God KNOWS the plans he has for you, plans to prosper you, NOT to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future. :) He is for you, not against you. And he will prosper you all the days of your life, IF you will live life his way. ;)
The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
and provide for those who grieve in the world—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor. :)
Receive it and believe it! And be FILLED with God's Holy Spirit! :)
Thursday, March 26, 2020
Wake Up
Here is my version of a great line from Katy Perry's song Roar, "You held us down but we will get up. Get ready 'cause we have had enough. We see it all. We see it now. We got the eye of the tiger, we're fighters. Dancing through the fire. 'Cause we are all champions. And you're gonna hear us roar. Louder, louder than a lion. You're gonna heart us roar."
The song Roar by Katy Perry was a song of her waking up to how lovers try to hold us down and control us. I heard a great quote that until women learn to be free they will always have to live under the thumb of a man. And that can be very true, depending on the man. Some men are more controlling then others, of course. "Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom." And where the spirit of Satan is, there is control.
Some men control women. Some women control men. But now, there is the issue of The Elite trying to control all of us.
Maybe it's time for us to wake up?
It you want to wake up a bit to the madness watch Katy Perry's music video "Chained to the Rythym." She was raised in a Pentecostal church and I can tell she has a prophetic gift. To bad she has chosen to be on the dark side for so long. But because she has been, she has seen it all, and so we can know she knows what she's talking about.
This quote from that song is very applicable to now, or it can be, "Turn it up, keep it on repeat. We are stumblin' around like a wasted ZOMBIE. Yeah, we THINK we're free. Drink this one's on me. Ay, up in your high place, liars. Time is ticking for the empire. The truth they feed is feeble. The greed over the people. They stumblin' and fumblin.' They woke up, they woke up the lions."
Are you going to be a lion going forward? Or just a mouse? Are you going to be easily controlled and be an easy puppet? Or are you going to say enough is enough! How long will you all let The Elite control you?
It's time to wake up people. Can't you see what they are trying to do?
Thank you God for giving us all WISDOM beyond measure. Thank you for opening our eyes so we can see through the lies. Thank you God for your grace to get us through all this.
Bill Gates and The Elite
Apparently Bill Gates is behind All of this, the Coronavirus, the shutting down of our entire nation. He, The Elite, Canada and China formulated this virus as a means to cause massive worldwide depopulation and world domination. The next step is they are going to try to make everyone get a microchip and a vaccine for the Coronavirus. I don't know how they are going to spin it to make people actually willingly take this microchip. Most people already see that coming that the mark of the beast will be a microchip. I doubt they will get many people to actually submit to it. I feel like God is saying it's not going to work. So haha to you Bill Gates and all your friends. :) Ha. Ha.
I just made a good live video on Twitter about all this. All ya'll should look me up and watch it, Lisa Grace Davis. I was thinking that these Elite people need to come up with a different hobby other then inventing some new virus and scaring all of the world into submission. They are just playing a game. They are seeing how much influence they can have over people. They love that they have seemingly unlimited money and power and right now this is just a test to see how many people will submit to them. And sadly just about everyone is. Except McDonald's. Good job McDonalds for staying open, at least for drive thru woot! :)
But this is a test. This is only a test. They are seeing how much control they can have over the world with their silly "facts" that they post on Google news and our Twitter and Facebook newsfeeds. And sadly it's working for the most part. Now millions of people are loosing their jobs. Possibly about half of America will be out of work by the end of this Coronavirus FAKE scare. I hope they are having fun. But I also don't hope for that.
Thank you God that you will bring conviction to these people! Thank you that their silly games will END! God thank you that you will remove their hearts of stone and give them hearts of flesh so they can actually FEEL what they are doing to the people. Thank you that they will actually start to CARE. Thank you that their blind eyes will be opened and that they will SEE that this is WRONG. Thank you that they will stop torturing the world with fear and their newly invented viruses. God send us a savior! Send more people to make people wake up and see the TRUTH! God give us eyes to SEE and ears to HEAR YOU! God wake people up to the lies and the games. And convict them God. Make them drop to their knees and repent of what they are doing! Help them to see that this isn't funny. It's time for their game to be over. God save them!
I just made a good live video on Twitter about all this. All ya'll should look me up and watch it, Lisa Grace Davis. I was thinking that these Elite people need to come up with a different hobby other then inventing some new virus and scaring all of the world into submission. They are just playing a game. They are seeing how much influence they can have over people. They love that they have seemingly unlimited money and power and right now this is just a test to see how many people will submit to them. And sadly just about everyone is. Except McDonald's. Good job McDonalds for staying open, at least for drive thru woot! :)
But this is a test. This is only a test. They are seeing how much control they can have over the world with their silly "facts" that they post on Google news and our Twitter and Facebook newsfeeds. And sadly it's working for the most part. Now millions of people are loosing their jobs. Possibly about half of America will be out of work by the end of this Coronavirus FAKE scare. I hope they are having fun. But I also don't hope for that.
Thank you God that you will bring conviction to these people! Thank you that their silly games will END! God thank you that you will remove their hearts of stone and give them hearts of flesh so they can actually FEEL what they are doing to the people. Thank you that they will actually start to CARE. Thank you that their blind eyes will be opened and that they will SEE that this is WRONG. Thank you that they will stop torturing the world with fear and their newly invented viruses. God send us a savior! Send more people to make people wake up and see the TRUTH! God give us eyes to SEE and ears to HEAR YOU! God wake people up to the lies and the games. And convict them God. Make them drop to their knees and repent of what they are doing! Help them to see that this isn't funny. It's time for their game to be over. God save them!
Wednesday, March 25, 2020
Suffer Well
As long as you maintain the right perspective on your suffering, that it can and will make you a better person, you will suffer well. :)
Meditate on these verses today:
We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
Do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.
Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
No temptation (to suicide) has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
We Will Not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.
Now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Amen! May God bless you all!
Meditate on these verses today:
We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
Do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.
Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
No temptation (to suicide) has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
We Will Not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.
Now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Amen! May God bless you all!
Have Faith
MARINATE your mind and heart in these verses today. :)
Whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.
Faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.
Without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
And Jesus answered them, “Have faith in God. Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
Nothing will be impossible with God.
For we walk by faith, not by sight.
That your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.
All things are possible for one who believes.
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.
In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one.
By faith Noah, being warned by God concerning events as yet unseen, in reverent fear constructed an ark for the saving of his household. By this he condemned the world and became an heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.
Truly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what has been done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ it will happen.
Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.” And immediately he recovered his sight and followed him on the way.
Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong.
If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
Faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.
The Coronavirus
I think this Coronavirus scare could set off a world wide revival. I am hoping it will at least. We grow closer to God when we are scared and life feels unstable. Maybe that's why God is letting this happen to all of us.
I legitimately know I had the Coronavirus because my boyfriend's ex wife had a meeting with a collegue from Iran, who passed it on to her. She then gave it to her son, who gave it to me. But I survived. I was sick for about 12 days but I am finally better now praise God! I think I'll have a shirt made that says "I survived the Coronavirus woot!" :)
But also let me take some of the stigma away from this virus. It wasn't the end of the world. It felt like a cold and a flu at the same time. All of us who had it threw up green stuff, which was interesting. But overall it felt just like having strep throat. I did feel with the coughing that I might cough up parts of the inside of my throat. I thought maybe my throat would start bleeding. But I survived. I didn't die. The key is just to sleep a lot and drink lots of water, especially when the fevers come. But it wasn't like the kind of flu where you can't even stomach water. At least with this virus your body lets you eat and drink normally, so that was nice. :)
I suppose the big paranoia over it is just how long it lasts. It did last about 12 days for me where I had a fever off and on for all 12 days and a bad cough for those 12 days, but I am totally healed now, thank you God! Sorrow may last for the night but joy comes in the morning! I think it helped that I finally got out in the sun for a bit yesterday. That is the issue with quarantining people is we all need to remember to still get out in the sun. Just sit outside in your backyard if that's all you can do, but get that sun on your skin. It's very healing. :)
And keep praying for God to heal you, even if your prayers don't seem to be working. Keep praying. :)
I legitimately know I had the Coronavirus because my boyfriend's ex wife had a meeting with a collegue from Iran, who passed it on to her. She then gave it to her son, who gave it to me. But I survived. I was sick for about 12 days but I am finally better now praise God! I think I'll have a shirt made that says "I survived the Coronavirus woot!" :)
But also let me take some of the stigma away from this virus. It wasn't the end of the world. It felt like a cold and a flu at the same time. All of us who had it threw up green stuff, which was interesting. But overall it felt just like having strep throat. I did feel with the coughing that I might cough up parts of the inside of my throat. I thought maybe my throat would start bleeding. But I survived. I didn't die. The key is just to sleep a lot and drink lots of water, especially when the fevers come. But it wasn't like the kind of flu where you can't even stomach water. At least with this virus your body lets you eat and drink normally, so that was nice. :)
I suppose the big paranoia over it is just how long it lasts. It did last about 12 days for me where I had a fever off and on for all 12 days and a bad cough for those 12 days, but I am totally healed now, thank you God! Sorrow may last for the night but joy comes in the morning! I think it helped that I finally got out in the sun for a bit yesterday. That is the issue with quarantining people is we all need to remember to still get out in the sun. Just sit outside in your backyard if that's all you can do, but get that sun on your skin. It's very healing. :)
And keep praying for God to heal you, even if your prayers don't seem to be working. Keep praying. :)
Sunday, March 22, 2020
Life is Sad
There are a lot of things I could be sad about right now. That I haven't seen my daughters in person for 8 months. That my dad is in prison for 3 more years and my mom just attempted suicide. That my step dad might be a child molester. That my ex husband got Schizophrenia for no reason and we couldn't stay married. That my ex boyfriend is in jail, and I never thought in a million years he would end up in there. That my current boyfriend is really sick. That my room mates in my house like to smoke pot too much and have a really horrible car that barely runs. And now that all of America seems to be getting shut down because of a virus outbreak. Life is just full of sad things. I hope Jesus does come back soon!
But here's why I don't lay in bed all day from depression, because the show must go on. There are still people that need to be saved and I know God might use me to help save many. Just because others decided to tap out of the race of life, I never will. I'll always keep running, no matter what happens to me or those around me.
This poem more then anything else has encouraged me to never give up on life. :)
Mother to Son by Langston Hughes
Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kind of hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
Amen!
But here's why I don't lay in bed all day from depression, because the show must go on. There are still people that need to be saved and I know God might use me to help save many. Just because others decided to tap out of the race of life, I never will. I'll always keep running, no matter what happens to me or those around me.
This poem more then anything else has encouraged me to never give up on life. :)
Mother to Son by Langston Hughes
Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kind of hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
Amen!
Saturday, March 21, 2020
Good and Bad
Don't paint any part of your history all black. God let you have the times you had in your past for a reason. God brought people into your life for a reason. Most memories are a mix of good and bad things. Smile at the good things and learn from the bad things. :)
Satan is at Work
Satan always tries to put negativity into our mind. He tries to make us hate anyone and everything. Because he hates everyone and everything. Whenever you are filled with hatred for others, you are filled with Satan.
"How can you say you love God who you do not see if you hate your brother who you do see?" Satan tries to make us judge others too harshly. This judging comes from pride, but never forget "God opposes the proud." We are quick to judge others because then we forget about our own sins for a bit. We like to throw stones at others before they can throw stones at us. It's so easy for people to think they are better then others and to look down on others. It is Satan alone that inspires us to do this. When we look in the mirror for a good long while, spiritually, we ALL realize that all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
I was guilty of this extreme pride for a long time in judging homosexuals, but just because someone sins differently then you, that doesn't give you any right to despise them. Taylor Swift said it very well in her famous song "Calm Down." She said, "I've learned a lesson that stressin' and obsessin' 'bout somebody else is no fun...You just need to take a seat and then try to restore the peace
And control your urges to scream about all the people you hate
'Cause shame never made anybody" sin less." Amen to that!
Stop hating others. Love others. No matter what they have done. It is NOT our job to judge others, that is only God's job.
"How can you say you love God who you do not see if you hate your brother who you do see?" Satan tries to make us judge others too harshly. This judging comes from pride, but never forget "God opposes the proud." We are quick to judge others because then we forget about our own sins for a bit. We like to throw stones at others before they can throw stones at us. It's so easy for people to think they are better then others and to look down on others. It is Satan alone that inspires us to do this. When we look in the mirror for a good long while, spiritually, we ALL realize that all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
I was guilty of this extreme pride for a long time in judging homosexuals, but just because someone sins differently then you, that doesn't give you any right to despise them. Taylor Swift said it very well in her famous song "Calm Down." She said, "I've learned a lesson that stressin' and obsessin' 'bout somebody else is no fun...You just need to take a seat and then try to restore the peace
And control your urges to scream about all the people you hate
'Cause shame never made anybody" sin less." Amen to that!
Stop hating others. Love others. No matter what they have done. It is NOT our job to judge others, that is only God's job.
Friday, March 20, 2020
To the Coronavirus
I wrote this based off the speech that David says to Goliath in the Bible. 😀
"Coronavirus You come against us with fevers, coughs, and weakness, but we come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel. This day the Lord will deliver you into our hands, and we will strike you down and cut off your head. :) This very day I will give the cells of you, Coronavirus, to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in America! All those gather here will know that the battle is the Lord’s, and he will give the victory into our hands!” woot! :)
We WILL have victory over this virus very soon! I declare and decree that we will in Jesus’ name amen! 😀
"Coronavirus You come against us with fevers, coughs, and weakness, but we come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel. This day the Lord will deliver you into our hands, and we will strike you down and cut off your head. :) This very day I will give the cells of you, Coronavirus, to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in America! All those gather here will know that the battle is the Lord’s, and he will give the victory into our hands!” woot! :)
We WILL have victory over this virus very soon! I declare and decree that we will in Jesus’ name amen! 😀
My Crazy Month
I had an interesting room mate situation this month. But I finally feel like I'm on the other side of that, praise God. My ex boyfriend and I had rented out the master bedroom in my former house just so we could get our water and electric bills paid. My savings had run out and so had his. We had been enjoying two months of romantic bliss essentially. I felt like God had wanted me to quit working to focus on him, since we had opposite hours at work. He then got laid off at his job due to winter being a slow season. At first it seemed like a good set up with our new room mates, but then our room mate's car broke down. That made them unable to pay rent each week. They started a new job that was closer but there was a delay in their checks. That greatly stressed out my ex boyfriend, which I think was partly why he wanted to get himself in jail and shot up the building that he did. It is very ironic too because around that time I told him how my friend, who had worked in prisons as a guard, said many of the guys in there only want to get back in once they get out, because normal life is so hard. In jail or prison you don't have to worry about getting bills paid or working or anything that normal people have to worry about. It seems jail is a safe place for people who simply can't handle life. I think that thought implanted into my ex boyfriend's mind and he decided that was the life he wanted. It was ironic, he said he had always wanted to shoot up a building with a gun. What an odd fantasy to have. Pretty sure he never should have been given a gun by his dad.
I have always been very anti guns. I don't see any reason for anyone other then police officers to have a gun. Your gun isn't going to protect you. God is. People are fickle and become momentarily insane all the time, or possessed. We get bored easily and come up with crazy ideas. Hence, why no one besides officers should have guns.
Another thing that incident taught me was to be even more scared of medications. Praise God my current boyfriend isn't on any meds. My mom has been on meds for her mental health ever since I was 3. I think that partly is what led to my dad molesting me at age 6. I think the meds caused her to become a zombie and be checked out. She probably wasn't showing him enough love and attention and that's why he did what he did. I know I never felt like she showed me much love and attention my entire life. And I mainly blame all the meds she is on, which is several. She even attempted suicide recently. Please pray for her. If she isn't saved, which I don't know, pray she will get saved. If you aren't on meds, I don't recommend you ever start. They might ruin your entire life. My ex husband got on meds 8 months ago and I decided with that that I would never be with him again. I can't handle the unpredictable nature of meds and what they do to a person. I also see them as sorcery and witchcraft.
The shooting 3 weeks ago mainly happened because my ex boyfriend had skipped two doses of his medication because the pharmacy was slow in refilling it. He then had a psychotic break due to that. It's a very scary world now with meds making people so unpredictable.
But now I am finally at peace again and in an oasis, it would seem. I am living with a new boyfriend. Please pray for us to make it. He is great. :) We get along really well so that's great. I met him 7 months ago when he rented a room in my house before his house was built. We have been on and off for 7 months. I had taken a break from him to be with this ex boyfriend, but I wish I hadn't. But I had a fun few months with Josh and overall I'm glad we got to have as much fun as we did. It's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. I think he feels the same about our time together. But I pray he will find someone good for him in the future. May God provide him with all he needs in the future. Please pray for him. Thanks all. :)
But I am very happy here in my new house with my new boyfriend and I plan to stay here until I die. It may have been good I waited to move in until now though. I think the last three months apart from my boyfriend caused him to appreciate me more now. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. :)
I pray you all are very happy with whoever you are with, and if you don't have someone, may God send you someone great. And make sure you appreciate them! Because you never know when they will be gone. God loves you all! Have a great day. :)
I have always been very anti guns. I don't see any reason for anyone other then police officers to have a gun. Your gun isn't going to protect you. God is. People are fickle and become momentarily insane all the time, or possessed. We get bored easily and come up with crazy ideas. Hence, why no one besides officers should have guns.
Another thing that incident taught me was to be even more scared of medications. Praise God my current boyfriend isn't on any meds. My mom has been on meds for her mental health ever since I was 3. I think that partly is what led to my dad molesting me at age 6. I think the meds caused her to become a zombie and be checked out. She probably wasn't showing him enough love and attention and that's why he did what he did. I know I never felt like she showed me much love and attention my entire life. And I mainly blame all the meds she is on, which is several. She even attempted suicide recently. Please pray for her. If she isn't saved, which I don't know, pray she will get saved. If you aren't on meds, I don't recommend you ever start. They might ruin your entire life. My ex husband got on meds 8 months ago and I decided with that that I would never be with him again. I can't handle the unpredictable nature of meds and what they do to a person. I also see them as sorcery and witchcraft.
The shooting 3 weeks ago mainly happened because my ex boyfriend had skipped two doses of his medication because the pharmacy was slow in refilling it. He then had a psychotic break due to that. It's a very scary world now with meds making people so unpredictable.
But now I am finally at peace again and in an oasis, it would seem. I am living with a new boyfriend. Please pray for us to make it. He is great. :) We get along really well so that's great. I met him 7 months ago when he rented a room in my house before his house was built. We have been on and off for 7 months. I had taken a break from him to be with this ex boyfriend, but I wish I hadn't. But I had a fun few months with Josh and overall I'm glad we got to have as much fun as we did. It's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. I think he feels the same about our time together. But I pray he will find someone good for him in the future. May God provide him with all he needs in the future. Please pray for him. Thanks all. :)
But I am very happy here in my new house with my new boyfriend and I plan to stay here until I die. It may have been good I waited to move in until now though. I think the last three months apart from my boyfriend caused him to appreciate me more now. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. :)
I pray you all are very happy with whoever you are with, and if you don't have someone, may God send you someone great. And make sure you appreciate them! Because you never know when they will be gone. God loves you all! Have a great day. :)
Thursday, March 19, 2020
Fear NOT
"Fear, he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
'Cause fear he is a liar" I have seen so much fear over the past year it's insane. There is a spiri of fear which is very active right now. In the 90's it was mainly a spirit of lust that could be felt everywhere. Then there was the Y2K fear. Since then it seems anger has been the main spirit dominating most people. And recently fear has been turning into a monster. I remember a Veggie Tales movie where this little rumor monster grows and grows in the movie the more the rumor is told. That makes me think of this monster of fear that we are all facing now. The more the word Coronavirus is even mentioned, the bigger that fear monster gets. But God I declare and decree that that monster is going to fall SOON! Thank you that no weapon formed against us shall prosper. Thank you that every single person who has this illness will be HEALED right now in the name of JESUS! Thank you for freedom from this sickness! And thank you that the fear of those who haven't gotten sick yet will melt away like ice on a hot day. God evaporate our fear right now! Take it as far as the east is from the west right now Jesus! Praise you!
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
'Cause fear he is a liar" I have seen so much fear over the past year it's insane. There is a spiri of fear which is very active right now. In the 90's it was mainly a spirit of lust that could be felt everywhere. Then there was the Y2K fear. Since then it seems anger has been the main spirit dominating most people. And recently fear has been turning into a monster. I remember a Veggie Tales movie where this little rumor monster grows and grows in the movie the more the rumor is told. That makes me think of this monster of fear that we are all facing now. The more the word Coronavirus is even mentioned, the bigger that fear monster gets. But God I declare and decree that that monster is going to fall SOON! Thank you that no weapon formed against us shall prosper. Thank you that every single person who has this illness will be HEALED right now in the name of JESUS! Thank you for freedom from this sickness! And thank you that the fear of those who haven't gotten sick yet will melt away like ice on a hot day. God evaporate our fear right now! Take it as far as the east is from the west right now Jesus! Praise you!
Saturday, March 14, 2020
Is it the End of the World
I haven't looked much into conspiracy theories for awhile. I have been blissfully happy falling in love. :) But this Coronavirus thing is very odd. Either it is real and possibly it's biological warfare on the entire world population from the forces of darkness, or the whole thing is made up in order to fear people into submission so that we all will be easier to control. Shutting down the schools is insane. If the kids aren't in school, their parents can't work which means the closing of several businesses in America. That is the worst case scenario I know. I don't know if the schools will only be shut down for a few weeks. It seems like they will keep this world wide panic going for awhile. I think this is all just a fear game. First there was the "shutting down" of the government for who knows what reason. Then the odd impeachment trials of Trump, which I think was just another fear tactic. And now this supposed virus outbreak. I remember when everyone was worried about the Swine Flu. I knew it was just a tactic to get more people to get a flu shot, which would have caused more deaths from the flu shot itself and not the Swine flu. I guarantee the next move of the forces of darkness will be to force every adult and child to get a Coronavirus vaccine. They will probably say, "Your kids can't go back to school and you can't go back to work unless you get this vaccine." And then masses of adults and children will die from the vaccine. I for sure won't get the vaccine. But I already see through their game and I know that's their next step. It's all about control. And it's all about them wanting to cause more deaths. But they will do it under the disguise that they are trying to "protect" us with this vaccine but it will actually kill millions. The darkness, which some call the Illuminate or the richest people in the world, are trying to kill off as many people as they can for "population control." But really they are just being lied to by Satan about that. They don't realize that the entity they are talking to is Satan, or fallen angels. They probably think it's aliens who are far superior to us humans. And they are doing everything these "aliens," who are really fallen angels are telling them to do. Is there anything we can do to stop this? Who knows. Personally I would be excited to see the end of the world. I can't wait for Jesus to come back! I can't wait to go to heaven! So bring it on forces of darkness. We have only had like 20 movies about the end of the world come out since Independence Day in the 90's, which was my first favorite movie. :) I think they were all trying to warn us of what we all know is just on the horizon.
Wednesday, March 11, 2020
Hard Decisions
I feel like I'm in that poem now "Two roads diverged in a wood and I took the road less traveled by and that has made all the difference."
I have two guys I can choose from. It would seem a bit insane if I were to choose my ex boyfriend who is currently in jail. Love is crazy but maybe love shouldn't be that crazy.
I have thought that maybe he shot the building that night, knowing he would go to jail, in order to remove himself from my life so I could pick either Bryan or my ex husband to be with again. That is possible. God help me to decide.
I have two guys I can choose from. It would seem a bit insane if I were to choose my ex boyfriend who is currently in jail. Love is crazy but maybe love shouldn't be that crazy.
I have thought that maybe he shot the building that night, knowing he would go to jail, in order to remove himself from my life so I could pick either Bryan or my ex husband to be with again. That is possible. God help me to decide.
Wednesday, March 4, 2020
Letter on Anger to Josh
A letter to my ex boyfriend in jail:
Hello and good morning Josh, I felt like God wanted me to send you some Bible verses on anger. :)
"Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath. Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil."
As you learned a lesson hard on that with now ending up jail due to an angry outburst.
"Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly."
Yes please watch out for having a hasty temper. I see where you get your anger from now because it seems like your dad is a pretty angry guy. I can understand you inheriting that from him because my mom was so angry too and I adopted that some myself. But try to shirk off the sins of your parents and promise yourself that you will be nothing like them, except in the things they did right, like going to church. :) But your dad for sure has a very judgmental spirit, which I think he taught you to be the same way. My mom taught me that as well. But it's funny, isn't it, how Christians can be some of the meanest people because we feel it's our right to judge everyone around us but it's not. Only God should judge people. If we are mad at someone about their sin we can pray for them, but judging and hating them is only going to hurt ourselves. I'm sorry you were so angry at me about the one night stands I had before you. All I can say is I was panicking then and trying to find a new husband and a new place to live. I thought I only had two more months left in my house with the impending foreclosure. I didn't know I had this long to stay here. And I didn't want to live with my mom since my step dad is a child molester. I knew I wasn't welcome in Ben's parents' house because they blame me for him going crazy, which is unjust but oh well. Also I was just lonely and missing Ben, so that's why I was trying to find a replacement for him. Now maybe you are getting a taste of what I was feeling then since we were together intimately for 3 months and now we can't be together physically. I'm sure you are missing the physical side of our relationship a lot now yeah? Well that was me 6 months ago and that's why I was trying to find someone. I don't plan on doing that again, ever. I know I should have not rushed things with all those guys. I think another reason I did that was I was actually more comfortable just giving them sex right away then going out to dinner and having them pay for me and doing the normal slow dating process. The reason being is that it's always been hard for me to receive anything from anyone. I feel like I have to give a lot in order to get anything back.
Here are more good verses on anger: "The anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God." Amen. We can't ever take justice into our own hands. God will bring about justice. We are not God. Only God is God.
"Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger." That is why the angry sounding music is bad because it enables you to Stay angry for long periods of time, which is bad for your health and the ability to have a sound and peaceful mind.
"A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." I'm very sorry I said to you that day, "If you're not happy here you can always go to live with your brother." Bryan says that was really messed up of me to say that and that I was giving you an ultimatum. I said "No it was just a suggestion." But it was wrong of me to say that and I'm very sorry. Also I'm sorry I said on our walk a few weeks ago that I was missing Bryan because he and I didn't fight like you and I did. I think the main reason you and I were so irritable with each other though was because you couldn't seem to forgive me for my past. Also I always resented you saying I needed to loose weight.
Maybe God is just giving you this time to really think about what you want. Would you prefer to be with someone that is more skinny who hasn't had any previous relationships? You can try finding her if you want.
"Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense." I suppose you feel the amount of guys I had been with before was an offense to you. I never saw it that way because I was with them Before you, not while I was with you. But it offended you because your expectation of what a Christian woman would be was different then what I am. But this verse says it is to your glory to overlook an offense, meaning it will make you a better person if you are able to overlook it. It doesn't make you a better person to judge me. Think about that. ;)
I pray you have a good day. I'll try to see you at 1 today. I start work at Subway today though so I'll see. But please respond about all that. And I pray you have a great and very reflective day. :)
Hello and good morning Josh, I felt like God wanted me to send you some Bible verses on anger. :)
"Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath. Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil."
As you learned a lesson hard on that with now ending up jail due to an angry outburst.
"Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly."
Yes please watch out for having a hasty temper. I see where you get your anger from now because it seems like your dad is a pretty angry guy. I can understand you inheriting that from him because my mom was so angry too and I adopted that some myself. But try to shirk off the sins of your parents and promise yourself that you will be nothing like them, except in the things they did right, like going to church. :) But your dad for sure has a very judgmental spirit, which I think he taught you to be the same way. My mom taught me that as well. But it's funny, isn't it, how Christians can be some of the meanest people because we feel it's our right to judge everyone around us but it's not. Only God should judge people. If we are mad at someone about their sin we can pray for them, but judging and hating them is only going to hurt ourselves. I'm sorry you were so angry at me about the one night stands I had before you. All I can say is I was panicking then and trying to find a new husband and a new place to live. I thought I only had two more months left in my house with the impending foreclosure. I didn't know I had this long to stay here. And I didn't want to live with my mom since my step dad is a child molester. I knew I wasn't welcome in Ben's parents' house because they blame me for him going crazy, which is unjust but oh well. Also I was just lonely and missing Ben, so that's why I was trying to find a replacement for him. Now maybe you are getting a taste of what I was feeling then since we were together intimately for 3 months and now we can't be together physically. I'm sure you are missing the physical side of our relationship a lot now yeah? Well that was me 6 months ago and that's why I was trying to find someone. I don't plan on doing that again, ever. I know I should have not rushed things with all those guys. I think another reason I did that was I was actually more comfortable just giving them sex right away then going out to dinner and having them pay for me and doing the normal slow dating process. The reason being is that it's always been hard for me to receive anything from anyone. I feel like I have to give a lot in order to get anything back.
Here are more good verses on anger: "The anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God." Amen. We can't ever take justice into our own hands. God will bring about justice. We are not God. Only God is God.
"Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger." That is why the angry sounding music is bad because it enables you to Stay angry for long periods of time, which is bad for your health and the ability to have a sound and peaceful mind.
"A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." I'm very sorry I said to you that day, "If you're not happy here you can always go to live with your brother." Bryan says that was really messed up of me to say that and that I was giving you an ultimatum. I said "No it was just a suggestion." But it was wrong of me to say that and I'm very sorry. Also I'm sorry I said on our walk a few weeks ago that I was missing Bryan because he and I didn't fight like you and I did. I think the main reason you and I were so irritable with each other though was because you couldn't seem to forgive me for my past. Also I always resented you saying I needed to loose weight.
Maybe God is just giving you this time to really think about what you want. Would you prefer to be with someone that is more skinny who hasn't had any previous relationships? You can try finding her if you want.
"Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense." I suppose you feel the amount of guys I had been with before was an offense to you. I never saw it that way because I was with them Before you, not while I was with you. But it offended you because your expectation of what a Christian woman would be was different then what I am. But this verse says it is to your glory to overlook an offense, meaning it will make you a better person if you are able to overlook it. It doesn't make you a better person to judge me. Think about that. ;)
I pray you have a good day. I'll try to see you at 1 today. I start work at Subway today though so I'll see. But please respond about all that. And I pray you have a great and very reflective day. :)
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