Baby Drama

 "I will not let him control me. He is just a baby. I will not do everything he wants. I am not his slave." 

Anyone who has watched a baby has probably had those thoughts. Maybe God makes babies so demanding to punish us moms for having sex. 😔 The behavior of a baby can feel like punishment for something. If you don't do whatever it wants, the baby cries until it throws up all over. Why can't the baby just decide to be more happy? Ok it's teeth are coming in. I guess that hurts a lot. But why get mad at me baby? I am not causing your teeth pain. 

Dear God please help my boy to have less teething pain. May he drink when he is hungry and sleep when he is tired. May we be kind toward each other always. Help me to be more understanding of his pain. In Jesus' name Amen. 

All I Want

 All I want is here 

Just my son and my man to be near 

With God there is nothing to fear 

I hope to stay in this gear 

It has been a very happy year 

I know I get so ungrateful and rude

I need to change my attitude 

Hopefully things will be good 

I love my life as it is now 

Peace

 Things are better now. I finally decided no more children is best. My one son is plenty of fun for me. I don't know why more than one kid is ever a good idea. For 39 years I have felt like oil and water with my big brother. What is the point of siblings when they mainly just pick on you and stress you out? 

I am content with my life as it is and don't want anything to change. The ants in the backyard are a pain, but things happen. 

I love my life. I don't want anything more or different. I don't care if my man makes more money. "The love of money is the root of all evil." Our basic needs are met, and that is all that should matter. 

Someday we hope to live in CA. Maybe we can find an RV park by a beach and live out there forever. For now I am ok with our home and current life. I hope you all are content with your life too. God bless!

Change Needed

 For my lover:

You need to open a window every time you poop. 

If you make a mess in the kitchen, clean it up. 

You should never reject me for sex, because that is mean. 

You need to be willing to watch our son James for an hour every day. 

Only wear clean clothes at home. Wash your hands every morning. 

You need to smoke less so you snore less loudly. 

You need to lose weight so that I am more attracted to you. 

You need to brush your teeth in the morning and shave your face every day. 

You need to take a bath here in your bathroom at night. 

If you can agree to do all that I will stay with you as long as you want me to. And I will never ask you to make tons of money in the oilfield ever again. 

What I Want

 I want to live in my nice home forever.

I want my boy to stay healthy and happy. 

I want people I know to be careful with money.

I want a new car someday.

I want any family drama to be over.

I want my man to only love me. 

I want to keep my son safe always.

I want to save lost people.

I want to lose weight.

I want my cat to have healthy kittens.

I want my house and yard to stay clean. 

Growing Up

 It isn't easy to grow up

There is less to fill up your cup

People can be so cold and mean 

You learn how to survive and get lean 

You fight and struggle but hang on 

Only God can you lean upon

Things fall apart and you cry 

But then new life comes by

You live and learn and move on 

You get used to each new dawn  

A new normal is what you will see 

Hopefully it gives you much glee

Ingratitude

 I think my house is too old 

I think my car should be sold 

My man is too young 

Many sad songs I've sung 

I don't value my baby

My life is quite gravy 

Why do I pout?

When I really should shout 

About all the good things I have 

I keep wanting to leave 

But to my man I should cleave 

May God help me be at peace 

Spirits

 Evil spirits keep messing with me

I don't know how to be

A normal person when they say

That my man could be gay

I don't know what message to believe

I just want to make myself free 

There is so much talking in my mind

It really had me in a bind

May God keep me clean today

Only good things I want to say

I just want to have fun and play 

With my family and relax