Tuesday, July 31, 2018

My Road Trips

πŸ™‚ This might give all you young people fun ideas. πŸ™‚

Age 23- from Omaha, NE up to South Dakota and over to Yellowstone and down to Vegas and the OC. With my mom and brother. πŸ™‚ That was the best one!

Age 21- Up to Ashland, Oregon from the OC with my college Shakespeare class for a Shakespeare festival. Loved it!

Age 22- Over to Estes Park, Colorado from the OC for a hiking a camping trip with my college room mate and her family. Loved loved it!

Age 18- Over to the Grand Canyon with my college room mate and her family. We actually hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon and camped out under the stars there for a week! It’s phenomenal how many stars you can see at the Grand Canyon! And we swam in and jumped off a waterfall! Amazing trip!

Age 21- A Choir tour with my college choir up to the Bay area and wine country of Cali. Super super cool!

Age 22- A second choir tour all the way to Seattle on a charter bus. Great trip! It’s actually a tropical rainforest up  around there. πŸ™‚

Age 22- Up to San Francisco to stay at Berkeley for a summer class with Biola and Torrey. Such an awesome trip! Our whole class did lots of hiking up there. It was awesome!

Age 25- from Cali to Nebraska with my brother. That was a great trip!

Age 28- from Nebraska back to Cali with my mom and brother. We stayed in the Luxor in Vegas. Super cool! πŸ™‚

Age 28- from Cali to Kansas City with my mom to live with a friend and then met my fiancΓ© 3 weeks later there! πŸ™‚

4 trips in high school from the OC to Vegas at Christmas time with my mom and grandparents! Those were great, great trips and memories! πŸ™‚

Age 14- from Nebraska to the OC with my mom. Saw the Grand Canyon for the first time. πŸ€—

Age 8- from Cali to Nebraska, God’s country! πŸ™‚ So my dad could have us by his mom. My grandma there had a huge 30 acre apple orchard and I sure had fun exploring all over that. It was so beautiful!

And that’s all my road trips. The next one I hope to do is over to Florida with my hubby, someday. πŸ™‚

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Value Everyone You Know

πŸ˜‰ Be Grateful for the People in Your Life πŸ˜‰

Here is something that is a very Satanic spirit, feeling like you don’t want your child or wishing you didn’t have a child, or a child not wanting their parents and wishing they had different parents. Why is it Satanic? Because our children are a GIFT from God, and the BEST, for sure, gift that God will ever give us! 

And all our parents are a great gift from God too! My dad wasn’t perfect but I still have lots of great memories of him and I learned a lot a great things from him! So thank you dad, for all the good things you did and said. πŸ˜€πŸ‘πŸΌ

But any feeling that seeks to divide a family, or divide us from any good people in our lives, is from Satan. “Satan comes only to steal, kill and destroy.” Amen? 

I think my Grandma was actually overcome by a Satanic spirit for a time when she had her third child. She was older then, about 34 I think, and maybe felt like she was too old to be a mother to a baby again. She was very depressed for some time after that and literally called this third child her accident or mistake child. 😞 Poor Aunt Selinda. I would never in a million years say my girls were accidents or not wanted. And for sure never ever to their face. My goodness that must have been hard. And my grandpa really should have corrected such bad behavior in my grandma, but you can’t change the past. 

So that was very much a Satanic spirit. I don’t think she got possessed in that time but she was for sure oppressed. She let that one evil thought take root, that her third child was unwanted, and it caused much, much damage to her whole entire family. 

So mothers be very careful to be very grateful for your kids! 

And Children be GRATEFUL for your parents! 

Wives be grateful for your husbands! 

And husbands be grateful for your wives! 

Any feeling of ingratitude for any of them is from Satan and definitely not from God. 

Yes children might be hard to look after at times but always remember, about HALF of women out there now can’t have kids. Literally it seems to be half, or even more, of women my age now struggle with infertility. 

I think birth control pills now are causing permanent damage to the ovaries. Which is another good reason to swallow no pills except vitamins and Advil. πŸ˜‰πŸ‘πŸΌ

But if you have a child, know that you are VERY, very lucky! And never forget that!

Don’t let that Satanic spirit take root in your mind to divide you from your kids, parents or anyone you love! Tell Satan to get behind you and run as far away from you as possible! Don’t listen to him!

And TRULY love and appreciate those in your life, because you never know when they might be gone for good! Cherish EVERY single moment you get with them. Don’t ignore them. Don’t stay so focused on yourself that you don’t see them. Value them! Appreciate them! Cherish them! And always, always treat them well, or God might take them away from you. 

I know that from experience. I treated a past fiancΓ© not too well and God literally took him away from me and he died. I will always regret that, but I learned my lesson the hard way from that and now treat people a lot better, I think anyways. πŸ™‚ 

Treat people in your life extremely well. Respect them. Value them. Always. And God will allow the gift of them to stay in your life and bless you. 

Do you want them to respect you and bless you? Respect and bless them first. 😁 Amen. 


And may God bless you all as you seek to do that. πŸ˜‰ 

Be Very Greatful

πŸ˜‰ Be Grateful for the People in Your Life! πŸ˜‰

Here is something that is a very Satanic spirit, feeling like you don’t want your child or wishing you didn’t have a child, or a child not wanting their parents and wishing they had different parents. Why is it Satanic? Because our children are a GIFT from God, and the BEST, for sure, gift that God will ever give us!

And all our parents are a great gift from God too! My dad wasn’t perfect but I still have lots of great memories of him and I learned a lot a great things from him! So thank you dad, for all the good things you did and said. πŸ˜€πŸ‘πŸΌ

But any feeling that seeks to divide a family, or divide us from any good people in our lives, is from Satan. “Satan comes only to steal, kill and destroy.” Amen?

I think my Grandma was actually overcome by a Satanic spirit for a time when she had her third child. She was older then, about 34 I think, and maybe felt like she was too old to be a mother to a baby again. She was very depressed for some time after that and literally called this third child her accident or mistake child. 😞 Poor Aunt Selinda. I would never in a million years say my girls were accidents or not wanted. And for sure never ever to their face. My goodness that must have been hard. And my grandpa really should have corrected such bad behavior in my grandma, but you can’t change the past.

So that was very much a Satanic spirit. I don’t think she got possessed in that time but she was for sure oppressed. She let that one evil thought take root, that her third child was unwanted, and it caused much, much damage to her whole entire family.

So mothers be very careful to be very grateful for your kids.

Children be grateful for your parents!

Wives be grateful for your husbands!

And husbands be grateful for your wives!

Any feeling of ingratitude for any of them is from Satan and definitely not from God.

Yes children might be hard to look after at times but always remember, about HALF of women out there now can’t have kids. Literally it seems to be half or more of women my age now struggle with infertility.

I blame birth control pills having way too long lasting effects on the ovaries. But if you have a child, know that you are very, very lucky! And never forget that!

Don’t let that Satanic spirit take root in your mind to divide you from your kids, parents or anyone you love! Tell Satan to get behind you and run as far away from you as possible! Don’t listen to him!

And truly love and appreciate those in your life, because you never know when they might be gone for good! Cherish every single moment you get with them. Don’t ignore them. Don’t stay so focused on yourself that you don’t see them. Value them! Appreciate them! Cherish them! And always, always treat them well, or God might take them away from you.

I know that from experience. I treated an ex fiancΓ© not too well and God literally took him away from me and he died.

Treat people in your life extremely well. Respect them. And God will allow the gift of them to stay with you always. πŸ˜‰ May God bless you all!

My Grandma’s Funeral



I was so embarrassed today. 😐 I was balling like a baby πŸ‘ΆπŸ˜ when I spoke at my grandma’s funeral. Sorry to my family members who were there, if that made you feel awkward. πŸ˜‰ I suppose crying is mostly an appropriate thing to do at a funeral, but not many others cried, even my grandpa didn’t, 😞 so it was a bit awkward. ☹️ But May God help my grandpa and everyone in the grieving process and may they allow themselves to grieve, if needed. πŸ˜‰πŸ‘πŸΌ

Crying is such an odd experience really. Crying in front of others is for sure. It’s a very vulnerable thing to do. But crying is a gift from God because it helps us to release all the tensions in life. When we don’t cry, we walk around angry all the time. But when we cry, and allow ourselves to cry, a softness comes and we are able to then love others more.

In our modern culture we all know we tell boys and men to not cry because it seems not manly and gay, but now I think we tell girls and women to not cry a lot too, because now girls are trying to be like boys and then like men, providing for the family and being strong and doing it all.

Ah America. We are such a messed up nation. 😞 Men aren’t allowed to have emotions, other then anger, and all us women are trying to be tough like men now. So who is allowed to be weak and in pain and vulnerable? Not many. 😞

The story I shared that really made me start crying was about a boy in my grandma’s class when she was a teacher. He was a bad kid that she inspired to be a good kid simply by encouraging him that God had a purpose for him in his life. THAT story has always been my life motto and my life mission. Ever since I heard her tell THAT story I made it my goal to help bad people become good, with God’s help of course, which is why I write so much. πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸΌ My background of having the child molesting dad that I have has been a ton of inspiration and motivation too to want to rid the world of our terrible darkness as much as I can. I aspire to be....Batman! Lol πŸ™‚

But really, IF my Grandma had been a teacher in my dad’s class, I wonder if the entire future for him and all of us would have been 180 degrees TOTALLY different. I seriously wish my dad would have had my grandma for a teacher! Or at least I just wish she was IN his life! Even though she was his mother in law, they very sadly had almost no contact. 😞

When I was born, my parents were heavily involved in a cult church that told them that church was their family and to IGNORE their biological family, so my mom did, and look what happened to me! That teaching is kind of ok if the biological family is not saved, but my grandma and grandpa were two of the most amazing and godly people who ever lived! In my opinion. πŸ™‚

A lesson in that for you all is NEVER ignore your parents or your family, they might change the entire trajectory of your life for a MUCH better direction! And if your parents are Christian and good, THANK GOD, and THEM, every day for how incredibly lucky you are! πŸ™‚ Like my cousins Kaylin and Tyler, Steven, Sean and Stephanie, you are all VERY lucky to have parents who both love God. πŸ˜‰ And my mom, Selinda, Skyler and Sparlin were incredibly lucky to have the parents that they had. So all y’all never forget that. πŸ˜‰ God blessed you with amazing parents!

May God bless you all!

Let. Men. Lead.

One of the saddest things for me at my grandma’s funeral today was hearing my grandpa teach essentially his first real sermon to us all, and he’s about 90 now! He totally should have been a pastor preaching sermons his whole life! He would have been a great, great pastor! He was a worship leader in church but I so WISH he had gotten to be a pastor. I think America could be so much better now, literally, if my grandpa had had the confidence to be a head pastor, and maybe even a guy like Billy Graham. But what kept him in hiding all these years? My grandma. 😒 I admired her a lot but she sure had an issue with letting men lead. 😞 She was an Amazon woman! Lol πŸ™‚

And ALL these past years he could have been preaching to all of us but my grandma hardly ever let the poor guy talk! Poor Grandpa. 😭 So ladies, let your man talk!  Let him lead!  He may not be a perfect leader but no one is! If they are at least trying, give them a huge hug every day and tell them how much you appreciate them even trying to be a godly leader! Do it! Right now! Lol πŸ™‚

And RESPECT your man. And all the good men in your life. Let them speak up and lead. Don’t dominate them or try to over talk them. Don’t think that if your smart that you are smarter then them and you should lead instead. God said the MAN is to be the head of the home, for good reason because us women have shopping issues lol. πŸ™‚

But women and men should not be competing for the leadership position. The men SHOULD lead.

So ladies, get out of the way and let your man lead. I guarantee that would be the single most effective solution to the prevention of divorces all over America and the world! Women need to respect their men and let them lead.

Amen. And now that I said that 20 times in a row I hope it sunk in lol.

May God bless you all!

Thursday, July 26, 2018

Child Molestation

In Omaha, NE there is a place called “Boy’s Town.” It is a very, very big orphanage for young boys. A guy I was engaged to, his dad was the clerk of court for Nebraska. That was a pretty high up and important position. He knew actual true stories of people in congress from Washington D.C. who would actually fly groups of these boys out to see them in D.C. just so they could molest them and sexually abuse them. 😒 I believe and know that Trump is a great and stellar guy, but there are lots of men in power in America who are very, very sick. ☹️Please pray that such things will stop. And that Trump will be able to crack down on such cases and end all the child abuse! 

There are also several stories out now about certain movie stars molesting kids. I know it’s hard for those trying to solve this issue to know which stories are true. When people can get massive pay outs for such stories, that’s a lot of motivation to make up stories. Michael Jackson, for example, was paying out thousands, if not millions, of dollars every month to all the families of the children he molested to keep them from suing him or to keep them quiet. 

I hope, in regards to the stories, that the police will at least bring such people in for a lie detector test and see what stories are true and then punish the people who committed the terrible child abuse crimes, even if they are in Congress or movie stars. Amen! God please make it happen! 

I pray for justice for ALL the children all across America who have been abused! And I pray God that you will PROTECT this generation of children now from any and ALL evil in Jesus’ holy name! God bring a purity to our land that we have never had! Give all the people across America a burning desire to love you and to submit to you and not Satan! God break these crazy chains that Satan has over SO many people doing so much evil in our nation! God please heal our land and restore us to being the great Christian country that we once were! May God bless America! And may God save us Americans! Amen πŸ™‚ 


God bless! 

A Great Marriage

I have almost read all of Mark Driscoll’s book “Real Marriage.” I only have 2 more chapters to go. Gold star for me!  🌟⭐️πŸŽ‰ Lol. In reading it I can see now why he got fired at his church and was rude to his staff. His wife cheated on him before they got married and didn’t tell him till 5 years into their marriage but that whole time he could tell something was wrong. Wow. No wonder the poor guy seemed angry a lot. 😞 I can’t imagine. That’s a lot to forgive. If you read it, a lot of the book will make you sad, but it will also make you MUCH more grateful for how well you have had things in your marriage, if you have, and hopefully you have. πŸ˜€I sure am a TON more grateful for Ben and how great he is after reading it. 😁 Go Ben! And thank you God for giving me a GREAT spouse and enabling us to love each other as much as we do. πŸ˜€πŸ˜ Praise God! 

And today we had a super great date day! It was the best, most fun, most romantic day of my life! Awe....Yay Ben! Maybe this can give all you other couples great date ideas. 😁 Me and Ben went up to the cute area of downtown Belton by us and got lunch at a restaurant on the creek called “The Gin.” It was super cool and the food was amazing! I got a chicken stuffed with spinach and cheese. Maybe I’ll learn how to make that. πŸ™‚ Then we went to a waterfall by there, walked on a suspension bridge and sat ON the waterfall for awhile. That was really cool. πŸ™‚ Then we swam in the river by there and actually saw a water moccasin 15 feet away from us! I was scared but it did not swim toward us thank God! But the water there was so warm; it was amazing! πŸ˜πŸ€— Then we went to get frozen yogurt by The Gin restaurant and sat by the creek. It was super yummy πŸ˜‹. Then we climbed down a bolder cliff thing on Stillhouse Hollow Lake to see the MOST beautiful nature view I have ever seen! It was the perfect and most gorgeous pink and purple sunset reflecting off the most beautiful lake ever! So pretty! Then we went on a walk in our neighborhood and Ben got me takeout mixed fajitas at our favorite restaurant by us, El Mexicano. Then we FaceTime talked to our girls who are at their grandma’s for a bit and we were happy to see them happy. πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸΌ It was a great day!

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

On Being Smart




When I become a teacher I think my main message that I'll tell my students will be "Don't trust anybody. Except your parents, hopefully you can trust them." But I think that's why so many kids get sexually abused now, because they don't have their guard up. They are too trusting. And why? Because their parents have not educated them on the extreme evil that is in the world. Granted it is good to let children be happy, but we should not let them be naΓ―ve and stupid either.

Unfortunately the world is very much not safe now and children should not trust people so easily. And someone needs to tell them that. Of course we should not make kids paranoid or overly fearful, but they really need to realize how much they can't trust people.

Children, and all people really, need to have their eyes opened to the darkness. If you don't know it's there, it can sneak up on you and catch you off guard and potentially kill you. If you don't realize that just about everyone is capable of conning you or severely hurting you, you will make stupid choices and trust people way more then you should, and you will end up getting hurt a lot. If you don't realize and accept that the majority of people don't really care about you and they mostly just think about themselves, you will not see reality and be at a disadvantage in life.

Ladies, girls, do not trust boys or men unless you really, really know them. There is absolutely no reason why you should trust any of them. A boy or man needs to EARN your trust. Women and young women are way, way too easy now. They wear their heart on their sleeve and will give their heart away to anyone. And that is why anxiety and depression are such an epidemic all around the world now. It's from letting people IN too much. You can't let too many people into your heart. It will only mess you up if you do. The only being that should be all the way in your heart and your mind is God, not people. Only God is deserving of your whole trust, not any person.

When dating someone, do not assume that he is a good guy, and men do not assume that a girl or woman is good either, until you really get to know them. You have to really study a person to see if they are good or not. Do not take them at face value. Do not just believe what they say, watch what they do.

And I think if more people studied other people more, we all would walk in a ton more wisdom then we might currently.

May God bless you all with more and more wisdom about others and yourself every day. Amen :) May God bless you all!

A Letter To President Donald Trump

Dear President Trump,

I love you! :) I love what you said about vaccines when you were running for office!  How babies should just have one vaccine dose at a time, rather then several shots at once.  I couldn't agree more!  And I love now that you are hoping to pass laws for the death penalty for child molesters.  I just wanted to encourage you to really do that and try to make that happen.  I know the system of checks and balances probably gets frustrating.  I bet at times you wish you were a king in a monarchy and you could pass any law you want to.  I pray that the democrats won't try to discourage you to much in that endeavor.  Press on toward the goal brother! You can do it!  Just keep pushing back that darkness!  And thank you SO MUCH for trying.  And I pray that you will succeed!  I was just thinking how all our presidents before you were just girly men really.  Thank you SO much for being a strong leader, for REALLY caring about children, and for trying to make our country better!  THANK YOU for not being just all talk and no action, like other presidents were at times.  I pray that you won't get weary in your fight against all this evil.  I pray that angels will come to help you to defeat the darkness!  I pray that any law you pass about more severe punishment for child molesters really will pass!  I pray also that you will try to take more action about vaccines and trying to limit how many doses kids get now.  The amount required is insane!  I could understand like 5 vaccines but currently it's like 15 and 3 doses of each one!  It's just terrible. :(  Please keep trying to protect our children and THANK YOU so much for doing that!  I know you probably hear lots of comments from haters who want to tear you down.  The darkness never likes to be destroyed, but I will pray for you!  And I know millions of Christians all over the world are praying for you.  THANK YOU!  So much!  For trying to protect our children.  I wish you the best of luck and that a million angels will follow you wherever you go!  I pray that whatever laws or bills you can pass to make punishment more harsh for child molesters will work out very well! :) And you can use this verse to appeal to any Christians in offices of power there, "If anyone causes one of these little ones-those who believe in me-to stumble, it would be better for them if a large millstone were hung around their neck and they were thrown into the sea." Mark 9:42.  That really is the only Bible verse about childhood sexual abuse.  And Jesus literally was saying such people really should be put to death.  So please, please keep trying to pass laws, at least for life in prison, if not the death penalty, for anyone who molests a child, because if they continue to be out in society, they will just KEEP molesting more and more children.  Now I will briefly tell my story.  My dad sexually abused me as a child.  He went to prison for only 6 months.  He went to church and counselors.  The counselors then said he was "healed" and normal again.  My family reunited and he tried something again.  My parents divorced, praise God! Then recently 5 years ago, 20 years later, he even molested his step-grandkids!  They were only 3 and 4 at the time.  How sad is that! That is just proof that people like that will never stop.  If you ever want me to tell that story at a political meeting on this topic I would love to. :) It probably would help a lot if you had several people share their story, who were sexually abused, to soften the hearts of those democrats to pass bills about more severe punishment for child molesters. Or maybe they already would want such bills to be passed, who knows. :) But the Bible says that we defeat Satan "by the word of our testimony."  Amen!  May God bless you! :)

Trump and Good Capital Punishment

I am so excited about this! Trump might actually pass a law that child molestors get the death penalty. I love that! They totally should! I think I’ll write my first letter to the White House and encourage him to pass a law on that. πŸ™‚ This is so, so important because most men, and maybe some women, who molest children will Never stop! And the government has been letting them live and have only short times in prison but that only means dozens or hundreds! more children will be molested by them. 😞 Because they are all possessed by demons I guess, I don’t know. But there seems to be no solution for the madness of child molestation except the death penalty for such sick bastards. I heard another story recently of a friend who was essentially rapped as a boy by a man in a public restroom. It’s just insane that this stuff happens so frequently in our nation and not much is done about it. Much more needs to be done about it for sure! 

Monday, July 16, 2018

How God Uses Pain

It’s funny how pain and suffering can make you want to go back to church. 😁 I starting going again 3 weeks ago after I got a wisdom tooth pulled. That was a bit of pain for sure. But then after that I got the worst cold sore I’ve ever had and that was the worst pain in my life really. But hey God can use pain to humble us and help us remember how much we need him amen? Yep πŸ™‚ So when you experience pain don’t get bitter at God, press into God more, run to him even faster and he will be there with wide open arms waiting to embrace you and help your pain go away. Amen! “God is close to the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.” Amen! May God bless you all! And if you live around Georgetown, TX come check out Grace Bible Church! It’s possibly the best church I’ve ever been to! God loves you all! And so do I. πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸΌπŸŽ‰ God bless!

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Sermon Notes


We heard a great sermon today!  Good job Pastor Dave! :)

And the worship was phenominal.  They did the song "The Great I Am" that plays on the Fish a lot.  It's one thing to casually hear it on the radio and another to sing it in worship I think.  Good job all yall!  :) That's a great song and you all sang it very well!

Here is what my pastor said today:

"We often work in obedient self-justification." (Meaning we might think, if I do bad things I can make it up by doing lots of good things, which a works based rather then grace based faith. :(  We don't and can't pay back God for any bad things we do because Jesus already paid the price for them.  Amen? Amen. :)

"Rule keeping religion is full of death and condemnation." (When we think we can keep up with all the rules, that we give ourselves or others seem to, that leads to death and a lack of peace and, the biggest thing, pride.  Either we feel condemned when we don't measure up and live out the "rules" or we feel prideful when we do, both extremes God hates, because he wants us to see that our faith and salvation is not up to us, but up to Him.  Amen.)

"We sometimes want Jesus to stay behind the veil of works and the law because it can feel safer." (The law is keeping our faith and religion in our heads.  It is a logic based faith that if I do x, y, and z then I earn God's approval.  But letting God into our hearts is when we realize that God loves us just as we are, and that is sometimes too much to handle and too emotional.  Love can be harder to deal with then logic.  Logic is comfortable, but love is revealing and intimate.  Keeping God at a distance, via believing in law keeping to keep his approval, sometimes feels easier and safer.)

"Don't debate and fight with other Christians.  Focus on the glory of God." (Amen!  The focus should always be on God and what Jesus did.  We often get sidetracked by the minor theological questions of the faith, but that is a ploy from Satan to distract us from the most important part of our faith, Jesus, and to disunify us.  Because Satan knows that if we were totally unifed as Christ's body, we would be so much more powerful.  So Satan gets us to focus on our differences with other believers in what we believe rather then our faith in Jesus that we all have in common.  Amen.)

"God is not safe, but he is Good." (Not safe as in not predictable.  When things are predictable we consider them safe.  When we know what's going to happen we consider that to be safe.  But God wants us to trust him at all times.  If we knew everything the future might hold we wouldn't have to trust God so much, and that trust in God is what faith is. :)

"Christianity is not supposed to be duty, dry and hard work." (Jesus said he came that we might have LIFE and life abundant!  Our faith is meant to be full of life and vibrant!  Not a list of do's and don't that we might not feel like living out.  We are supposed to be so deeply in love with God that we love to serve him and do things for him and do what he says.  Christianity is meant to be exciting.  And it is very exciting if we are always trying to reach the lost, as Jesus commanded of us.  But when we do this, Jesus said "my yoke is easy and my burden is light."  We can reach the lost in such a way that is easy and fun.  I like to assemble goody bags with Bible tracts and candy and bracelets that I make and drop them on door steps around apt. complexes.  I consider that to be a joy and it is an easy way to witness.  I don't see it as hard work but rather it is a joy, because I have faith that God will use that to save many.  And it is a joy to do what Jesus told us, me, to do. :)

"If our goal is to be comfortable we are at odds with what God's goal for our life is." (If you think of Jesus or Paul's life, it was rarely comfortable.  Both were beaten and disrespected a ton and had very hard lives.  If we are hoping to have an easy life, and if we believe that we will, that belief might come from Satan rather then from God.  Sometimes what is easy and comfortable is from Satan and what is hard is from God, because the hard things stretch us more and help us grow.  And Jesus said "whoever wants to save his life will loose it."  The Christian walk is all about giving up your life and serving Jesus, because then and only then do we find TRUE life.  Amen. :)

May God bless you all! 

Friday, July 13, 2018

Mark Driscoll

There was a lot of very sad drama over Mark Driscoll a few years ago. 😞 He was fired from his church only because people said he was rude. I’m sure if I was a pastor of a church I would be fired for the same reason lol. But if we are to be like Jesus we are called to be bold and direct. Jesus was very very bold and direct with every single person he spoke to. A pastor should not be fired for being bold and outspoken, but the ones who are the most bold for Jesus, Satan attacks the most and tries to shut them up. 😞

I’m now reading his book Real Marriage. And Seriously all y’all need to read this book! If you only buy and read ONE book this year make it this one! You will learn a ton! I don’t agree with his take on the Song of Solomon at the end but the rest of the book is superb! If you read it you will know what I’m referring to lol. πŸ™‚ But the chapter to the men is beyond excellent. And the chapter on porn I think many people need to read. Seriously this is one of the BEST books ever written! Like ever πŸ™‚ lol. God bless!

Thursday, July 12, 2018

Homosexuality

Why homosexuality happens:

Homosexuality and a confused sexual orientation is usually the result of sexual abuse. There are two kinds of sexual abuse. There is the abusive scary kind and the gentle, seemingly loving kind.

Most of the time if a women is a lesbian it is because she was sexually abused by a man in the scary abusive way like rape, so they are then turned off to men after that. That is somewhat understandable. But the cure would be counseling to help them believe that not all men are like the evil man who rapped them. Also being around dozens of good guys after that with good hearts helps a lot to reprogram their perspective on men.

And if a man is gay it is usually because he was sexually abused as a child in the gentle, seemingly loving way by a man, so they are then drawn to men.

Satan can program children through sexual abuse to have their orientation all messed up the rest of their lives. Why does God allow this? I have no idea. But the good news is, there is hope and there is a cure. Those that Satan breaks God can and will heal if you seek His help. πŸ˜πŸ˜‰

I was sexually abused as a child by a man, but it was in the gentle seemingly loving way, which is why my sexual abuse did not make me ever want to be gay. Thank God I was never rapped or abused in a scary way. If that had happened to me I can imagine I might be scared of all men after that.

So Christians do need to consider the background of a homosexual person. There is usually a reason. But since most Christians are too scared to look into the issue of sexual abuse, the church has not offered many cures or hope to homosexuals.

The only Christian program that offers help to anyone and everyone with open arms really is Celebrate Recovery, which is free! As opposed to $100 for a counseling session. 😞

So if you have ever had thoughts you might be gay, or anyone you know has, check out a Celebrate Recovery meeting at a church in your city. Just google your city name, or cities by you, and Celebrate Recovery and you will find one. πŸ˜€πŸ‘πŸΌ Talk about your abuse in the group share time. It is hard, but it is not until we talk about an abusive time that we can find healing from it. Others can help us to reverse any lies that Satan planted in our minds due to sexual abuse.

And I pray God will bless you with tons of peace and courage if you go! Don’t let Satan keep you from going! You can do it! You can be healed and whole again! You just have to believe. πŸ™‚ Amen.

May God bless you all!

Sin is Sin



Some video on my Facebook news feed said “Gender is binary. Get over it.” But no the correct statement would be sin is binary and you can go to hell for it. Meaning you can lust after the opposite sex or the same sex in sinful ways and God WILL judge you for it. 

I think male homosexuality is incredibly selfish because it is like a man thinks “How can I have sex without providing for a wife and children? I can be gay!” I know they probably don’t consciously think that but possibly subconsciously. 

Homosexuality can be controlled in the same way that sexual immorality can be. Counseling is the best cure for faulty or sinful thinking I think. You can pay for it or acquire a very wise Christian friend somewhere who can counsel you for free. I am lucky to have had such a wise and great friend for 20 years now, ever since I became Christian. πŸ™‚ 

The biggest issue in our modern time is people see no reason to control sin. They think any sin they want to commit they should be free to do it. Well you can be free in this life but maybe you should consider the next life.

The deception began with evolution. People somehow got convinced that there is no God, because all this coming from nothing is totally believable (sarcasm), so then what does that mean? No rules! Now we can do whatever we want! Or so many people think. Well believing that doesn’t make it true. You can believe all day that God doesn’t exist and that what you do doesn’t matter but the fact is that it DOES. 

Someday we will all have to give an account for how well we followed God’s rules. Yes there is grace now under the new covenant with Jesus, but that does not mean that sin does not matter anymore. Sin still very much matters to God. 


Bottom line, homosexuality is sin. The Bible clearly says that it is. But people can choose to disobey God in great ways. In the after life though, they will pay the price.