Boys

 I miss the sushi Zach used to bring me. I miss seeing him come ask me what food I wanted for that day every day for 2.5 years. 

I miss hearing Ben's silly voices. I miss walking trails with him and our two daughters. 

I am excited about my new work manager. He is cute! Probably married but I'll still get to see him at work. :) I felt a powerful energy from him that I had never felt in my life. Like he is a god or something.  He has blonde hair and blue eyes. Maybe he is a god or an angel. :) 

I miss my ex cooking for me. I miss looking at his muscular body. I kind of miss his dog. Just kind of lol. I miss the walk to work by his house. It was a fun walk. 

If I ever left here I would miss my bed here and my happy, safe room. 

I miss CA. The beauty and the fun of all the things out there. The malls, the beach, seeing beautiful people everywhere.  

I miss my backyard in Texas. Watching my kittens climb the tree and wrestle in the grass. I miss seeing my son play with toys outside. I miss seeing him smile and laugh. 

My dream is that Zach's mom will generously give him 100k. Then he can pick me up and we can set up a nice place in Florida for me, him and our son. Pray that will happen for us soon.