3 Weeks

 The last 3 weeks have been heaven. I got to have my sweet house mate cook lunch for me almost every day. I got plenty of sleep. This house is peaceful and quiet. I had some great sex. I only worked 2 days. That was bittersweet. Part of me wanted to work more but oh well. My bed is the most special bed I've ever had. My mom came through every Friday on helping me with my rent. The food was always good and plentiful. It pays to stay with a retired guy. Who I love very much. :)

I do kind of miss going out more though. We just go to Walmart at times together which is still fun. I turned him down on a pizza date. How rude of me. :( 

I have been a bit bitter that he won't give me rides to work or interviews. But then I remember I always walked to school and I was fine. It's been 19 years since I walked all over outside. So funny. I really wanted to get a job and take care of him but not many places are hiring. Pray for us. Maybe I'll migrate and find work and a room to rent somewhere else. 

Tips to Not Get Banned

 I got kicked out of a few places recently. Here are tips to not get kicked out of a place. Don't yell ever. That always scares people away. Don't cook food in bulk. Don't order groceries alone. If you have a mate, order them together or get them together.  Decide as a team what to spend money on. Don't move anything. If people have things in a spot just leave them there. Give up wanting control over their stuff. Clean but not too much. Try to stay in your own room as much as possible or get two jobs. "Stay in your neighbors house too long and he will hate you." It's a verse in Proverbs. I recommend couples have their own room mainly due to snoring. It can be nice to cuddle though. "Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

Hug every day to remember you still love each other. Cook together. Watch movies together. Don't ever demand sex or if anyone does just the guy can. Avoid talking to their family. Don't talk about making a baby. If it happens then it is God's will. Be patient with each other in finding a job. They are not always easy to get. 

Good luck and may God bless all your relationships.  Be careful and sweet always. And stay patient. 

"Love bears all things and believes all things. Love never fails." 

Anal Sex

 If a woman says no she means no. I have heard that my whole life. In regards to anal most women dont like it. We would prefer normal sex. If a man keeps asking over and over to do anal it gets annoying. Of course the lady can just keep saying no. But men, don't ask. Our pain matters more than your pleasure. Supposedly it feels better for the guy since it's tighter. The more sex the more fighting I always say right? It tends to go that route because people get greedy. They want more organisms or a bigger one. We have all had thousands of organisms. Yes they are nice but other things are important too. Other things matter more like having good food and a good friendship. Go work and get money. Don't focus so much on sex. It is not a necessity. It is fun for sure. But we can all survive without it. 

Come Here, Go Away

 That was a book title. Why do we do this? We want some connection but relationships are scary. People hurt us all the time. So we try to hide. Is it good to hide? Maybe it's better than letting someone hurt you over and over. Try to walk across the bridge more often. It takes courage but you can do it. :)

Dream

 "Write the vision and make it plain." What is your vision for your future. I applied for about 10 jobs recently but none wanted me. I am taking that as a sign I'm supposed to just make babies again. :)

I miss being a mom. I miss always having a thing to do. Writing is similar.  There is always more to say. A mom and a writer never stop working. 

Crazy Life

 Since I decided to be a stay at home mom 5 years ago I let so many things slip. My glasses are not up to prescription and my bank account closed. At some point I need new glasses,  a new bank account,  maybe a new car. I just got a new phone. I am working on getting a new job and a new bf. May God help me. I have a house mate currently but he complains a lot so lately I avoid him and hide in my room. His basement floods so there is mold. His dog poops and pees all over, except in my room. Thank the Lord Jesus. 

It is hard to be friends with a negative person. Pray for me yall that I'll find a nice guy soon who will help me get things I need. Ah life is so complex. :(

Anger is Dangerous

 I wrote a book with that title. Search Lisa Bedrick books on Amazon to see all my 35 books. When do you get angry? When you expect and don't get. Stop expecting.  Most people will never give you much at all. Accept it. Go your own way. Provide for yourself. If you can. Let people off the hook. You will never get everything you want. Learn to want less. It is good to dream but rarely do we get our dreams. We need to step back and think before rushing in. Fools rush in right? "Those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength."