Empires Falling

 Anger, greed and lust has caused every empire I have ever tried to build come crashing down. First there was my family. I was married and had 2 sweet daughters. But my temper made it dissolve and fall to pieces. My ex knew how to push my buttons. It seemed he wanted me to loose my cool. I know he wanted out because he was tired of being the sole provider. He kept pushing me to go make money. All he thought about was his love of money. I wasn't a good enough money making slave for him so he was done.  He tried to rile me up and to scare me away. He was tired of sharing his "wealth" with me. He didn't really have wealth but for some reason he thought he did. He didn't realize God gave him that wealth to take care of me and our daughters. So his greed and my anger and his lust for porn made that empire fall into pieces. What we tried so hard for 7 years to build exploded in one day. He threatened me with a pocket knife, so I told him to go live with his family. 

Then I tried to build a new empire, my Papa John's empire. There was no destructive greed this time, but there was lust, and a lot of it. Me and Thomas lusted after each other, so things couldn't stay calm and professional. I should have married him. He indirectly asked me to run away with him when we first met. Very lovely idea I thought. But I was already hooked on doing pizza deliveries. I didn't want to give up the excitement of that and the independence of it. Toward the end, his anger got explosive and he scared me away. He didn't get what he wanted, because he was too afraid to ask me to marry him again. So I moved away. 

Then I tried building my next Papa John's empire and my only apartment on my own. I worked harder then I've ever worked in my life, but I had tons of fun doing it. There was some greed. I was hungry for more hours and raises and more tip money. But I had to pay $850 a month for my own apartment so that made sense. I was filled with lust for a co worker. I constantly thought about him. It was an obsession really. It was because that work place was my whole life. I had nothing going on besides Papa John's. I was obsessed with that store. I did have a secret lover though. He exploded in anger at me several times, due to his own sexual frustration. Then our friend Michael died and the empire fell down. In my grief I could not keep going. I fell down weak and breathless. Satan took me out this time with grief. 

Now I am building my last and final beautiful house and family empire. First I made a perfect living space set up. I made it look like heaven on earth in here. Then I focused on building lasting love with my mate. Then I grew a perfect backyard and created a wonderful kitten family. Now that all that is complete, I am working on my bracelet empire for the 200th time. But that is God's empire, not mine. 😊 

And I believe we will live happily ever after in this final empire of ours. I have faith that the evil side of greed and lust and anger will have no place here. I know that our lust will only be for each other, our greed will only be to provide for our future family, and our anger will only be at evil and trying to push out the darkness. All things are as they should be, finally. I can finally rest. This is going to be awesome. I know in my second perfect family attempt all will go well, forever. Thank you Jesus that it will. I have faith.