I began to spiral out of control at the age of 11. My mom passed away. She had cancer. I was too young to understand what was going on. I hated God ;I hated him for taking my mother away from me. I began to rebel against my father and my teachers at school. I just didn't really care anymore. I began to smoke pot around the age of 13. At the age of 15 I tried crystal meth. I was hooked almost instantly. I quit school, and I would hang out with people twice my age and party, I got a job but even with a job I would still do foolish things like breaking into people's houses, vandalizing people's property and eventually I ended up in prison at the age of 16. I was charged with armed robbery and theft for stealing a car. They tried me as an adult so I ended up with a 5 year sentence. Luckily I only had to serve one of those years.
I got out and went right back to doing drugs and violated my probation so I went back to jail. When I was released I began to do drugs again and party all the time. Years passed by like days. I had a daughter. Me and her mother both were on drugs. My daughter was 3 years old when I decided to leave because I couldn't handle the relationship that me and her mother had. She cheated and lied. I hated her. I couldn't trust her anymore.
I left and moved in with a drug dealer. We were going to sell drugs and I learned how to make meth. Before I knew it, meth had consumed my whole life. I began to use it intravenously. I realized that I had pushed everyone I had ever loved away and traded all of that for this drug. I could feel God pulling on my heart, trying to speak to me.
I still hated God, but I began to study the word of God. On June 28th 2009 I couldn't take it anymore; I left the house I was staying at. I left everything I owned behind and gave away all my drugs and when I got to the driveway I said a prayer in my heart and felt God push me away from where I was at. I ended up in front of this little church named Calvary Tabernacle that I didn't even know existed. It was 11:00 at night, the parking lot was empty. I was going to go all the way up to this church and pray on the steps but I didn't make it that far. I fell down to my knees in the parking lot and when my head hit the ground all I could say was "I love you and I need you God. I can't live without you ." And when I said that it was like lightning struck me. God breathed life back into me and filled me with the Holy Spirit. I knew it that instant that God had saved me. He was real. I felt how much He loved me and I had hope.
God's spirit stood me up and I looked up to heaven and shouted "I love you, I need you, and I can't live without you!" The Holy Spirit led me to a lake that wasn’t far from the church. I walked straight into the water up to my waist and fell back. The Holy Spirit baptized me.
Since then I have rebelled and relapsed over and over because of my worldly desires. But now I have fully surrendered my life to God and made a vow to God to never go back. My life is slowly being restored. Relationships are being restored by God. He is opening doors and making a way when there seems to be no way.
Everyone who hears this let this be proof that you are loved and that there is always hope. You're not too far gone. Never give up. God loves you. God will save you. Cry out to him; he is waiting. He has always been with you, and he will always be with you. I love you all. My Heart's greatest Desire is to lead as many lost souls to Jesus as I can, because he is the way, the only way, to the father.
Everyone is looking for a home and for love. Heaven is your home, and the love that you're looking for can only come from God. God bless you. I pray that this testimony touches every heart that hears it, and that it plants a seed of hope, faith and love that only God can increase in you. It is in Jesus name that I pray these things amen."
Amen! May God bless you all!
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