A Crazy Ex

I was with a guy for over a year. His parents were millionaires. I always found it odd that with all the money in his family, he was still so miserable. Perhaps he was upset that he didn't get to have his own million dollars. He was a hard worker for a while. He drove for Uber and managed to save 50k. After we broke up, he started gambling a lot. There was a casino right next to his mom's beach condo. He had invited me to stay with him there, but I decided not to. I was worried he would become physically abusive. He had a lot of anger inside of him. I think it was from all his exes who hurt him a lot. 

Later he told me he kept thinking of jumping off the balcony. He was still depressed over losing me, but he could have driven out to be with me. He just didn't want to make the drive. 

I have prayed for him a ton over the past year. I hope all is ok with him. At some point I decided to stop communicating with him. His texts were generally very verbally abusive. I suppose he was just mad at the world. 

He was Jewish. I kept trying to convert him to Christianity. I felt like I got him close to wanting to be saved. He had a good heart, and he was a nice guy, but very angry. 

One night he lost his cat. He was having a panic attack over it really. That cat meant the world to him, which I could never understand. The crazy cat would spray all over, so we always disagreed on the cat being inside my house. That night he thought I let the cat outside, since he couldn't find it. The cat was hiding in the bathroom for some reason. My ex was yelling at me and then cornered me in my bathroom and put his hand on my throat. He was telling me I should call 911. I don't know if he was worried he would hurt me or what. So I did. As soon as they got there, he answered the door and they took him to their police car. 

They asked me questions about what happened. He was in jail overnight. The next day he was bailed out by his mom. She was too nice with him. I think that's why he never got better. If I had a son who acted like he was going to choke his girlfriend, I would have let him stay in jail for a week at least. 

His anger was very scary. We had many break ups over our year of being together. I kept trying to replace him when we were apart, but it didn't seem to work. I think in many ways he was meant to be my calling, like I was supposed to be his angel. Many people didn't get why I was with him. I always said I was trying to help him. He reminded me of my brother. I always wished I could have helped him more. I guess I was helping my brother through this guy. 

It was a roller coaster to be with him. I was never bored with him, that's for sure. I knew his anger started due to his parent's divorce. Then he felt lost for a long time I think. He may have felt like how could he have a great long lasting relationship if they didn't? I always wondered that for my own life, since my parents were divorced too. Most of my relationships didn't last longer then 2 months. When you don't see a couple stay together no matter what, you wonder if it is even possible. 

It is never easy to stay with someone for a long time. You have to be patient with them. If they drive you to a breaking point, you might want to give up. But there are plenty of fish in the sea. I am now with a wonderful guy who I hope to be with forever. If you had a crazy ex, just have faith that God will bring a great person to replace them. He will. Just believe.