I am currently in Destin, Florida. It is SO cool that I finally made it here. My ex husband and I were going to come here 3 years ago but we didn't. The drive out was Amazing. I was Very impressed by Pensacola, Florida. It reminded me of SoCal a lot. I wouldn't mind living there permanently. It is ironic because one of my favorite movies, Groundhog Day, starts out in that city. Tomorrow I shall go to Princess Beach like 5 minutes from my hotel. And I need to do laundry and get a car wash. As soon as I got here I unpacked my whole car. It was nice to get my clothes organized finally.
I am waiting for my ex husband to come join me here. If he wants to bring his cat, that would be ok. That cat caused a lot of fights for us, but overall I do love his cat. I almost consider him a furry son just like Eric does. He and I weren't legally married but he always called me his wife. :) My plan when driving here was that I might just go ahead and get an apartment on my own, but they are a bit pricey here, which makes sense. This area is Amazing. I might rent a room here via Craigslist. But you never know what the people you might live with will be like. They could go in your room at night or steal from you. I will probably just stay in hotels around here.
I feel God is telling me to stay at this hotel for 3 nights and then I'll probably stay at the Holiday Inn here for 7 nights. I have no idea what to do after that, but buying a house in this area would be super amazing. Eric was talking about wanting to buy a house in Vegas, but I really don't like Vegas. This area would be perfect. I think if he comes here, hopefully tomorrow, he will see that too. :)
Eric is mad at me right now for an indiscretion, meaning I cheated. But what person hasn't cheated on their mate in some way, shape of form? Every time someone watches porn that is pretty much cheating. Not that I should minimize what I did, but we all like to consider other options sometimes.
I really hope he will join me here. It would be much more fun with him. I remember the times we went swimming together last summer. Those were the happiest times of my life.
I did cheat on him 5 days ago, but the next morning I felt an immense feeling of guilt. I had never felt so guilty and bad in my life. I didn't necessarily even want to cheat on him. I had to drink a bit to feel at ease about it. He was gone because he had gotten in a fight with a room mate that was renting a room in our house. This other guy was trying to steal money out of Eric's car. The fight got so crazy that I told Eric to move out that day. I knew Rich had no where else to go. I knew Eric had 2 condos that his mom owned that he could stay at, so I asked him to go there. I didn't know what else to do. I didn't want them to end up stabbing each other or one of them to end up in jail. I think partly, the two of them were fighting over me. :(
Eric, God says, "Please forgive Lisa. She can't help it that she is needy and desperate and has to always have a man in her life. She promises that she will be faithful to you forever if you will come hang out with her in Destin and help her get a house. She helped you for the past year right? It's payback time."
I love you Eric! Please come to Destin. For any of ya'll reading this, pray that Eric will come be with me. Overall I think we deserve each other and we will always make each other happy.
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