be filled with these trees and to have my own little forest back there. That would be so cool! There are currently about 30 baby trees growing under it and they are so adorable! The baby trees look like ferns. I love them so much!

Work

 I am gun shy, so to speak, to jump into my next giant group of friends. I am still licking my wounds. For now I am perfectly happy to have my lover as my only in person friend. I need to heal from all the drama from the past 4 years. I got hurt a lot by about 20 people over and over for 4 years at home and working in pizza. When I go back to work, I think I need to jump back to retail work. Food work is too stressful and your co workers can get so nasty. Sure it has the perk of getting free food any time you need it, but the drama isn't worth it. May God guide me in my next steps regarding work. I hope you all enjoy your job at least a bit. May God bless you! 

My Love

 You are my sunshine. My only sunshine. I want no other man but you. Your soft skin makes my heart jump for joy. Your smile makes me melt. Your laugh is the greatest sound on earth. I never knew I could love a man as much as I love you, but I do. I hope we stay together forever. Your arm muscles turn me on every time I feel them. Your face is like a chiseled carving of the perfect face. I love gazing at your beauty while you are sleeping. Your green eyes make me so happy! 😃Your hands are my best friends. Your back makes me know you are a big strong warrior. It is powerful, like looking at the Rocky Mountains. I love to bury my face in your soft muscular chest. I love you so, so, so much my lover! Thank you for always being so sweet to me. Everything about you is my dream come true. 

Love is Amazing

 Let love in. Stop hiding from love. It can be supremely beautiful if you let it be beautiful. The amount of love you give out is what you will get. Don't hold back. Dive into the rivers of love and feel the warm waters cover you completely. :)

There is nothing more wonderful in this world then being head over heels for the one you love. You know you would do anything for them. You want nothing but that person and as long as they are happy, you are happy. Nothing else is important. No amount of money. No car. No new adventure. Nothing but that person matters to you. All you want is to see them smile, to hear their laugh. To wrap your arms around them. To show them as much love as you possibly can. 

When you really love someone it can make you cry from loving them so much. From yearning for them. From desiring to be by their side 24/7. You constantly wish they were there with you. You want to kiss them and hug them. You wish they were happy 24/7. You wish you could always keep them safe. 

Have you found this kind of love? Keep looking, keep hoping and someday it will find you. 

Lost and Found

 All that Satan stole from me, God has now restored to me. I have a beautiful 3 bedroom house again to raise my family number 2 in. God seems to have given me a second chance at raising my own family again. I have a handsome young husband who knows how to work hard. 😊 I know that he will always take great care of me and our kids until I die. I have 6 adorable kittens again as my new best friends. I have a great back yard to run around in and play frisbee and soccer in. I have time to chill, but also tons of time with my sugarface who I love so much! He is so kind and caring! Just the sweetest guy alive on this planet. 😃 I love my new house so much! I hope to stay here for the next 40 years. 😃 Thank you Jesus for restoring all the things that Satan stole from me! God I trust in your timing that I will have 2 precious daughters again, and my plan is to name them Angel and Hope. ☺