Thus Says the Lord

 God has a word for you dear reader. Stop being so arrogant. Let your pride fall away. The end is near. Bad times are coming. Turn or burn. But God loves you and he wishes that no one should perish. Seek first God and all other things will be added unto you. Jesus loves you! And Jesus wants all of you to get saved too and bear much fruit. 😁 

The Rapture

 I feel like God is saying the rapture may happen in a month or so. Yay! I told him he should rapture all the people who say please and thank you. 😂 All those who don't say those words should be left. That is kind of a joke. 

I feel he says there are two raptures, one for the saved now and one for those saved in the Tribulation time period. I was always confused, as a lot of people are, when it would happen. The first rapture of us saved ones will happen before any of the last day events happen. So get ready Christians! Keep that Holy Spirit oil burning in the lamp of your soul. Are you excited about our flight to heaven possibly soon? I am. 😁

"I'll fly away oh glory I'll fly away...."

Being Sick

 Sore throat, runny nose 

If only I could wash it away with a hose 

I hate feeling sick and lousy 

Every minute I feel so drowsy 

Maybe God wants to say

You need to love your day

If you feel you may never get well

Remember God will make you feel swell

Just be patient and learn to take it easy 

Be Impressed

 If you are not impressed by the person you hope to marry, it most likely will not last long. 

With my ex, his apartment was falling apart. His car was the ugliest car anyone has ever seen. The outside looked nice, but the inside was terrible. The fabric was missing on the inside passenger door. Maybe that was meant to be an analogy for me, from God, about what he was really like. His outside looked nice enough, but his mind was really disheveled. I didn't notice it at all until the last year we were married. Then he became very scary to me. 

I was not impressed about much about my ex. That is probably the main reason we didn't make it. 

With my man now, he takes excellent care of his grandma. That impressed me a lot at first and it still does. He also has such awesome muscles that are just great. He said he worked out every day for 5 years to get those. Very cool. ☺ He is the most humble person I have ever been around. He is the most generous person I have ever known. I love my Zachypoo! 

The Perfect Day

 This is probably the most emotional movie you will ever see. Check it out. It's free on YouTube. It really makes you think. Do you want money or time with your family more? "The Love of money is the root of all evil." If you chase money too much, you might lose all that you already have. I had wanted to be a teacher so my ex and I could pay off our house in half the time, but then I lost it all. I was setting my goals on the wrong thing. I just wanted to pay the house off, but was that the best thing for me to pursue? Probably not. Then I lost the house, my ex and my kids. All because I decided to love money too much just by wanting it too much. 

My dream lately has been to have a book I write go famous. I feel like God tells me I wouldn't be able to handle the publicity and pressure of fame and fortune. That movie made me realize why. The guy had a book become number one but then he had to travel non-stop. He lost touch with his family. It was like he became owned by the publishing company. He became their slave. Having a book go viral might not be the best thing after all. 

I grew up wanting to be the next Mariah Carey, but then I realized the fame and money corrupted all the music stars. I realized I didn't want to go that route in my life. Ed Sheeran started off pure and wholesome and then who knows what happened to him. Very sad. 

My grandma had the same epiphany. She went to UCLA hoping to become a movie star. She saw how corrupt the movie industry was and decided it was not for her. She went back to Texas and met my grandpa and they were married for 60 years. Pretty amazing. What was success for her? If she had become a movie star or staying married for 60 years? I say staying married for 60 years was the greatest success she could have found. 

You may think you want something, but if you get it, it might not be what you wanted. The grass is always greener on the other side. Money is transitory. The only thing that will hopefully last forever is your family. Make sure you always make them your priority. 

Fireplace

 You warm the whole room

And make love bloom

You give off a wonderful smell

We find we have much to tell

The most beautiful thing ever

Is staring at fire as flames sever

And tangle around each other 

How wonderful is the smother

Of smoke on your clothes after

There is always lots of laughter

As we all gather around a fire

Until it is late and time to retire

Manager Lisa

 You don't know what feeling on top of the world is until you try being a manager. I had loads of fun being a Papa John's manager. 

One day I had a driver cleaning the outside of trash cans. That was one of the happiest days of my life. ☺ It needed to get done, and he was so happy to serve me, or the company, but it felt like he was my servant. 😁

Another day a driver and I deep cleaned the oven. He complained about it, but he did it. That was also a very happy day for me. 

I hope I get to be a manager again. Inspiring others to work hard is such a fun experience. If you ever get a shot at being a manager do it. I bet you will just love it. ☺

End of the Line

 We all have a breaking point 

We can only help others so much 

Don't go past your own boundary 

Listen to your gut feeling 

If you feel done 

Let yourself be done 

You don't need to give 

More than you feel able to give 

God loves a cheerful giver 

Not a depressed and solemn giver 

Give as much as you are able 

And then let another carry the burden 

Alcohol

You promise to give people a good time

But you cause headaches and taste like a lime

You give alienation and severe pain

You try to be their best friend and gain

All of them and control their life

Drinking is a way to escape

But why do you need to escape?

If your life is really that bad

Just change things and be less sad

Drinking is selfish and wrong

It harms your body and makes you less strong

It makes others worry about you

Why not be more true 

To your body and treat it well?

Faith

 What if the things that are not

Could become, take a shot 

Awaken your faith and pray 

What do you need to say? 

What have you always wanted? 

"You have not because you ask not"

"Ask and you will receive

That your joy may be full" 

Worship

 The whole world melts away 

It feels as if angels carry you away

You keep trying but can barely say 

How much you appreciate that day

When God came in your soul, you pray

For those who have not found him yet 

Your soul only wants to be there 

It feels as though you can stare

At God's face and maybe share 

In what heaven must feel like 

It has always meant a lot to me 

And filled my heart with so much glee

To sing a song to God directly 

I know he hears my songs of love 

While he longs to bring me above 

The chaos of this earth 

For a good while I must stay 

And simply dream of that day 

When I can sing to God and stay 

In heaven always 

Hope

 It shines in through cracks sometimes

Maybe I think it's gone at times

I can barely see it but it's there

It shows me all about where

I need to keep my mind

When life feels like a bind

Don't give up hope just yet

Things will get better I bet

Just keep believing impossible things can happen

Our Dad

 You want to give us money

You think you are super funny

You can't just buy your way out

So go on your way and pout

You have burned many a bridge

Maybe learn to walk a narrow ridge

Instead of being all over the place

You are kind and mean at the same time

I think all you own is a dime

Please keep your toxic behavior away

You should realize how much you need to pay

Us back, but any amount would never be enough

Burned In Memories

 It is amazing how the molest of my dad happened 33 years ago, but to this day I remember it like it was yesterday. That is the main memory that seems to be vividly burned into my brain.

Another stressful memory was me singing in front of my choir. My college choir teacher would pick 8 of us out sometimes to test our learning of the music. That was the most nervous I ever felt in my life. Probably because I was one of the few non music majors in the choir, and I was in love with a few guys in the choir. 

 I have a happy memory of being at a lake with my daughters. I have a memory of being at a river with my ex and his boy. I remember vividly being at a water park with another ex. It is funny that all my happy memories involve some form of water. If I was not around some form of water, I don't remember it as well. 

I hope to move my little family to northern CA someday where the best waterfalls in the world are. Or at least I hope they are. Probably the most gorgeous hiking trails are up there. Someday. ☺

My Molest

 For any who are wondering what my dad is like. He is evil. My dad attempted to rape me when I was 6 years old. I was taking a nap with him in his bed. He kept pulling my underwear down. He was pretending to be asleep and saying my mom's name. I could tell he wasn't really asleep. Then his member was sticking out of his robe. He put it between my legs. At that point I jumped out of his bed and ran to my room. I don't know if there was a lock on the door, but maybe I locked the door. When my mom got home from getting groceries, I told her what happened. She called Focus on the Family about it. They reported it, and he went to jail. 

The only other thing I remember is being younger than 6 and taking showers with my dad. He had me play with his member. 

Parents be very careful who you let be around your children or what you let them do. You never know what someone might do. Just because you wouldn't do it, that doesn't mean someone else wouldn't. 

The Boy in the Striped Pajamas

 Why did the Holocaust happen? If you have read the Bible you may remember how the Jews wanted Barabas to be set free instead of Jesus. They literally said, "Let his blood be upon us and our children." So that is always the reason I have thought of logically for why it happened. 

Why did God let his people, the Jews, get slaughtered? Was he angry with them? It's hard to say. But if you think of it, they may have all gone to heaven, which is way better than this earth. Maybe the torture and humbling set up of the concentration camp was meant to save them. Maybe God wanted to break them in order to save them. 

He does that often, doesn't he? So many of us don't really see God until we are very broken. 

The Jews still to this day refuse to recognize Jesus as their Savior. Why? That is quite stubborn I would say. I had an ex that was Jewish. I tried to save him. It's hard to say if my efforts worked. I guess I won't know until I am in heaven. I hope they did. 

I hope that all Jews will find Jesus. May God help then to see the truth, that he was the Messiah they have been waiting for. 

I asked my mom once, "Are there still Jews?" "Yes." "But why? They should all be Christian now since Jesus came." ☺

Become Christian. It is the best way to think and be and live. God loves you. 😀

Safe Haven

 This is such a beautiful movie. Every woman has a past, usually that was scary. Every man has a past, usually that was sad or involved jail. 😒 Watch out for the bad guys of the world. There are men who are hell bent on hurting women, and others who just want to protect them. The men who hurt women hate women. Why? Maybe their mom is or was mean to them. Maybe lots of women cheated on them or broke up with them. Maybe their teachers treated them poorly. 

I have had many dreams that a man was hunting me, like the man in this movie does. I think the man represented my dad. I have feared being around him again for a long time. 

Why do some women only want to hurt men? Maybe they were abused or neglected by their guy family members. Maybe an ex cheated on them. Maybe guys at work were demeaning toward them. 

The battle of the sexes is a real thing. Make sure you respect the opposite sex. Just because one let you down, that doesn't mean they all will. 

My Crazy Dad

 My brother recently texted asking me if I want money from our dad. I said how much and well no, not if he gets my address. I just want to write this to say, if any of you have crazy family members, don't let them have your address. They can camp outside your house if they want to and mess with you a lot. That has never happened to me, but I could see it happening. 

My dad is really crazy. He molested me as a child. Then 11 years ago he molested his step grandkids. He was accused and put in jail. A police officer called me to ask me to make a video testimony about what happened with me so he would be put away for a longer time. He had what he did to me taken off his record. I guess the police could still see that he was in jail so they must have just figured out that was why. So I made the testimony video and he was put away for a full 10 years. For that reason I think he might want revenge on me. Therefore I will never give him my address. 

I just want to tell you all, make sure you protect yourself, even from some family members. You never know what someone might do. If you value your life, don't give out your address to anyone you don't trust. 

Please all pray for me that my dad will find a place to live forever and not contact me or my brother ever again. I don't like having a crazy dad on the loose, but life goes on. 😣

God the Father

 Thank you for creating me 

I hope I will always be 

Someone you are proud to see

Someday I hope to be 

More of what we 

Want me to be 

You are so patient with me 

Thank you for your love to me

Thank you for your mercy 

Thank you for causing me 

To attain my eternal security 

With you in eternity 

Jesus

 The moment you died on that tree 

You knew all of us would be 

Totally set free 

Through your victory

I hope I can pay you back 

To make up for how I lack 

Being perfect  

I love you more than words can say

I can't wait for that happy day 

When I'll be with you forever 

My Life Map

 My first real boyfriend died 9/11 of 2012. For that reason 9/11 has always been extra sad for me. We had an argument that night over a girl he knew, but I wonder also if his friend from work said to him, "Let's get wasted since it's 9/11" and then getting wasted killed him. Watch out for those crazy friends you might have. They just might cause you to die. 

Then I cried my eyes out for about 5 months. I went to Australia with a life insurance check I had through him. That kept me more happy then I would have been otherwise. Then I met my ex husband after Valentine's Day of 2013. We got married right away, like a week after we met. Why did I marry him so fast? Because I missed Roger who died. I missed having a partner to have fun with. I was living with a friend at the time, but she was kind of a depressed person. I wanted to have some fun so I married Ben, and we did have fun. We went hiking and bowling and played mini golf. It was a very happy time for me. 

Then our first girl was born in January of 2014. She was my little bundle of joy. I finally forgot about Roger dying. I prayed many times that she would turn one before I got pregnant again. Then 2 months after her one year old birthday, I was pregnant again with Joy, who was my other little cuddle bug bundle of joy. It was difficult to be pregnant and have a one year old, but God helped me get through it ok.  Joy was born in October of 2015. A week after she was born our lease was up at our apartment. I wanted us all to move to Austin to be closer to my mom. I figured I would need her help with now having 2 kids. My ex's mom wasn't very much help, but she wasn't retired yet so I'm sure that was why. So we moved to Austin, and life got a lot more happy for a season. We went hiking and swimming in lakes a lot. We explored every area of that city any chance we could. 

Then for no obvious reason, my ex went crazy. He just didn't want to be married anymore I guess. Maybe he wasn't attracted to me anymore. Maybe he never was. So he went insane and moved in with his parents. I asked them to take of Serenity because she was already there at their house for a week. I didn't want to fight with my ex over her. She was his favorite. I also let them keep her so he wouldn't commit suicide. I was very worried that he would at that time. Then a month later my mom told me they gave my oldest daughter 4 vaccines in one day. I drove out to rescue her, but ended up giving my ex's family my other daughter. I regretted that for a very long time, but I didn't have the money to provide for her. I don't know how any single mom does it. It must be super hard. My mom maybe could have babysat her so I could have gone out and worked two jobs, but I didn't really want to do that. We couldn't live with my mom and step-dad because they are in a retirement community that has a rule that family can only live with them for 3 months at a time. So I gave up my daughter. 

Then I had a few exes that didn't work out. Then I met my current man 1.5 years ago. We had a son this year. James was born in March of 2023. I figured he would replace my daughters, but I still miss them. Hopefully someday I will get to have shared custody with my girls. I want to see them on the weekends, maybe every other weekend, if my ex will allow that. Please pray he will be nice and let that happen, and that his mom will be willing to share the girls with me.  I would like to be in their lives again. 

I hope your lives have been easier than mine. May God bless you all. 😁

Black Widow

 I remember hearing a long time ago that the black widow lures males into a trap. She mates with them and then kills them. I don't know if that is just a story or actually true. I have always felt I kind of resemble the black widow in that. Not that I kill men, but I do seem to mess up their life. 😣

I did have one boyfriend die, one went crazy, one went to jail, one turned gay I think, and the other one gambled all his money away after we broke up. 😪 Wow right. I seem to hurt men a lot, and if any of my exes are reading this, I'm sorry. I didn't mean for us to not work out. I didn't mean to hurt you. I suppose any break up is hard on guys mainly. I keep staying strong though, surprisingly. Thank you God. :) I have never come close to death or going crazy or going to jail. I doubt I would ever be gay, and I hate gambling. It could just be said I picked bad apple men to begin with. Or did I mess them up?

I have a feeling I have not seen my daughters in 4 years because an ex's mom is mad at me still for him going crazy. I don't think it was totally my fault though. It was the combination of many things and many people that messed with his brain. Also it was hard raising two kids, one right after the other. That isn't easy for any parent. 

May God protect all the parents of two young children out there. I know it is very difficult. Good job to you, and thank you for keeping the human population going. 😁 Try to not go crazy. This too shall pass. They will grow up and make you proud someday, hopefully. 😀

The Holy Spirit

 She evokes memories of my rebirth

When my fire was hot as the hearth

I could not stop trying to share

The gospel with others, like a dare

To myself every day to let the Holy Spirit

Speak through me as boldly as the Spirit

Wanted to speak

Afterall the main sign of being filled

Is the boldness to witness until

There is no one left to witness to

:)

Sad Memories

 Sorry if this blog is overly sad, but here are things that make me sad about Christmas. I don't like deer that much, because one basically totalled my luxury car 3 years ago. A man who looked like Santa molested me when I was 7. I have never liked Santa much for that reason. Be careful where your kids go. 😒

I don't like fireplaces, because my ex loved them and I don't want to think about him. 😪 I don't like cookies, because they cause cavities. I don't like trains, because then I think of my friend Victor who went to jail for molesting kids. He had a huge model train set. He worked at a school that I worked at. Be careful who you let work with kids. 

But I still love the nativity scene so that is good. Nothing has ruined my love of that yet and hopefully nothing ever will. 😁 

Somehow, despite all that, I managed to write a very happy book about Christmas. Check it out on Amazon, Christmas Poems by Lisa Bedrick.

Austin

 All the best memories of my life 

Were out there in Austin 

The most gorgeous hiking trails 

Were over there 

The most beautiful rivers 

The breathtaking lakes 

Everyone should live in Austin

At least one time in their life 

But beware of the Cedar trees 

They are killers to your allergies 

You might make your best memories

If you ever get to live in Austin 

Happy Birthday Jesus

 Of all the birthdays we celebrate 

Yours is the most important 

We love you more than anyone 

Or at least we should 

You gave up your life for us 

So we could walk in freedom 

No one has given us a better gift 

Our present to you this Christmas 

Is giving our lives to you 

To say thank you 

For you giving your life 

❤

Don't Do This

 If a man or woman sounds like a jerk on their dating profile, don't go on a date with them. My ex said in his online profile, "If you don't go to the gym, don't bother messaging me." Who says that? That is why I have mostly avoided him the last 4 years. He has a very annoying personality. I'm sure his mom now is annoyed having to live with him, but it seemed that was what she wanted. 

If you have kids, don't get picky about their physical features. We all have flaws. No one has a perfect looking mate. No one has perfect looking kids. 

If you have enough money to survive, don't try to get more at the expense of paying attention to your family. "The love of money is the root of all evil." 

If your man refuses to work and your parents have to pay all the bills, leave him for a season and go live with a sibling. That is what I should have done 4 years ago. 

If you think of getting your child a bike or scooter, make sure they are age appropriate and have them wear a helmet. 

Don't buy a brand new house if you know you can't afford it. Be grateful for the cheap place you found and stay there till you die. 

Don't marry a charismatic or Pentecostal. They are almost never nice people. 

Don't own any credit cards. They are never a good thing to have. They will probably mess up your marriage and ruin your entire life. 

Don't buy a brand new car. Just keep fixing up your old car. In the long run, it is the better way to do things. 

Don't be a jerk about your woman buying things. She deserves a paycheck too if she is caring for your children. 

Avoid church if you can. They seem to only split families up these days. The world is too crazy now for church in person. 

Appreciate what you have before you loose it. The more you decide to want it, the less likely you will be to loose it. 

Purpose

 What was I meant to do? 

Maybe to write a book or two 

God mainly wants me to take care

Of my man and my boy and stare

At their handsome faces all day 😂

All my hobbies are just for fun 

I hope they help others a ton 

Ask God what he wants you to do 

And love what you are meant to do

My Girls

I have missed you every day 

There is much that I would say 

If I ever get to see you again 

I didn't mean for our family to end 

But your father would not bend

In regards to lots of things 

I hope you can live with me someday 

Until then I can just pray 

That you are happy and safe 

I pray you both date good boys 

May they never treat you like toys 

Or maybe you can start great careers

Know that I would die for you 

I will always be a bit blue 

Over not seeing you anymore 

I pray you will always follow God 

No matter what  

Healing

 Why does God not always heal me? 

Why does he not give me perfect vision? 

Does he not care? 

Maybe he wants me to overcome 

To appreciate what I have already 

No one has it all 

We all have a few blessings 

Maybe the more grateful we decide to be

The more blessings he will give us 

Gratitude precedes healing 

Confession, loving others, wisdom 

That is what God wants 

Before he spoils us with all that we want 

😁

Singing

 I really love to sing 

So I can hopefully bring 

Joy to those who hear 

Maybe sing away some fears

Ever since I was young 

I loved to sing and sung 

Any song I heard on the radio 

I had a record of Rainbow Brite

Singing it made me light 

Up my world oh so much 

I hope my singing will always 

Bring myself and others joy

-Check out my singing YouTube videos. Search Lisa Bedrick on YouTube.

Writing

 Always a great way to unwind 

When your mind is in a bind 

Feeling more set free 

The less you need to be 

Perfect 

Just getting it all out there 

Seems to clear the air 

From the stress that weighs me down 

That makes me often have a frown 

Don't stay grumpy and mad 

Write more so you can be glad 

Get it off your chest 

So that you can breath again 

The Little Mermaid

 Wanting to discover a new world 

For a first time she found love strongly 

But her dad said it was wanted wrongly 

Hindered by her controlling dad

Her life was very sad 

She struck a deal with the evil one 

But what would she then become? 

In the end she got her man 

Most deals are a much sadder plan 

Never sell your soul for fame or money 

It isn't a thing that is funny 

Things may go seriously wrong 

If you are not very strong 

Stay away from evil forces 

They are not a thing to mess with 

Depression

 What causes depression? 

Isolation, lack of purpose 

Jealousy, hatred of others 

Conviction by the Holy Spirit 

For your evil thinking

Harding your own heart

To others and to God 

Let God transform your heart 

Melt that ice away, you ice queen 

Let the light of the Savior shine in 

Beef Stew

 I can just taste it now 

Homemade beef stew is amazing 

The tender, chewy pot roast beef 

The warm, sweet onions

The sweet carrots covered in broth 

It makes you feel good again 

Like life will all be ok again 

My New Book

Hey all, today I self-published a book called "Christmas Poems" by me, Lisa Bedrick. If you could tell people about it that would be cool. Maybe possibly ya'll could order one for yourself and anyone you want to get a Christmas present for. The book mostly has religious poems. Well maybe it's half secular and half religious. I hope everyone will like it a lot. I don't make a lot from the sales. Each book sale only gives me $1 or so, but I would love if the entire world would read it. Like literally I want the entire world to read that book. I think I did a great job on it. :)

God loves you!

The Spirit of Fear

You harass people with fearful illusions 

And then laugh at them

To you it's a game

To mess with people's heads

It's not funny

May you end your silly games on humanity

I pray you will melt away

Like the witch in the Wizard of Oz

Be gone spirit of fear

I command you to go

To the pit of hell

And never return

Rich People

The money goes to their heads

They yell and abuse others

As if they can get away with any behavior

And their money will keep their people with them

Eventually they go down

Their ship goes down in smoke

All their money won't take them just anywhere 

They have to be nice still

They have to work hard still

Maybe someday they will learn

That they can't get away with everything

Just because they are rich 

To Alcohol

You promise to give people a good time

But you only cause pain in the end

Alienation from others

Because you try to be their best friend

Drinking is a way to escape

But why escape?

If your life is so bad

Just change what you can

So you can be more happy

Drinking is selfish

It only causes harm to your body

And makes others worry about you

Alcohol should be no more

It helps some to cope

But why not learn to cope in other ways?

Peter Pan People

These are people who never want to grow up

They don't know how to grow up

They want others to cover for them

People who have been spoiled and expect everyone to spoil them

They are irresponsible and loud and reckless

They have no logic and no remorse for anything they do

Such people cry over their life being hard

But they made it hard for themselves

There is always an excuse

But they could overcome it all

Instead they play the victim forever

As if their pain justifies any and all behavior

Probably they are suicidal

They can't handle the pains of life

And just try to kill themselves any way they can

Or make God want to take them out

Perhaps they think if it seems like an accident

God will let them into heaven

But the Bible says, "If anyone destroys his body

God will destroy him."

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom."

Without a fear of God there can be no wisdom, no decorum 

So the silly people will keep being idiots

And the rest of us can learn from their stupid mistakes

And hopefully get wiser

My Sweet Jesus

Jesus, my Savior

I found you at age 14

You invaded my lost heart with your bright light

You took over my mind

Then all I wanted to do was serve you

Tell the world about you

Go to the ends of the earth for you

Then that fire sadly became dim

Ironically due to my Christian college

So many cold hearts there

So much hypocrisy there 

I wandered between the world and you for many years

Finally at the Pentecostal church I found you again

I fell in love with you again

My husband thought I was cheating

But it was just a rekindled love for my sweet Jesus

For 5 years now it's been mainly me and you

Soldiering through this crazy world together

I will never leave you again

My sweet Jesus

Keep me at your side forever

I wouldn't wish to be anywhere else

But by your side 

Shady

 Have you noticed how corrupt our world is getting? I just made an order with Walgreens photo and they randomly added $30 to my bill. How can they sleep at night and do that? The coupon code is 50FESTIVE. If you order pictures, put that in and it makes it half off.

I noticed on Walmart.com also if you select the store cash button and then apply in at check out they Add that amount to your total instead of subtract it. Shady....

Watch out for eating out too. Restaurants now add on random charges to your bill. So shady...

May God help all the shady people to not be shady anymore. 

Magnificent Nature

 "The world is charged with the grandeur of God" 

It is magnificent and glorious in its beauty

It makes you feel young and brave again truly 

No one fully appreciates how spectacular it is 

We just throw trash all over the city 

Keep ourselves incredibly busy 

And never see the tiny purple flowers growing

Never take in and fully grasp the knowing  

The adorable squirrels running up the trees

Maybe being in nature more would help us believe 

In God 

Try to really see the wildflowers lining every highway 

Like a paved wonderful pathway of beauty 

Go out and see the sun shimmering on the lake 

Shinning like a thousand exquisite diamonds 

Stop stubbornly hiding in your dark houses 

Staring like a zombie at your TV or phone 

Go have an adventure in God's great outdoors

And fully take in all the ways God shows that he adores you 

Dogs

 I have never liked you very much 

You have a terrible growl and such 

Why are you so mean to people? 

I get woken up by your howl

That makes me want to scowl 

I hate missing out on sleep 

Maybe you are grumpy 

Due to being put in a cage

And not having any food or water 

Or even getting beaten

Life can be very hard for dogs 

 To all the dog owners, Jesus said 

"What you do to the least of these 

You have done to me." 

Coffee

 We have been friends since I was 10

You have followed me everywhere I've been 

You got me through college 

You helped me work faster

You made being a mom a lot less hard 

I can never thank you enough, coffee 

For all the joy you gave me 

I hope I will always get to have you 

You feel like my best friend 😂 

Clouds

 At times you are orange and pink 

When I see you I always think 

God through you is saying I love you 

I wish more often I would lay

And look up and stare at you all day 

You make me feel at rest 

I know you are one of the best 

Things God has made 

My Baby Boy

 Tiny hands, tiny feet 

I could not wait to meet

You when you were inside me 

I wonder what you will be 

Someday you will go find a mate 

I hope she is wonderfully great 

I hope you always have happy days 

I pray you learn to walk in God's ways 

You are such a precious gift from above 

I hope I always give you plenty of love 

Papa John's

 A non-stop party for us all

We really had a ball

Playing with dough all day 

I loved the things we would say

We always would encourage each other 

Every guy was like my brother 

It felt like a family 

Singing and dancing with glee

My music made the party start

I never wanted us all to part ways

There was so much love there 

The smell of pizza and brownies in the air 

Oh how I miss that place 

Someday I will go back there 

Our Weather

 The weather is lame in Texas 

The air often smells like gas 

It is either too hot or too cold 

Someday maybe we could run away 

To NorCal we could wander 

Breath in that serene ocean air 

Stand on the cliffs and feel the breeze 

The weather is so much better there 

Homosexuality

 Gayness is on the rise 

It took me by surprise 

Aren't we a Christian nation? 

Now you hear gay songs on radio stations 

Yes we do need to "Calm Down"

But what if God destroys the US 

For all the crazy B.S. 

Maybe y'all don't care if we blow up 

But that would really mess up

Our wonderful nation 

Vaccines

Vaccines were not made by God 

So why do we trust them? 

Twinkies were not made by God either 

And we don't trust them 

Twinkies can cause diabetes, cancer, cativities 

Anything you would hate to have happen 

What do vaccines cause? 

Think about that. 

Faith

 With God nothing is impossible 

Do you really believe that? 

You could move mountains 

If you wanted to 

Believe for impossible things to happen 

Stretch your faith 

You might get the thing you want the most 

Fear God

 Do you fear God?

It is crucial that you do

"The fear of the Lord is

The beginning of wisdom"

Does that mean you can know nothing

If you do not fear God? 

Perhaps :)

Poet

 I have always aspired to be a poet. I remember in grade school I was drawn to Robert Frost poems. In high school my English teacher got me to totally love Gerard Manly Hopkins' poems. God's Grandeur is great and Spring and Fall. I remember thinking that maybe someday I could write poetry like his poems. I'm sure he spent hours on each poem he wrote, thinking of as many brilliant words as he could. Every word took special planning for him I bet. Or maybe he just wrote words down easily like I do when I write. I think the more you write poetry, the easier it becomes. I am now thinking in rhyme. I keep coming up with rhymes in my head. 

Growing up I played Scrabble with my mom a lot. I love words. I was an English major, because I love writing. I tried writing poetry when I was in a poetry class. That was my first time writing poems. I mainly liked to write poems about nature, like Hopkins. I wrote some poems about the death of my ex when I first started this blog 10 years ago. And now this is my third time writing poems. I remember my poetry professor said, "No one really writes poems anymore." I said, "What about song lyrics? Those are like poems." I wrote songs at various times in my life. I even sang one in front of my church when I was about 14. 

Here is a sample of a song I might write, which also is like a poem....

Every day I want to make my mark

How can I leave the world a better place? 

I want to share my thoughts with everyone

God show me how to reach the lost

Show me how to say things that matter

I want to be a light for you

God show me how

If you play piano or guitar, feel free to make that into a song. I have been thinking if I could find an illustrator, any of my poems could be a children's book. I could paint illustrations in my own book in theory. 

I have been hearing God say lately I need to write more. I hope you all enjoy what I have been writing. If you like writing, try the app called Canva. It's mainly for advertising but it can be used to share poems or quotes from your writing. It's lots of fun to work with. Check it out. 

Spiritual Attack

 Satan is not your friend 

He can bite you like a snake in the end 

Maybe you think he will help you 

But he will only hurt and destroy you 

He can appear as an angel of light 

In order to not get dooped, you need to fight 

To keep your thoughts pure and good 

Consume tons and tons of spiritual food 

Worship music, Bible study and prayer 

Will cover you with many layers

Of protection

Keep yourself safe 

Justin Bieber

 You are the coolest guy alive 

I wish that I could dive 

Into your world 

I could help you write songs 

I would love to belong

To your happy, fun entourage 

I love how you talk about God 

You have a super hot bod ☺

Maybe in heaven we will be friends 

We can sing to God before his throne 

Then I finally can say that I have known 

Justin Bieber, the coolest guy alive 

Judge Not

 "If anyone is without sin, cast the first stone"

I know I can't do this on my own 

Jesus help me with my humility 

I know you hung on the tree 

Just so that I would come to be 

All that you intended for me 

"Judge not lest you be judged"

It is hard for me to budge 

Away from my own pride 

Holy Spirit stay close by my side 

And teach me how to love 

The exact same way you love me 

Pick Up the Trash

 When you go out for walk 

Pick up trash as you talk 

To whoever you go walking with 

You won't get any cash 

For picking up that trash 

But it will warm your heart up inside 

Make the world a better place 

Put a smile on someone's face 

When they see how clean their street is now 

Don't be a litter bug 

If you litter, what if a pug 

Comes out of hiding and bites you

😁

My Kittens

 Every day I wish I could give you 

Tons and tons of chicken or steak 

I hope you know how much I love you 

Maybe one day we will live by a lake 

Then you can all catch fish to eat 

Or we will catch fish for your meat 

You are the most adorable cats around 

I am so glad that I found 

Your momma cat and she gave me all of you 

Elon Musk

 Did you all love my poem about Elon? I have been seeing his rockets on Twitter for a while now. I think none of them have had a complete mission to Mars. Who else thinks it's time for him to give up? But good job to you Elon for trying. 

If I was as rich as him, here is what I would do. I would build homeless shelters in every major city and make sure all the homeless live in those shelters. I would give them projects to do like build things to sell. I would give money to all the single mothers so they will be ok. I would not be building rocket ships all day that don't work. But we all spend money on silly things sometimes, don't we? 

Here is a word from the Lord for Elon, "You are awesome Elon. I love you. Good job in building your rockets. I know that was a hard accomplishment for you. But maybe it's time to give it up. There are other things more noble that you could spend your time and money on. Take Lisa's advice. Give more money to the poor. Then you will have great rewards in heaven." 

Elon

 You are very persuasive in your speech 

I hope you will always teach 

Us all how to be hard workers like you 

Thank you for buying my favorite app

I pray you will always be a good chap 

You made Twitter a lot more fun 

And we all appreciate you a ton 

The world now is getting so weird 

But it makes us all happy to see your beard 

I hope you have experienced a new birth 

Now let us all stay on this earth 

For the rocket thing could be a waste of time 

You should give that money to single moms 

You never know before long 

God might bless you more than you could imagine 

Darkness

 I was always afraid of the dark 

Because it is a very stark 

Difference from the light 

What could be hiding in the dark? 

What evil things like a mean bark 

From a group of dogs are there?

As long as a small light is on 

I have felt safe, or maybe a song

Of worship was playing all night long

That made me feel a lot more strong

Won't you be a light for all of us? 

To help me push the evil darkness away?

Feminism

Yes women should be empowered 

But we need to remember our place 

God meant for us to care for kids and a man 

From the beginning that was his perfect plan 

Why do we put so much on ourselves? 

When Jesus told us, "My yoke is easy 

And my burden is light." 

Waterfalls

It is really easy to fall in love 

With a waterfall

Every new place I travel to 

The first thing I am dying to see

Is a powerful and majestic waterfall  

There is almost nothing more exciting 

That God has made 

Then the beautiful waterfalls of this world 

Spiritual Gifts

Gifts are great to help set you free

No matter what you can be

All that God created you to be

Tongues is controversial

Everyone loves faith and giving

Whatever gift you have

Let God use you to be a blessing

Going to Church

Ever since I was born

My mom took me to church

It was the happiest place on earth for me

Until I encountered lots of drama

I got burned for a season

But I know it is still good for me

Someday I'll go to a physical church again

For now I prefer to see it online

Be Generous

 Presents are great to see

Sitting underneath the tree

It is hard to believe 

That not all kids get to see

Presents that are just for them

Why not buy presents for 

Some children who are poor?

Great will be your reward in heaven

Stay Humble

 Whenever you start to get puffed up

Remember that you are only human

Always keep yourself in check

Or else your life might become a wreck

Pride comes before a fall

One day you might finally call

On God to help you

Until then remember to stay humble

Your life will go a lot better if you do

Expectations

 If you don't expect anything from anyone 

You will never get mad 

You will always feel glad 

And you will never be sad 

Expecting things can be bad 

Give up your expectations 

And be happy and content with less 

Then you will always feel blessed 

And you will be less stressed 

"Where the spirit of the Lord is 

There is freedom." 

Things I Lost

 I used to have so much more 

But maybe I didn't value it anymore

So I lost it 

My life seemed so perfect and stable 

But really it was all just a fable 

No life is perfect in reality 

We all loose things and cry 

We hate having to say bye 

But loss is just part of life 

Almost nothing lasts for all time 

If I had a million dimes 

I would toss them in a wishing well 

I would wish that loss could never be 

Maybe only then would we see 

How great life could get 

With my second chance I will see 

What I have and will be 

What I wasn't in the past 

 

To be Famous

 What is it like I wonder 

To have everyone know your name? 

Is it worth it to be at the top

Or would I miss being at the bottom?

Does the pressure of fame drive you crazy 

Or is it a walk in the park?

When you are leading the whole planet 

What will you lead them to? 

What if you run them off a cliff 

And feel guilt for the rest of your life? 

Maybe it's better to remain a small person 

Then I won't mess up the world 

🤔

Road Trips

 Oh to set out on a long trip 

Then maybe I can get a better grip 

On this crazy life I must live 

To see new things would bring me joy 

To go on adventures with my little boy 

Someday maybe we will travel the world 

Most of life is so dull 

It can really take a toll 

On your level of joy 

Go see a new thing

Maybe you can bring 

Others to God on your journey 

Get out and explore 

Or else you just might bore 

Yourself to death someday 

Life was meant to enjoy

Instead of just finding a new toy 

Get out there and see something grand 

Greed

 When you have a ton of money 

Life always feels sunny 

But what about those still in the dark? 

Why don't you share? 

Or do you not care? 

For any who have less than you 

Give things to the poor 

Then you won't feel sore 

In your heart for those who are hungry 

Why sit on your pile of cash? 

Share a bit of your stash 

Great will be your reward with God 

Gayness

 So many people feel shame 

When they realize they are not the same 

As most other people

They want the same gender 

Maybe to them it seems more tender 

But all love is a war 

You cannot find an easy relationship 

Every single kind of friendship 

Will have lots of drama 

There is no perfect set up 

You just have to get up 

And decide to make yourself happy 

No human will fill that hole 

Just make it your goal 

To be the best you you can be 

Tongues

The more you love someone

The more you want to have fun

So you kiss with your tongue

 

The more you love God

The more you are willing to pray in tongues 

The gift of tongues can be really great

It can be like a spiritual steak

For your walk with God 

It was not meant to be a show 

We all know that God will know 

If it is real and genuine or not 

It was meant to make you feel closer to God 

Mothers talk baby talk with their babies 

To show more love 

God wanted us to talk in a new way 

To show more love to him 

It doesn't need to be public or loud

That so often makes people proud 

It is supposed to be just you and God

 

If you want to feel closer to God 

Be open to speaking in tongues 

It is nothing to be afraid of 

Prayer

 My heavenly father who is in heaven 

Thank you for caring about me 

I believe you care for even the small things 

That worry me all the time 

You comfort me anytime I need it 

Thank you for being a great friend 

I hope to pay you back somehow 

For all you did and do for me 

Children

 You feel like their new experiences 

Are yours as well 

Their excitement for life is contagious 

Their smile melts your heart 

Their eyes make you feel blissful

There is nothing greater 

Than hugging your sweet cute baby 

There is no better sound 

Than hearing them laugh 

You thought your life was blessed before 

But it didn't compare at all 

To having your own child 

Your own flesh and blood 

Your eyes and skin reborn 

A fresh, clean new flower 

Growing quickly before your eyes 

You constantly are amazed 

By how wonderful they are 

There is nothing better 

Than loving your child fully 

And knowing they love you 

Just as much as you love them 

Marriage

 You two become one 

Your heart is undone 

With how amazing your new lover is 

You can't believe they want you 

You hope they will always be true 

And never leave you out in the cold 

Your heart opens up 

You feel like a newborn pup 

Every day with them is exciting 

You hug them as much as you can 

And say you are their biggest fan 

You promise to never leave them

You see so much love in their eyes 

You never like saying goodbyes 

And hope you will be one forever 

The Birth of Faith

 On Christmas night 

A pure and holy light 

Shone down from the sky 

The wise men traveled 

And soon unraveled 

The greatest story ever told 

A king was born in Bethlehem

The greatest gift was given to them 

Who would someday hear him preach 

He would heal the sick 

And maybe even decide to kick 

Satan away from this earth 

That is still to come 

But for now he has undone 

Most powers of the enemy 

Whoever uses his name 

And believes that he came 

Can do almost anything they believe

Never stop believing 

That you can start receiving 

Any power that you need 

You will finish the race 

Keep up your pace 

And never, ever give up  

Jesus' Sacrifice

 Away in a manger bed

Sweet baby Jesus was led 

To wonder what would happen someday 

When all the people would say 

Crucify him 

He wondered if promoting his name

Would be worth all that pain 

Why was he born 

Just so he could die? 

He hoped some people would thank him

For his great sacrifice 

He hoped some would choose him 

Over this terrible world 

Would his death be worth the pain? 

What was he going to gain? 

Lost souls and a throne by his father 

He decided it would be worth it 

And went back to sleep 

Redemption

 On that holy night 

The demons got a fright 

The night our Savior was born 

They felt so forlorn 

Their evil games must end 

For we can all depend 

On Jesus coming back someday 

As all the prophets once did say 

He will come down on the clouds 

And all us Christians will be proud 

That we walked the narrow road 

And let the Holy Spirit have abode

In our hearts forever 

We will never sever

Our love for the Trinity 

Who helps us to be 

All that we can be

Maybe someday we will see 

The evil people get saved 

When they realize that Jesus paved 

Their way to heaven 

But for now their hearts stay cold 

Unless more of us could be bold 

And tell them the way to salvation  

New Things

 New things always bring joy

When life is the same every day

The boredom can get hard

Change things up

Get a new blanket for your bed

Trade bathroom decorations

Do something new with those you love

Listen to new music

Join a new app like Tik Tok

Never get stuck in a rut

If there is something you always wanted to try

Maybe it's time to try it

Just do it

Keep your life exciting 

More Poems I Will Write

 children, marriage, prayer, shame, generous, road trips, 

being humble, Satan's attacks, giving,

 my best friend, church, my family of origin, things lost a long time ago, staying happy, food, salvation, carved bears, getting famous

Creative Flare

I loved cutting out Christmas trees

From green paper or glittery red paper

Arranging leaves I had bought into wreaths

Decorating them with glittery tinsel garlands

Making angels with a gold garland

And yellow paper

To remind me that angels are watching 

 Over my child as he plays

And another angel to greet us when we walk in the door

Making presents with pictures on them

To remind me that my baby and my man 

Are the best presents I could ever want

What a great Christmas this will be

With my house representing well

The wonderful holiday of Christmas

Christmas Tree

 Oh magnificent Christmas tree

You fill our hearts with glee

You shine so bright

And give all the demons a fright

A watchtower for our home

So the darkness will not roam

I feel more safe when you are lit up

You take the sadness away, lift me up

I wish you could be with us all year round

Maybe that is a tradition that I have found

No more putting the tree away

You should be here to stay

I love you my wonderful Christmas tree

You fill my heart with so much glee

Snow

 It glitters all over the land

Once you hold it in your hand

You can eat some of it

To quench your thirst

You can throw it at someone

But make sure you are first

Before you get hit in the face

With an ice hard snowball

You can run around and make footprints all over

Build an igloo or tunnels in your front yard

Make a snowman and pretend he is your friend

Or you can sled down a hill

While you squeal with delight

Admire the snow shinning on the hill

Or sparkling on the trees

Or falling from the sky 

In its dainty and peaceful way

It looks like a white blanket covering the world

You can pretend the snow made it all pure again

Like it was at the beginning

When God created the world

Before the evil and darkness and pain got in

The world becomes pure like an untouched virgin

Like a newborn beautiful infant

Never knowing evil or stress or heartache

There is nothing more lovely

Than a snow covered country side

It looks like heaven on earth

Jesus Our Savior

 The virgin birth was astounding 

To this day we are abounding 

In thanksgiving for the gift 

That has caused us all to lift 

Our hands in worship to the king 

Who cares about everything 

That we struggle with and the pain 

When life feels like a non stop rain 

The clouds above us feel so sad 

But thinking back makes us glad 

To the blessed night Jesus was born 

Now our houses we love to adorn 

With lights to tell the story 

Of how Jesus brought God glory 

His light pushed away the dark 

The minute the angels said ,"Hark 

Behold today is born a king"

Who will save you from everything

The sins you know and your fears

And all the nights you cried those tears 

Asking why God let you hurt 

Let Jesus dry your eyes

And hold you closely by his side 

He came to set you free 

And to restore your dignity 

Don't let this world kill your light 

Always put up a good fight 

In the end it will all be worth it 

When we are walking down the streets of gold

😁 

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The Nativity Setting

 Jesus looks at the people 

Who have gathered to welcome him 

To this crazy planet called earth 

The 3 wise men

The shepherds 

And his mother and step dad 

What was he thinking

When the 3 gifts were laid before him 

When everyone bowed down before him? 

Did he want to say

"Don't bow to me. I came to serve you."

He had the mind of God but the body of a baby

I can imagine that was difficult  

It is good he was honored 

And welcomed in a grand way 

Into our world 

Perhaps that made him want to stay 

And really complete his mission 

Sledding

 Speeding fast down iced over snowy hills 

Feeling the cold air whiz around my face 

Building a ramp and aiming for it with my sled

Soaring high in the air  

Rolling off my sled like a wild wolf 

Running up the hill quickly 

For my next exhilarating ride 

When I was younger 

It was a saucer sled ride 

The first time I felt fear 

Was when it turned me backwards 

I didn't know what I was about to sled toward 

Why did the sled spin me around? 

To bad I wasn't always fearless 

But I always ended up at the bottom 

Safe and sound 

Realizing I had no reason 

To have felt so afraid 

The Angels

They were so magnificent 

That they had to say "be not afraid"

They brought glad tidings

About our savior's birth

Can you imagine being there?

Oh to be one of those shepherds

How lucky they were 

The first to hear about Jesus' birth

Why were they the first to hear about it?

Because they were humble

They were in the right place at the right time

Quickly they must have ran

To see the newborn baby Jesus

The godman, the lamb of God, our savior

Could they tell he was special?

Did he look different than other babies?

They must have wanted to stay there forever

But back to their duties they went

And treasured in their mind forever

The night they saw the angels in the sky

Rudolf

 Why was Rudolf cast out

Just for having a red nose?

Because we shun anything different from us

We don't like what is not like ourselves

Fear of the unknown

Prejudice against things we don't understand 

Instead of seeing it as special

We turn up our nose

And say you are less than

Because you are not like me

Why do we all need to be the same?

Embrace the differences

Not everyone can be just like you

The Rascals of the World

We all annoyingly know who they are

Those people who get anything they want

The spoiled, overly lucky people of the world

The con artists that milk others for all their worth

The selfish ones who never give and always take

The ones on Santa's knotty list

Don't be like them

Be a hard worker, generous, willing to share

Try to have a lot so you can give to others

Never waste your life away

Be all that you can be

Do all that you can do

Shine God's light to the world any way you can

Change what you can 

Accept what you cannot

Believe in God's power to heal

And help him fix our planet earth

Love

Falling in love

Feeling the excitement

Of a new person 

To get close to

Having high hopes

This could be the one

That finally will last forever

Enjoying the giddy feeling

Wanting to always be with them

Giving hugs as much as is possible

Just to feel their body again

Wanting nothing but to be close to them

To look in their eyes 

And see their love shinning back at you

Christmas Decorations

Dainty little ornaments of angels

Bright red balls of joy

Long sparkly tinsel garlands

That flash brilliantly in the sun

Trees lit up that make us so happy

Nativity sets that remind us

Of the serious part of the holiday

Jesus being born into this world

Snowflakes all over the walls

Angel costumes that make us smile

What other holiday

Makes us as happy as Christmas?

Santa Clause

 Building presents for the kids

Spreading cheer all over the world

Dressing up in bright red

Smiling and laughing on his big sled

Oh to be like Santa

And love all people like he does

A servant to all, a rainbow of joy

Such a giving and wonderful guy 

Who we think can fly through the sky

Magical powers, a joyful life

Teaching the lesson

That giving brings us the greatest joy

Baby Jesus

On Christmas Jesus was so little, so small

Vulnerable in a humble horse stall

Waiting to grow up and set the world free

Not knowing what it is like to be

Human

Missing his home up in heaven

But wanting to warn us of the leaven

of the Pharisees

Born to rule the universe

After giving us many a verse

to memorize

First he had to die for our sin

So that we might win

in the end

Now he sits next to the Father

Feeling happy that he doesn't have to bother

With walking all over this crazy earth anymore

A Christmas Poem

There is so much cheer

This time of the year

Reindeer flying through the sky

While all the people look so fly 

Dressed up in Christmas clothes 

But why do some women look like hoes? 😂

Santa is telling us all to be good 

But all most care about is the food

Decorating our trees and singing a song 

While the nights are getting way to long 

 We bake cookies and shop for presents 

While God just wants us to recognize his presence 

Who matters most? Jesus or Santa 

They both do. Say cheers and drink a Fanta. 😁

 

Ornaments

 

I have always had a big love of Christmas ornaments. The main thing my mom and I would do every year for Christmas was put up the tree and decorate it together. It was so cool to get out all the old ornaments we had used for the past 20 years or so. There were some angels I made in school. There were picture frame ornaments. There were some from my grandma. There was one of an old couple that reminded me of my grandparents. 

I could spend hours looking at ornaments in person or online. It is cute to see how creative people can be in making them. This year I saw Christmas tree ornaments that were colored like a candy cane. I thought that was adorable. 

I didn't buy any ornaments this year yet. I just put tinsel garlands on our tree. We are still building our stash of Christmas things for our new family. I got a tree at least, and it makes me super happy every day. 

If I get ornaments this year they will be angle ones. I love anything associated with angels. I hope you have fun buying and hanging ornaments this year!

Santa Claus

How did the idea of Santa come about? As far as I know, Saint Nicholas was a real person. He was possibly an old, rich guy who was generous with the poor. Maybe he gave them lots of clothes and blankets and food. Hence, the idea of Santa was born. 

It is a nice idea. I have always felt the fixation on Santa steals away from the glory of the nativity story, but it is a nice story too. Why not think about some old guy in the north pole who likes to build toys for kids? 

For a long time I made what I called Jesus packets. I called my table where I made the packets Santa's workshop. I even got a red jacket for the winter so I would look like Santa while dropping them off all over in front of houses. I was trying to be generous like Santa. They had Bible tracts and some candy. I also made bracelets to put in them. 

We should all try to be like Santa in some way. Give whatever you can when you can, whether it's time or gifts or giving to charity. It is way better to give than to receive. 

Trying to Eat Healthy

 For breakfast now I mix hot chocolate with coffee. Both hurt my teeth but at least not my stomach. I have a cavity I'll need to get fixed at some point. 😪  I used to have a bagel or sliced cake in the morning. The bagel hurt my stomach a lot so I cut those out. 

I will now make sure I order carrots and grapes each week for groceries. If I eat those every day I'll be more proud of how I eat. I try to eat a salad every day and have a smoothie a few times each week. I drink lots of whole milk. That is my favorite snack. 😁  When I am extra hungry I make a quesadilla with cut up chicken and salsa or tomatoes. 

Are you happy with the way you eat? I hope you are. 😁

May God bless you! 

Online Life

 My name can now be found in 4 different platforms. So cool....I have about 300 videos on YouTube. That seems like an overstatement. Ok maybe it's 200 videos. I made tons of singing, dancing and preaching videos starting when I created this blog 10 years ago. Check those out. Some are fun and some are educational. Search Lisa Bedrick on YouTube to see them. I hadn't made any videos on there for 3 years. Then yesterday a video by Zauntee on Tik Tok inspired me to change the world again, so now I'm making YouTube videos again. Thank you Zauntee. :)

I am also on Twitter. I have been for about 20 years now. :) I love Twitter very much. I have considered it to be my online church ever since Covid started and churches were closed down. It has fed my soul more than I can even say. Thank you Elon Musk for keeping Twitter alive and letting free speech continue on there. I pray it will aways be a free platform, for Christians especially. 

I am now on Tik Tok also woot! My best friend is obsessed with Tik Tok so I figured I should try it too. Lots of people promote books that way so I will try to do that also. Maybe lots of my books will sell that way. How cool would that be! :)

I am also on Amazon. I have about 35 self-published books on there. Half of them I published after my first daughter was born. I suppose when you have a kid you are motivated more to make as much money as you can. The other half I published during my last pregnancy. I was hoping to sell a lot of my books and make a lot. Maybe via Tik Tok that will be possible for me. Pray for me that that could work out. To see my books search Lisa Bedrick books on Amazon. 

May God bless you all!

Scams

 If you have never watched a movie about con artists, watch Matchstick Men. That was one of Nicholas Cage's best movies. It will blow you away how it ends. Other good movies about good liars are The Hustle, Ferris Bueller's Day Off and The Step-Father.

Don't trust everybody, obviously. Most people just want either money or sex, or they want money so they can get sex. :) Every single person alive is mainly after those two things. If they are being nice to you, they probably want one of those two things. Most relationships are built off of those two things, if we are all honest with ourselves. Don't trust all people. Watch out for the scammers online. 

There are tons of fake profiles on Tik Tok, Twitter, Facebook, dating apps. Every website you go on, there are people who are saying they are someone they are not. They hope to get money out of whoever they can. Just ignore them. 

For those of you who are scamming people, McDonald's and Papa John's are always hiring. Try working at one of those places. If you are illegal, they might still be able to hire you. You all should at least try working at a real job. 

Buying Gifts

 For the past 14 years I have mostly just bought things for myself online. Now I'm finally going to order things for other people for presents. It is so much more fun thinking of what other people might like. It's fun to not be selfish for once. :)

I have bought myself so much random stuff over the last 14 years. The saddest thing is that I don't still have any of it, except a pink blanket that I have kept for like 7 years now. I have nothing that others have bought me, but that's probably because I didn't buy others anything. I heard a story of what heaven might be like. We are all seated at a table and we all can't feed ourselves, but we can feed others. That is what life is like I think. We can help others sometimes better than we can help ourselves. And then they can help us or bless us better than we can help ourselves. 

Now I am having fun looking for presents for my mom, mother and father in law, grandma in law and my man. If I would have done this in my first marriage, things probably would have gone a ton better. If you have in laws, buy them Christmas presents. :) 

I love the bear figurines for my man. There is a fishing one I am excited to get for him. Good job to whoever made those. For my mom I might get a pretty necklace and a glass rose. I have always wanted to get one of those for someone. I found some cool angel figurines for my man's family. Maybe for his step-dad I'll get a mug that says Best Grandpa Ever. Who wouldn't want a mug like that? I almost was going to get a mug for myself that says Best Mom Ever. I was thinking how funny that would be if I got that for myself. :) 

For my little guy it's easy to buy presents. There are some Christmas footie PJ's that I'll get him. He tends to kick his blanket off so those are nice to keep him cozy and warm. I also got a space heater for his room that has a built in thermostat. How cool is that! I have a heater in his room, but it gets too hot. The thermostat was a great idea whoever started putting that in space heaters. I run the central heater, but it isn't all that great. :( I might put plastic over his window to keep it warmer in there. 

I might send my big brother and best friend cards with cash in it. How much cash should I give them....Maybe $60. That will be fun. I found some cute nativity Christmas cards. We might take a family Christmas picture soon and I can print lots of copies of that for everyone woot! If it turns out good. We shall see lol. 

I hope you all have fun picking out Christmas presents too. Tis more blessed to give than to receive. I bet you have things around your house that others might like too. 

May God bless you as you bless others. :)

Collecting Things

 I have never cared about collecting anything but Slifka makes some super cute bear figurines. It is a store in Sitka, Alaska. I'm pretty sure I went to that store when I worked on a cruise ship up there. I saw the little carved bears and thought what a super fun hobby that would be. Maybe one day I'll try carving animals too. 😁

Look them up on Wal-Mart.com. Those will be the best Christmas presents for my man. I might get two each week.

It is sentimental for us because I have always called him my big strong bear. One night he gave me a sleeping pill and I kept calling him that. 😂 He looks like a big strong bear. 😍😀

I hope we will enjoy seeing and getting lots of the cute bear figurines. Maybe one day we will vacation in Alaska and see some black bears in person on hikes woot! 

The Pain of Divorce

 I put colored Christmas lights on my tree but that almost made me want to cry. So then I put blue lights on instead. Why did the colored lights make me sad? They reminded me of when my life was so much happier, when my mom and dad were still together. Life before my step dad came into our lives was a lot better. 😣

Things were better I think when my dad was still in our lives. I wish my mom would have not divorced him. I remember even as a kid I corrected her for divorcing my dad. I read to her every Bible verse on divorce that I found. She had good reasons to divorce him, like him molesting me when I was younger, but it was still really sad. 

For any of you that have divorced parents,  I know how hard that must have been for you. I hope you can heal from the sadness of that. God loves you. 😌 You might feel mad at God for letting your parents divorce. Maybe it was for the best. Time heals all wounds they say, but some still hurt. Pray about the pain you still feel. Let God bring you to a whole state again. Try to find joy again in any way you can. May God protect your friends and family in the future. May you have no more big losses ever again. 😀

Spiritual Gifts

 There are always many people involved when someone is being led to Jesus. This might be why God has many different spiritual gifts that he gives to believers. It might take a person with each different spiritual gift to save someone. 

My grandma had the gift of teaching for sure. She could talk for hours without anyone asking her questions. She always told stories of how God provided for her and sent her angels, people, to help with whatever she needed help with. She would always tell people they were her angel for the day. I always thought that was sweet. 

My grandpa had the gift of administration. He was the organizer for everyone. He was the silent leader at the top. He didn't say much, but he kept us all in order. He kept us all depending on God for everything and humble. He reminded us what we were supposed to believe. 

I was the encourager of the family. I helped keep things fun for all of us. I was always happy to cheer anyone up with a smile or a song or a joke. I suppose my gift was also service. I was the dish washer of the family. :)

I have had many teachers in my life who kept me close to God. My best friend Ashley should have been a real teacher. She always taught me how to be good and smart and on top of my game in life. Thanks Ashley. :)

My mom has always been a teacher for me. She likes to play devil's advocate. She always takes the other person's side and tries to get me to see things from their perspective. It always bothered me that she did that, but it was good overall. It helped me see the other side of things. 

My brother often liked to teach me too. He kind of has an arrogant nature to him. He thinks he knows a lot more than me even though he's only 4 years older. He likes to tell me what I should have done or what I should do. It's a bit annoying, but at least he has a vision for how my life should look. He means well. I'm sure he is partly speaking out of regret. He wishes he would have done things better, so he wants me to do things better. No one lives a cookie cutter life though, do we? We all mess things up for ourselves in some way. 

Who have your teachers been? I hope they have helped you a lot to grow wiser in life. Tell them all thank you. :)

May God bless you!

Happy Thanksgiving

 I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving. Remember to respect your family members. They made you who you are today. 

I have many happy memories of my grandpa having us go around the table and say what we were thankful for every Thanksgiving. I always liked sharing and hearing what everyone said. It used to be my mom, step-dad, grandparents, two uncles and cousins that would get together. That was years ago. Ever since I was 25, I've had much smaller Thanksgivings, usually with the family of whatever man I was with. It was always a bit awkward but fun too. It can be good to have new experiences and make new friends.

My step-dad used to always make a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner. He was the chef in our family and he probably wanted to make it all just like his mom did. It was always terrific. We also used to get take out for holidays from various places. He is the only one who really enjoyed cooking in my entire extended family. I don't know what the rest of them did for food. TV dinners perhaps? :) I mostly have always made sandwiches and tacos for myself. 

Thanksgiving is the one day each year where everyone really enjoys food. Most other days I think we just eat so we won't be grumpy, depending on what you were taught to think in regards to food. It is the day when everything tastes better. It is a day really to celebrate that we even have food. I think most of the time we take food for granted. We just expect that we will have it. 

The first Thanksgiving was caused by the Native Americans bringing the English settlers food so they wouldn't starve. Maybe the real Pocahontas had a hand in that generosity. The English had ran out of food. I don't know why they didn't just sail back home. They may have died on the journey if their food was gone. They learned to make friends with the Native Americans and got food in return. It is too bad that relationship didn't stay friendly. 

Remember to be thankful this season. Don't forget about being thankful once it's the Christmas season. You have more than you need, probably. Remember to always give God thanks for all you have. 

Humility

 I think the main reason God lets us endure trials is so that we will become more humble. Paul said that because he was literally taken to heaven, he was given a thorn in the flesh to keep him from becoming conceited. Most of us don't get to see heaven or have awesome visions. Maybe we just have extra spending money every week. Maybe we never have to go hungry. Maybe we have lots of people that love us. Maybe we have natural abilities that can make us arrogant. Then we start to get puffed up with pride. Watch out for that. God can tear down your life at any time. 

Regarding my ex, my brother said that I was fling too high. Meaning I never thought I could lose him and then I did. When you think something could never happen to you, often times then it does. Be prepared for everything. Never think you are beyond your life getting messed up due to your careless behavior. That is why boundaries are needed, not just with others but also with yourself. Stay under rigid self-control so you won't lose all that you have. Respect the desires of those in your life. It's not just all about you. 

I heard a great quote in a sermon once, "God sometimes cuts down a tree so it will grow back better." What has God done to cut you down? There is also a verse that says he hurts us in order for him to heal us. God doesn't always cause our life to go perfectly. Sometimes he needs to teach us a lesson about our own ego and the importance of remaining humble. God wants us to always be humble no matter what. Why? Because no one likes a prideful person. God doesn't either. Watch out for flying too high. Never assume bad things could never happen to you. Live in such a way with self-control that prevents any disasters in your life. Be careful with everything you do and say and always respect others. 

Presents

 I was thinking how seldom I have received presents from others. Only one guy that liked me gave me a present. It was Curve perfume on my 16th birthday. No bf nor my ex husband ever got me a present. That is quite odd really. No jewelry or clothes. Most were very tight with their money and complete jerks so that is probably why. 

My mom gave me money for my birthday every year. For Christmas my presents were usually a new Bible and a Christian CD. For my college graduation she got me an IPod. That was a great present!

My big brother gave me a 100 CD changer stereo one Christmas. That was my best present ever. He also has given me an IPod and a car. What a nice brother huh? :)

I guess most people I've known just didn't know what to get me or they were all too selfish. They had no idea what to get me because they only thought about themselves. 😪 Yes feel sorry for me. 

To be fair I have not give that many presents to others. The best one I gave was a cool leather jacket to my first serious bf. I got a Sooners blanket for my ex husband. For my man now I got shirts, shorts, slippers, an "You're an awesome dad" blanket and pants etc. for him. I have done the best in getting things for him. 😁 For my mom, I can only remember giving her a number one mom necklace one year for mother's day. I don't know why I haven't given her more presents, but that is quite sad of me. It is probably because she had a lot of things already. I gave my brother 2k one time. He bought a car with that. I felt very good about doing that. 

Try to actually get presents for those you love this Christmas. Why not even wrap them up? Have some fun with it. 😀 Be generous. It is more blessed to give then to receive. 

The Joy of Christmas

 Why is Christmas the happiest time of year? The word Christmas means more of Christ. That is the main reason I would think. We are all thinking about Jesus more yay! Here are other reasons...

The color red is the happiest color. More of us are drinking hot chocolate which boosts your mood. Mint M and M's. Lights all over. Buying new things for your house and giving everyone a change of scenery. The idea of giving things to others makes us all happy. The exercise of shopping. Thinking some old guy named Santa loves us. The cold weather is refreshing. 😁 All the Christmas movies we have watched for years that bring back lots of happy memories; Elf, Home Alone, It's a Wonderful Life, Fred Claus, 4 Christmases...

Going to see family. Warm fuzzy Pjs and warm slippers. Decorating the tree. The happiest music ever made is Christmas music. 

What other joyful things about Christmas can you think of? 

Jingle All the Way

 This is such a well done movie. The themes are a father neglecting his son for work and then going shopping. The idea I think is that he is always making money or spending it. He neglects his wife too, and another man tries to steal her away. 

No dad is perfect. No husband is perfect. It is a miracle that any family stays together in our modern world. All you can do is cut each other some slack. Maybe your mate doesn't behave perfectly, but neither do you. "Judge not lest you be judged" right? 

The majority of the movie is the madness over the dad trying to find a sold out toy. He goes everywhere he can, and competes with another dad in crazy ways to get the toy. In the end the kid gives the toy away to the other dad. He says, "Why do I need the toy when I have the real thing at home?" Isn't that life. We think all these other things will make us happy. What we have at home already is all that we really need. But we buy and buy and search endlessly for that next thing that we crave. It is a never ending hunger that we think we need to satisfy. What object will make me happy next? 

May we all be happier with what we already have this holiday season. May we see that the people in our family are the best presents we could ever receive. May the greed we may feel fade away. May we just relax and enjoy the things we have. May we learn to be content and stop always searching and getting more and hungering for more. May we learn to be fully satisfied with less.  

Getting in Shape

 It is hard to get in shape in the winter when it's too cold to get outside and exercise. Here are my tips for you, only eat two meals a day. Cutting out breakfast helps. I'm just having coffee mixed with milk for breakfast now. I order banana bread with my groceries now. That is a healthier snack than a whole bagel. 

There are videos on youtube called Just Walk. 👏 They are fun to use for getting exercise when the weather is lame. 

Try drinking hot chocolate only when hungry. Our bodies digest anything liquid much easier and faster then solid food. 

Go to a gym if you can. But always wash your hands and change clothes after. Germs are everywhere at gyms! 😬

May God give you peace about the weight that you are while you try to get in shape. God loves you no matter what size you are. 😀

Decorating

 I am progressively decorating my entire house with Christmas things. So awesome! We are on a budget, as most are, so it is a slow and steady process. :) I put candy canes out front. I thought they were solar powered but no they needed an outlet. We have no outlet out front. I know, cry me a river. 

I have a red nativity shower curtain coming in 2 weeks. Woot! I'll get red towels to match that. Look it up on Walmart.com. It's so cute! Just search Nativity shower curtains. 

I made my living room mostly red. My baby boy threw up on my teal rug yesterday. I was sad about it at first. But this morning I told him thank you, because it clashed with all my Christmas decorations anyways. So I put a red rug in the living room. 

I got our tree up in the dinning room a few weeks ago. I made a nativity scene on the wall. It looks pretty cool. I probably will leave the bedrooms as they are. Not every room has to have Christmas in it. :)

Yay for Christmas decorating! 

Yesterday I tried putting other candy canes in our backyard. It took a while to get the stakes in and connect the electrical cords. I plugged them into the outlet we have back there. But then I was hosing off the rug that got thrown up on and it killed the outlet. Very sad. :( No light up candy canes in the backyard. Oh well....

I probably am done with decorating. Well next is our tree in the backyard. I plan to totally cover it with tinsel garlands. Maybe red around the trunk and silver and gold ones on the branches. It will look so awesome!

I hope you all are enjoying your time of decorating for Christmas. God bless!

Jesus' Birth

 Why did God choose to send his son to be born as a baby in our world? It was such a vulnerable thing to do. God must have trusted Mary a lot to put her in charge of his only son. 

I think mainly God did that so we could feel that Jesus understands us. He lived the life we live from beginning to end. His feet probably got tired from walking all over the place. His mind suffered what we call mental health from dealing with the crazy people of this planet. He got thirsty and hungry and probably had headaches. He may have dealt with heartbreak. We all know Mary Magdelene was hard after him. Poor Jesus. He lived our life so he could empathize with us now. The Bible says that he is an intercessor for us to God the Father. Since he has felt everything we have felt, he knows how we feel. The father may not be as sympathetic to our pains since he never felt them, but Jesus knows how hard life can be.

The next time you think that God has no idea what you are going through, remember that Jesus probably does. May God bless you and minimize your pain. :)

Love Yourself

 "There is a difference between loving yourself and being in love with yourself." 

I think all the humble people in the world are scared to even respect themselves in a healthy way. 😟 Perhaps they think it will escalate into being in love with themselves. You can see yourself as attractive without being egotistical. Have a balanced view of yourself. 

Most of us are at least a bit attractive but not the hottest person in the world. We all have good features. Try to focus on the good rather than the bad. 

Lately I have felt down on myself about neck rolls I seem to have gotten from my last pregnancy. It kind of bothers me. But I still have pretty eyes. Yay 😁😂 We all get some good things but not all the good things. I can sing mostly good, but I probably wouldn't make a dancing video. 😣

Try to notice the positive things about yourself instead of the bad. But if you are in love with yourself, maybe you should realize you are not perfect. 😏

Bernie

 This is the creepiest movie you will ever see, if you watch it. It reminded me of the book Crime and Punishment that we read in school. That was the creepiest book ever. In both a man kills an old woman. Then the guilt over the murder eats them alive. Bernie keeps hallucinating thinking he sees the old lady he killed. I can imagine the guilt would be crazy when a person kills someone else.

The craziest thing is that Bernie was pretty much the worship leader in his church. It reminded me of my dad. He was just a good actor. He looked like a good man, but he wasn't in actuality. It was all just a mask. 

So many people are good at pretending that they are Christian. They put on a great show but it's all talk and no action. They know how to play the game. Beware of such people. 

How to be a Good Spouse

 Show your spouse respect and love always, even if you think they don't deserve it. 

Let them sleep when they want to. Let them eat when they want to. The best thing in relationships is giving each other freedom to do whatever they want to do. No one likes being controlled. The more you can let them feel free, the better. 

If you want your sleep to be long and peaceful, let them have a long and peaceful sleep too. If you want them to not abuse you for what you eat, be nice to them in what they want to eat. 

Hug every day. Offer to give a massage every other day. 😁 Get it on at least 2 times a week. 🎉

Don't spend too much money. We all deserve a reward for work we do, but don't overdo it. Stick to a budget of what you both will spend each week. 

Don't be on your phone around them. That's rude. Give them your full attention. 😌

Feed them every day at least one meal. Some women like to cook for their man. Some guys prefer to go out and get fast food or some form of take out instead. As long as you eat a meal together every day, that is very good so you can talk. The best time to talk is while eating with your mate. 

Watch funny movies together. The best thing about life to enjoy is funny movies. 

Watch music videos together. Send them a love song every few days, because that is a cute thing to do. 

Text them to encourage them when they are at work. Tell them good job for working so hard and I love you. It can feel repetitive, but no one gets tired of being encouraged, even if it's the same words on repeat. 😁

Ask them how their family is doing and about their co-workers. 

Talk about things you might buy with them, especially if it's their money from working hard. 😀

Men, tell your woman good job for all she does. If you don't say it, show it in things you do for her, like getting her yummy food. Either she is taking care of your kids, or at least keeping your house clean, hopefully. Show her a thank you somehow. 

Make sure you show the other person you love them every day. Don't fake it. We can all tell when someone really loves us. If you don't really love them, get saved by Jesus or see a marriage counselor. Check out my previous blog on how to be saved. May God bless you all in your relationships!

I wrote a book on marriage titled "Imagine a Perfect Marriage." Go check it out on Amazon. Search Lisa Bedrick books. 😁

May God bless you!

How to Get Saved

 So many people have no idea how to find God and how to get to heaven. Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the father except by me." Was that the truth? Is that the only way to get to heaven and know God? I think occasionally God makes exceptions. Not just Christians will be in heaven, but generally God wants people to believe in Jesus. You need to believe that Jesus died, rose again and paid the penalty for your sins. First you have to admit that you have sinned and that you need to be saved from your sins. Accept Jesus' free gift of paying for your sins when he died on the cross. Then ask the Holy Spirit to come be your best friend. That is essentially all it takes to know God. How you live after that matters. You can't just think praying to receive Jesus is all you have to do. James said, "Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do." Jesus said, "If you love me, you will keep my commandments." Paul said, "Walk in a manner worthy of your calling." Shine God's light to the world in any way you can, anytime you can. At the end of your life, if you are still serving God and treating others well, you can mostly know you are saved. It is all about how you finish your life, not just how you begin. 

Parenting

 It is hard to raise intelligent human beings. It's hard enough to cover the basics of keeping your kids warm enough and fed and clean. Then you add in training them for school. I had no idea anyone would care about the intelligence of a 2 year old, but my mom did. This is one of the hardest events of my past family. My mom started saying when my daughter was 2 that she needed to go to speech therapy to learn to talk better. What I am thinking now is, why couldn't she learn how to do speech therapy with her? It's like my entire life my mom would say I needed to go to counseling. Why couldn't she counsel me? That is usually what families do. They counsel each other instead of saying, "Go see a professional." The reason she said that a lot was because my dad molested me, and she didn't know how to handle me after that. 😪

So my ex and his mom got concerned about my oldest daughter. My mom made them worry that my oldest girl was behind. She was only 2. My goodness. The world these days is harder I would say. Why can't we just let kids be kids? Let them just have fun until school starts. 

I will say I already knew she might end up a little slow. My ex, her dad, was very much like Forest Gump. 😣 I think that is a common thing in our modern world. Not everyone is a genius. Oh well. I don't know what the reason for that is. Vaccines maybe? Vaccines are evil. 😟

So when my daughter was around 3, I finally took her to a speech therapist. The lady made me feel like I was not a good mom, so that was a sad experience. She said my daughter should be putting her own clothes on. I was still doing that for her. I didn't see that as a big deal, but these days everything is a big deal with kids. Serenity's comprehension was spot on. She just didn't try talking a whole lot. It might be because my mom tried to correct her any time she said anything. Very sad. I have heard that Serenity has struggled in school. I hope she will do better in the future. But why is school considered so incredibly important for girls? They probably will just have kids someday. 😌

In the hospital 6 months ago, CPS got involved with us and our new baby. God keeps telling me it was mainly a racist issue. Our city is mostly Mexican. We were the only white family in the hospital at that time. I think they just wanted to pick on the white people. I turned to my current man and his mom and said, "Are you still glad you had a kid?" 😁 It seems like everyone feels a right to attack you when you have kids. It's not easy. It can feel like a battle. You always get advice on what you need to be doing, and it can be very discouraging. Maybe some moms don't care, but I was a straight A student. I aim to please. I want to be on top of everything that I can be. To think I wasn't doing a perfect job with my two daughters, that was too much for me. 

So all that was pretty much why I gave them up to my former mother in law. I guess I was like, "Ok here maybe you can do a better job. Everyone seems to think I am not doing it perfectly, so maybe you can." But no mom is perfect. No person is perfect. 

To all the fellow moms out there, take a break and remember to enjoy life. Go watch the movie The Hustle. That will make you happier and remind you to have some fun. And then go to a good Bible teaching church. 😇