Mom Time

 My vision is mostly better now so I can finally write again. I had pre-clampsia. Praise God I am getting better though. God keeps telling me to drink tons of orange juice. That is the main healing cure for my condition. My C section scar seems to be totally healed, praise God. 

I love being a mommy again. I had missed it very much. I had to give my daughters up 4 years ago. My ex wasn't able to work anymore due to going crazy. Most women in that situation would have moved in with their mom. I didn't have that option for many reasons. So I gave my girls up to my ex in laws. I trust they are being well cared for. They were well off so I knew they could provide for them better then I could. 

Did I cause my ex to go crazy? I have no idea. I seem to be good at making guys go crazy. :(

But now I have a second chance to get this family thing right. I believe it will all be successful this time. Why? Because I am more mature now. I had some crazy fights with my ex at the beginning and at the end. They were all around him talking to other women or porn. My current man and I have never had a big fight. It is partly because he is younger than me. He is so sweet. I think all women should find a man who is younger than them. It seems to work out better. Then the man won't lord it over the woman and say dumb things like "I'm the man of the house." :) There is more chance that the man will actually respect his woman. So many men have so little respect for women these days. It is very sad. My man respects me and I respect him and that is all that is needed for a long and awesome relationship. 

Make sure you respect your mate. You won't last long together if you don't truly respect each other. 

I respect my man because he can handle working 12 hour shifts in a restaurant. That is the hardest job anyone could do. I respect him because he is the most honest and good person I have ever known. He is so kind. He has never been mean to me. He is willing to listen to sermons anytime I want to. He respects God's authority over him and that makes me respect him. He respects his mom and grandma. That is also why I respect him. He is so great! I love my Zachy poo.